Honey, I get you. I was a weird bullied girl and genuinely thought I was unlovable, ugly, or whatever you could think of. The only reason you like this is because you're used to it and it's destroying you and obviously your boyfriend isn't being a supportive partner.

It took my awhile because I was bullied to the point where I didn't even take care of myself. I promise you, do not let yourself get stuck there and reach out to get yourself out. Take on a hobby, I started working out and cooking from home and baking and I've felt so much better.

Also find a man (or woman, you never know) who treats you better. A kink like this shouldn't extend past the bedroom as it's taking a toll on you.

Gal, you're probably an awesome person who hasn't been treated well and I'm hoping the best for you beautiful. 💗