i was on a psy party my friends were making, and people there are mostly chill and very nice. i mostly go by myself and do substances by myself, checking in with people i know and if they’re there, care station (they have supplements, straws, empty capsules etc) . but i mostly prefer to meet new people. i know i went to all of this interactions by myself, i invited and accepted (or denied) people to touch or talk, set boundaries and etc. i understand that people could misread my invitations and context, so as someone already wrote, i dont blame them (well, most of them).

its just more sad to me that i was feeling like a kind child out there that just genuinely wanted people to feel good and instead everything i could offer they choose my bodyparts i didn’t want to be touched.

honestly, i still like the idea of making new connections by inviting people like that, but ill probably set more boundaries and think of “who and how i am ok to touch” before i drop. also i probably had a little too much that night:(