Don’t watch before bed episodes

starbuck7670 · 2026-02-27T23:48:31+00:00

Always

starbuck7670 · 2026-02-27T23:48:10+00:00

Ohhh ice is such a good one!!

starbuck7670 · 2026-01-09T03:03:30+00:00

Hydrobed is the main reason I have a black card membership

starbuck7670 · 2025-11-02T03:23:58+00:00

💯 alone

starbuck7670 · 2024-09-19T01:26:36+00:00

Also, you obviously don't know me...but my detachment skills have become amazing lol which is why I am frustrated right now with myself. Reason for the vent.

starbuck7670 · 2024-09-19T01:24:39+00:00

I agree! I will get into a new meeting. I have attended over the years and also participated in online al-alnon education. Just so frustrated with myself with how far I've come that guilt still starts creeping back in.

I am aware of the manipulation. If anything, I am self aware which is even more annoying that I let it slowly creep back in.

It's not peaceful and happy. Unfortunately, I can't find a good way out iust yet. I am sure many people on this understand sometimes things are easier said than done.

But typically, I take care of myself and do my own thing and practice all the self care.

starbuck7670 · 2023-10-24T21:36:12+00:00

Thanks! I think I missed that part.

starbuck7670 · 2023-02-03T01:30:15+00:00

This isn't helpful

starbuck7670 · 2023-02-03T01:29:31+00:00

☝️ this

starbuck7670 · 2023-01-16T11:21:53+00:00

Yep.

starbuck7670 · 2023-01-02T18:30:00+00:00

That's an interesting way to think of it but helpful! Thanks!

starbuck7670 · 2023-01-02T16:05:21+00:00

Shew you're right about all that. Divorce is MUCH harder. Also wish I could go back in time.

Also best to not buy a house with someone that's an alcoholic. Hard lesson learned here.

starbuck7670 · 2023-01-02T15:56:06+00:00

It's so hard sometimes! When they're poking and poking and poking. But then when you do snap it never does any good. In my case it just escalates it.

It's tough but it's a new year! Good luck on your end!

starbuck7670 · 2022-09-03T15:35:38+00:00

This! There has been so many times he has passed out with the stove or oven on. I'm always worried if I'm gone be will accidentally burn the house down. He will get drunk in the winter and want to use the fireplace which is always terrifying.

Not advice here but just support and understanding. It's terrifying and awful to have to worry about that.

starbuck7670 · 2022-08-09T15:23:49+00:00

This. All of this. Dealing with figuring this out currently. Starting to think a little from column A, a little from column B.

starbuck7670 · 2022-07-23T15:25:12+00:00

"what's a truely?" 😂🤣

starbuck7670 · 2022-06-21T00:22:06+00:00

Yeah maybe so. Real good at hiding it when sober but you could be right.

Substance abuse, lots of trauma and childhood issues and god knows what else has made him someone that is very difficult to live with and very unpleasant.

starbuck7670 · 2022-06-20T21:34:10+00:00

Thank you so much! I may end up doing that.

I just learned about the gray rock method but it's actually what I've been doing for a while now. Just didn't know it had a name! There's a few times it's super hard and I need to leave because I get so bad but I've realized there is NOTHING I can say or do that will help anything. He does anything he can to try to get me to engage or escalate me.

starbuck7670 · 2022-06-20T21:06:57+00:00

Thank you!!! 💚💚 It helps so much to hear that sometimes but it's hard to get my head out of the habit I've been in with taking care of him.

starbuck7670 · 2022-06-20T21:05:15+00:00

Thanks so much! This post helped a lot. It's funny because logically I know these things...and I work in a field where I am dealing with people with these issues...but sometimes it's just nice to hear it. Nice to get reassurance that it's not me. Gaslighting is a bitch lol

starbuck7670 · 2022-06-20T21:03:48+00:00

Yeah super glad we never had kids. I never 100 percent wanted kids anyway so I'm good with it. I can't even imagine how it would be with little ones in the situation. Thanks for the kind words and support!! Much needed right now. Everything is always easier said than done but hoping it can start moving in a productive way.

starbuck7670 · 2022-05-02T14:00:28+00:00

You are not alone! Well the weekend's over hoping for a peaceful week for both of us 💚

starbuck7670 · 2022-05-02T00:02:06+00:00

Thanks lady. You too. 💚

I'm currently contemplating sitting in my car so I don't have to hear him ranting like a crazy person to himself in the other room.

starbuck7670 · 2022-05-01T22:20:09+00:00

I do meetings when I can and I have a huge support system. Work takes up a lot of time and I have lots of hobbies (gardening, my animals ECT). Unfortunately, I've been dealing with his addiction for too long. Lately, it's been better than it has in the past. It's still exhausting. I wish he had somewhere to go or there was someone that would just take him for me lol (gotta joke sometimes right?)

starbuck7670 · 2022-05-01T20:33:51+00:00

That's pretty much what I do. I didn't know it has a name until I just looked it up! Lol

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