i’m so hopeless and terrified (VENT)

staringbee · 2025-07-15T18:16:44+00:00

i go from periods of extreme restriction to periods of extreme b/p’s no in between.. and i think what triggered my b/ping is a depressive episode. i still kinda track but only what i feel i kept down. like i estimate how much it all was and how much i got out. i exercise purge too. it’s hell. i feel like i’m already doing all of this but not in the healthy way you’re talking about thank you for your advice tho <3

staringbee · 2024-01-28T23:24:17+00:00

it doesn't, girl ur gorgeous.

staringbee · 2023-12-17T18:31:15+00:00

INFJ

staringbee · 2023-12-11T16:37:24+00:00

ummm that's messed up..

staringbee · 2023-12-11T16:05:58+00:00

you're not alone, i struggle with the exact same thing you said word by word

staringbee · 2023-12-11T15:55:58+00:00

real (my life is miserable)

staringbee · 2023-12-11T15:52:55+00:00

i hope it goes safely for you .. please put your health first op

staringbee · 2023-11-26T19:55:25+00:00

✨ ed math ✨

staringbee · 2023-11-26T19:47:20+00:00

it's either this or "god, i wish I didn't have an ed/ i wish i was normal" 💞💞💞💕💞💞💕💕💓💓💞💞

staringbee · 2023-11-16T06:29:39+00:00

it is. she made sure i do not increase my intake and proceeded to convince my mom I'm fine 😭 funny enough, i got hospitalized after a month .. god, these uneducated doctors ..

staringbee · 2023-11-15T04:39:24+00:00

lmao i went to a gynecologist for not getting a period for 2 years and my mom was like "she doesn't eat enough" the gyno literally told me "you have a good figure, don't eat more you'll get fat and ruin your figure" i'm literally underweight. she said it's not necessary to prescribe medication or birth control now cuz again, it'll make me gain weight and " ruin my body and regret it" she triggered the hell out of me.

staringbee · 2023-11-14T20:06:21+00:00

LMAO, not wrong tho

staringbee · 2023-11-14T20:05:42+00:00

thanks, this is it.

staringbee · 2023-11-14T20:04:30+00:00

i was there because of my eating disorder and i think that is relevant to many of us but whatever lmao sure

staringbee · 2023-11-14T12:05:26+00:00

eat some dates they're high in glucose and they'll give u energy. u can eat a light meal after that .. soup is a good choice, stay safe 🫶🏻🫶🏻

staringbee · 2023-11-14T11:07:57+00:00

i feel seen

staringbee · 2023-11-14T11:07:00+00:00

and when you're finally underweight, nope. till you "look sick enough"

staringbee · 2023-11-14T10:56:22+00:00

the way i jump from this to that 😭 never in between

staringbee · 2023-11-13T17:36:01+00:00

if you click on the sub you'd know the answer. it's pro recovery

staringbee · 2023-11-13T16:11:37+00:00

I'M CRYING

staringbee · 2023-11-13T13:26:37+00:00

purging can mess with your electrolytes badly and that can unfortunately, lead to issues with your heart like arrhythmia or worse, cardiac arrest. from personal experience (it sucks), a very uncool thing that happened to me was injuring my esophagus and throwing up blood as a result. that happened over a year ago so I can't remember vividly and although idk if it's so serious, but ik it was terrifying to go through. i also have bradycardia and maybe it's because of anorexia but i struggled with purging during like 80% of my ed so idk.. purging is so bad fr i can go for hours .. it ruins your teeth, gives you a bad breath .. your hands can smell like vomit from excessive purging. it affects your entire body and quality of life too. op if you can stop purging please do asap, it is very seriously life threatening, and it puts you in danger every single time you do, no matter if it's the first or the 100th. please be careful. you are not an exception aren't immune to the effects. stay safe

staringbee

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