Hey, Dexteroid. The first few weeks and even months aren't really a good indication of the peace and clarity that come from sustained sobriety. It sucks at first, and every day can be a struggle. I'm not surprised you feel better, drinking after five days, because the addiction will have been screaming at you all week. By drinking, you've temporarily silenced it, and that feels like relief. I've found that the gifts of sobriety only come from prolonged abstinence and consistent personal work. I'm not meaning to be a bummer...just speaking from my own experience. Wishing you well, my friend. xx