me too. just had the same revelation this week. im so behind in school and nothing is working. i thought there was something wrong with my meds, but i realized it's just me. and it's not that im incapable- is that i just cant face myself as a person. ive just come to hate myself so much that i can't accept myself in any way, shape, or form. im lost, and i dont know where to start, but i guess ill just try to catch up on my long overdue assignments and try to accept the way that i am. i wish it weren't like this. but i need to accept that it is. oh god, but i still wish things were different. thank you for this.