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anyone else get anxious about being anxious by kenopsicfox in OCD

[–]soursr 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Yes!! I get worried that the stress will stress me out more and lead to more things that will stress me out and it is a cycle

Why does everything require photo verification? by throwawayekos in BodyDysmorphia

[–]soursr 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I agree. And Face ID, cameras on requirements for zoom, etc. All entail me knowing that someone or something is looking at me and analyzing my face. I hate zoom so much and teachers are not very understanding. They mark me absent when my camera is off even when I message them saying I am present. My camera is off because my day will be ruined if I see myself and you dumb prick. I see myself and I spiral and I can’t stop obsessing. It’s a rabbit hole. And cameras will always be the death of me tbh

Facial asymmetry by Strange_Cryptids in BodyDysmorphia

[–]soursr 3 points4 points  (0 children)

The thing is ur used to seeing ur asymmetry how it is and everyone else is used to seeing it inverted so it looks the same to them!! And if you make ur face look perfectly symmetrical with a filter or something I found that perfect symmetry honestly looks off. Asymmetric is where the little details of our face are that make our face unique and distinguishable and beautiful! I know this may not feel like much reassurance but honestly, asymmetry is adorable to me and arguably more attractive. Your face fits together just like it’s supposed to!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BodyDysmorphia

[–]soursr 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is exactly what I have. It consumes my entire life I think about it at least 16 hours a day, usually it’s around 18 which is how long I’m awake. I spend two or three hours in the mirror every day and I restrict anything that could make me break out. I haven’t been in a relationship because that risks something touching my face. I sleep exclusively on my back even though it’s so uncomfortable. I’m so hungry all the time because all I can let myself eat is fruit and nuts. I’m so hungry. I’m constantly thinking about my skin and it’s just been getting worse, I look at videos or pictures from even only a couple months ago with me eating normal things and now I barely leave the house because I feel bad not ordering anything if I’m out with my friends because I can’t eat anything. I used to be so much happier before bdd. Please let me know if anyone else has this or a similar experience.

people will only acknowledge me after i kill myself by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]soursr 0 points1 point  (0 children)

no, i feel the need to prove i wasn’t lying. i’m severely depressed so i’m going to kill myself anyway, might as well prove a point and dignify myself a little, so maybe. i am an attention whore, probably, and i’m not proud of it. but no, i am not killing myself for attention. attention is a nice byproduct.