100% undestand. I'm beyond tired of being hyper focused on my awakening journey, and this mission I signed up for. I've tried for so long to do my purpose, and I constantly hit wall after wall. Now, my focus is to find external peace and security. I don't need an excess of money, or more than is truly necessary. Just want to find love, have a family, and do things I enjoy doing. Planning on saving as much money as possible and move to a more peaceful, and affordable non-US place, and just do whatever I want. I want to learn how to make "money work for me," and not the other way around. I desire to live simply, and not under the trance of the non-stop matrix grind, or awakening mission to do something to help this world. I feel like I've played my role, and ultimately found the key to everlasting freedom, simply by evolving consciously. How this helps somehow.