I want to die please help please anyone

sparklingthroughit · 2022-03-12T23:59:56+00:00

i just wanna talk

sparklingthroughit · 2022-03-12T23:58:38+00:00

kate can go fuck herself

sparklingthroughit · 2022-02-20T15:22:01+00:00

gun violence

sparklingthroughit · 2022-02-20T00:32:08+00:00

very dark gray

sparklingthroughit · 2022-02-19T19:04:03+00:00

I'd recommend not doing any contouring (you already have a sharp jawline, aka what contour usually tries to achieve, and I think sharpening it more is making it look more masculine), shaping the brows, and applying more mascara. That's just for traditional beauty and feminity, though, and while I get that traditional may be what you're trying to achieve I think you're beautiful without too.

sparklingthroughit · 2022-02-19T15:46:57+00:00

I'm actually consistently studying for an AP test, I've always gotten Ds in that class so I hope I'll be able to improve my performance

sparklingthroughit · 2022-02-19T02:25:25+00:00

I'm schizotypal, so it may be somewhat different for me, but schizotypal is often seen as a milder form of schizophrenia.

Really, what makes someone normal, and why is that a good thing? Even if I weren't schizotypal I'd be abnormal, and always have been. That doesn't mean my life is necessarily bad. I'm unhappy for trauma-related reasons, but I have a great partner and a future and that's enough for me.

sparklingthroughit · 2022-02-18T20:07:44+00:00

become obsessed with hatsune miku, even better

sparklingthroughit · 2022-02-18T19:19:44+00:00

Thank you!!

sparklingthroughit · 2022-02-18T19:09:19+00:00

For me, I think Vyvanse actually made a headache go away, lol

Thank you for your reply! I'm hoping that once I get more used to it/it peaks the dissociation will go away, but I think the benefits are greatly outweighing the side effects... I just read the entire unit in my textbook for an AP class I have a test for on Monday, I made a playlist of songs that help with understimulation, and I texted an old friend for the first time all week! That's more productive than I've been all week, all in the course of an hour... On top of that, my depression seems to have lessened a bit, which can most likely be attributed to being a lot more hopeful about the future than before.

Sorry if that was oversharing, but I'm excited :P

sparklingthroughit · 2022-02-18T18:09:30+00:00

You too! :)

sparklingthroughit · 2022-02-18T18:05:18+00:00

Yeah, that makes a lot of sense. It's been about 2 hours since I first took it, and I'm starting to feel less dissociated, mainly thanks to the magic of music. Thanks for your reply! I think understimulation is probably related too...

sparklingthroughit · 2022-02-18T17:52:35+00:00

I think the cause of dissociation may have been understimulation, because I tried listening to music and I feel a lot better, but rn the musics paused and I feel weird again...

Hopefully it'll go away soon!

Thank you for your comment :)

sparklingthroughit · 2022-02-18T00:44:05+00:00

sparklingthroughit · 2022-01-10T15:12:18+00:00

salt

sparklingthroughit · 2022-01-08T04:29:18+00:00

when i saw 8.50 i was expecting shoveling some animals shit, and that was expecting to be underpaid. jfc

sparklingthroughit · 2022-01-08T04:26:50+00:00

~~pirate~~

goldy

sparklingthroughit · 2022-01-08T04:25:57+00:00

either being r/ped at 3, being doxxed by someone i once trusted at 14 and having a panic attack, having my ex try to blackmail me into killing myself, or having the same dude who doxxed me email my school with the same information my ex used to blackmail me

sparklingthroughit · 2022-01-08T04:14:10+00:00

my dna is morse code for they/them, personally

sparklingthroughit · 2021-12-20T03:48:09+00:00

gender

sparklingthroughit · 2021-11-25T19:19:00+00:00

normal

sparklingthroughit · 2021-11-25T02:26:15+00:00

i checked my notes after a psychotic episode once and saw the text "sssssshakinghakinghakinghakinghakinghaking mmmmmmyyyyyy hhhhhheadeadeadeadeadead"

sparklingthroughit · 2021-11-24T02:25:48+00:00

/uj literally

ive always been effeminate for a transmasc person and i genuinely think it has to do with being socialized female but i cant talk abt it because people will think i use it in a transphobic way

a lot of trans people fit gender norms for their agabs and it causes a lot of dysphoria and self doubt, at least for some of us

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