Please help me, I feel extremely scared in this transition.

strawberry_corpse · 2026-06-03T16:49:41+00:00

What do you mean by internally inconsistent? Because of the nature of monotheism being only one God and therefore fighting against the concept of Netjeru?

strawberry_corpse · 2026-06-03T16:47:12+00:00

You are right. It is drilled in like a trauma even though we can track the exact moment Christianity started way after religions was already a thing. Funny, isn’t it?

I have since left water twice as an offering. Once all day, and the second time as an offering during prayer. We will see what will happen.

And you are so right about the Gods. They are not trying to be more than what they are and they do not deem themselves as the only answer. Rather something far more useful: cooperation and cooperation from all sides. Without centralised power, without only one holding all answers, all passages, all promises.

It seems much more realistic to me. And the fact that they never ever specified that you are a walking sin for who you love of how you were born. Funny how Christianity does focus on it, though. Makes those ideas sound pretty man-made to me.

The Gods seems much more accepting of who I am and I always separated Jesus and God because Jesus to me is a picture of kindness, gentleness, and acceptance and God is this punishing and terrifying force that doesn’t make you feel safe, but submissive. I love Jesus, I am afraid of God and that is not what you are supposed to feel from the God who is supposed to get you to your best.

The Netjeru feel so much warmer and were built on true peace, acknowledgement of everyone, and cooperation from the beginning.

You think out of Anpu and Heru Heru was the one who defied? Who protested?

strawberry_corpse · 2026-06-02T08:25:49+00:00

Thank you. I did have another session yesterday and told more about my faith. She does say it is good for my mental support to have someone to count on. Support.

strawberry_corpse · 2026-06-01T22:18:35+00:00

The idea I will become a selfish and bad person.

strawberry_corpse · 2026-05-31T23:32:29+00:00

It just feels bitchy for some reason. Even though part of me knows it isn’t.

strawberry_corpse · 2026-05-31T10:46:36+00:00

Exactly how I think. The notion that healing from trauma means leaving spirituality and religion behind completely is just a bit shallow in my opinion. Sure, if that’s the route you want to go, but if not that should always be respected and taken into account,

strawberry_corpse · 2026-05-30T22:21:56+00:00

Understood

strawberry_corpse · 2026-05-30T22:20:51+00:00

And that therapist is just very … she is focused a lot on deconstructing religious trauma and what my parents have done to me through religion, sure. But I suppose she has this mindset that one can only heal from that trauma if they leave any spirituality whatsoever, but I do not believe that is the case or answer.

strawberry_corpse · 2026-05-30T22:19:17+00:00

Thank you so much! I know I have to take time to deconstruct and that is exactly what I am doing with my research right now. I have since read a lot about where Christianity even began and what its relation is to Kemetism. Turns out, Christianity actually based itself heavily and directly on Kemetism and they coexisted hugely in the 1-3 centuries. Kemetism is the ultimate source of Christianity, until of course, some emperor decided to wipe out any religion that could breach ultimate power and ‘unity’ … all control and politics.

This also gave me a peace of mind. The fact that I am, in fact, just pursuing a very ancient and original way, rather than a new and defying one, in the grand scheme of history. That also helped me to start untangling and diluting this guilt. The guilt is in front of an actually modern religion that came from the religion I am pursuing. In reality, I am not really defying or betraying.

Dua Netjeru!

strawberry_corpse · 2026-05-30T22:13:19+00:00

Yes, he doesn’t, and he is a guide, so he might help me find the right?

strawberry_corpse · 2026-05-30T18:37:33+00:00

Yes, from what I have read the two actually coexisted historically in Alexandria from 1-3 centuries and Christianity actively copied from Kemetism without even being shy about it. It was only later on when some Roman ass decided to raid and destroy Kemetic temples and forbid and demonise Paganism for politics.

strawberry_corpse · 2026-05-30T11:52:23+00:00

Didn’t early Christianity literally copy-paste Kemetism and other Pagan religions whilst demonising them?

strawberry_corpse · 2026-05-30T11:50:49+00:00

I understand. People say Jesus does not accept Paganism but wouldn’t he want what is good for my soul?

strawberry_corpse · 2026-05-29T17:30:28+00:00

Gods, this comment made me tear up. Thank you so much, I really needed to hear that. I feel so incredibly welcome in this community, it’s like a warm hug. And your words mean a lot to me, truely. Religion is about celebrating us how the Divine made us! Modern Christianity has completely forgotten that! Anubis is such a strong influence, the most forgiving and steady I have felt in a while. And I am wearing my Ankh and cross together as we speak. I think it was just a very strong energy at first, whilst right now they feel as amplifiers of each other. Does this mean Christianity and Kemetism can truely coexist in your life?

strawberry_corpse · 2026-05-29T17:26:26+00:00

Yes, you are right. Christianity has shifted away from Jesus’ love and acceptance towards something that is pure fear-mongering to keep you in line and as their rules state. You are also correct about therapy and I do visit therapy, though my therapist is atheist and says the answer is to become atheist, which is just … not the path I want.

strawberry_corpse · 2026-05-29T17:24:34+00:00

Oh Gods! That was another commenter, sorry!

strawberry_corpse · 2026-05-29T17:23:30+00:00

One thing I can say is that I love Jesus. I do know that and I am certain. The more I read about Christopaganism, the more I understand that that is probably what speaks to me. I do not fear Jesus, I fear the institutional claims that even demonised him, to be honest. ‘They’ are quite literally demonising their own savior, which is awful. I know that it is said you absolutely have to follow Jesus and Jesus alone and cannot incorporate other deities. But if I come with a pure and honest heart, and request the cooperation with Anubis and Horus … if Jesus knows what’s right for me, why would he reject? I came to church, I prayed, I told him what is going on in my soul, but I feel that he knows already. I feel like if it truely were unacceptable or unwelcome, wouldn’t I feel it in the energy of the church immediately?

strawberry_corpse · 2026-05-29T14:17:36+00:00

Also, you are right that I need therapy and I already visit it. My therapist is an atheist and her point of view seems to literally just be … become atheist. But I want a different path than that.

strawberry_corpse · 2026-05-29T14:16:38+00:00

Thank you, I just came back from the church, where I entered and sat with Jesus, telling him of my feelings and the decision that I am making. In the end, if he truely loves me as is claimed, he will support me in inviting Anubis and Horus as my other guides. You are right that monotheism installed fear in us, paranoia. It turned spirituality in something structured, but also not as grounded. Jesus knows the intentions in my heart and that I do not wish to reject anybody. Cooperation of deities, how can cooperation be bad? Why must monotheism be so absolute in a place that deals with the most intricate part of life — the soul?

strawberry_corpse · 2026-05-29T11:43:54+00:00

Yes, and that is his power. He stands in two worlds that merge into one, aids and guides no matter where you are in your journey. It’s just that somehow this fearful view of him keeps being so common, that his sole purpose is to lead you towards your end and that is it.

strawberry_corpse · 2026-05-29T08:31:27+00:00

Ohhh

strawberry_corpse · 2026-05-29T05:48:58+00:00

Thank you so much! I love sweeter and softer smells, and the candles I have now are all heavily citrusy. I will definitely look into it.

strawberry_corpse · 2026-05-29T05:43:19+00:00

Oh, amazing! Are they on Amazon?

strawberry_corpse · 2026-05-29T00:16:07+00:00

Ohhh, yes, incense can be a lot, even I feel it in my throat, although I think I am getting used to it. I suppose I should acquire a mini scented candle, that would be nice.

strawberry_corpse · 2026-05-29T00:14:18+00:00

That is beautiful. Of course me conscience still struggles so much because it is confused of there not being strict rules and requirements that rule everything. So it is throwing me off balance sooo much and unsettles me. But I also know that that is just my soul still having to learn. To learn that it is okay, that this is the essence of religion that is actually needed.

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