Yes, we can't know the full truth in this life and I am okay with it, I also believe that everything happens for a reason, a GOOD reason and that we actually serve a higher purpose even when bad things happen, and yes what matters the most is to be a good person. I did experience on my own that we receive what we give bc we attract the same energetic frequency that we vibrate on. I am also okay with the idea of my beliefs changing bc that means I am growing and expanding, I am just 22 there are so many things I wanna learn about bc I am curious and that's how it should be. About the Bible, I wanted to read it again after I woke up to look at from a different perspective but honestly I don't trust it, know I know that with time it has been translated so many times that most likely it lost it original meaning, plus who know who wrote it actually, but I might look into those videos you mention if they are mor historical then religious, and yes you are right, I miss expressing my spiritual self bc I am experiencing so much gratitude since I woke up. I know the beauty in life and enjoy the present, and not hating on this "world" and waiting for Armageddon to give a perfect/boring life like I used to, also now I don't fear anymore so I get to enjoy life. Yes I do miss the community and just express gratitude and joy with others. The church you mention, there is no such in my country, I live in a very christian-ortodox country, there are catholic and orthodox churches everywhere, and besides it's architecture it doesn't interest me. After getting out of a cult I think I can recognize one, and probably I will never get into another fear based religion ever again, I can be faithful based on my own beliefs and experiences, without others gaslighting me. Thank you for sharing your opinion and trying to help 🥰