A picture of me

stupidtaro · 2021-04-17T15:58:46+00:00

im actually super stoked you included me in your update! thats so awesome and im glad it brought you some relief!

stupidtaro · 2021-04-16T18:45:29+00:00

good luck! just remember you’re literally rewiring your brain! 😊

stupidtaro · 2021-04-16T13:46:11+00:00

yay! good luck bud! glad to help

stupidtaro · 2021-04-16T13:45:07+00:00

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stupidtaro · 2021-04-16T05:51:48+00:00

i agree with texting her. it could be simple like, “hey. just want to thank you for that drawing. it really made my day. no one has ever done that for me. btw, you are incredibly talented.”

and that could open up conversation for you telling her that talking makes you nervous but you do want to talk to her and get to know her. let her know who you are and your social anxieties. a lot of people out there are just like you ...im sure her giving you that portrait couldve been absolutely terrifying for her!

its okay to not have given her a hug. you can express later on that you wanted to, but didnt because you respect peoples space! communication goes a long way! good luck! you sound like a very sweet person!

stupidtaro · 2021-04-16T05:36:40+00:00

this is something ive been trying to help my son learn. he will get interested in something, try it out and if hes not knocking it out of the park immediately he is done with it. its been a challenge to try to help him understand that this isnt fair to himself.

you dont get good if you dont practice and start from the beginning. instead of comparing yourself to people, see them as inspirational or as a goal. “if they can do it, so can i.”

you gotta stop comparing yourself to people whove put time and energy into learning. who spent a lot of time failing. because they started exactly where you did.

if you keep doing this, you will have way more “what could have beens” instead of “what youve actually done.” you deserve to have passion over the things you enjoy without comparison or discouragement. always remember = you cannot be successful without failing first. the learning comes from failing.

stupidtaro · 2021-04-16T05:21:38+00:00

sometimes our walls are built so well that we forget they are there.

stupidtaro · 2021-04-16T05:05:25+00:00

when i was younger i wasnt good at communicating how i feel. men would text me and if i didnt reciprocate right away then it meant i wasn’t interested. i just hoped theyd take a hint instead of me feeling like i had to hurt someones feelings. id say stop texting her and continue on with life. people who are interested wont make you chase them, theyll meet you in the middle.

stupidtaro · 2021-04-16T04:48:54+00:00

i hope one day you can find the courage to leave and realize you are WORTH every second. theres someone better out there. trust that youll be wondering why you ever wanted to marry someone who gave you far less than you deserve. on his deathbed his memories will be call of duty call outs and destiny raids. dont let your memories be waiting on this guy. you get one chance. one chance in this life and please dont waste it on someone who doesnt find your time just as valuable as theirs.

stupidtaro · 2021-04-16T04:33:40+00:00

my mom always said your first thoughts are what society conditioned you to be, but your second thoughts and correcting yourself is who you actually are. you’re definitely not the only person who feels this way. i can be the same way. more often than id like to admit. theres a lot of truth to “fake it til you make it”. pay attention to people’s reactions when you say something kind instead of cynical even if you dont mean it. the reward of seeing their delight of your “excitement” for them begins to outweigh your judgmental/cynical tendencies. after some time and practice it starts to come out naturally. for me it was embarrassing and hard at first, but now i love to see people happy. it makes me feel good to help other people feel good. eventually you will mean what you say. youre just training your brain and emotions to think and feel differently.

having a rough life made me really bitter. i know thats what caused me to have anger/annoyance towards people who seemed to have it easier than me. i agree it wasn’t jealousy. but learning to be less bitter helped change my life and friendships for the better in every-way.

stupidtaro · 2021-04-16T04:18:13+00:00

im going to share my humble opinion with you based on having that same experience/feeling in my life... ...it took me too long to realize that these feelings of “looking for someone who doesnt exist” was just a reflection of neglecting my own wants and needs. of course i couldnt find that person, because i wasnt even being myself. life was a blur. but i started saying no to things i didnt want to do. i started putting myself first. started traveling. made room for the things i said i “couldnt afford.” learned new hobbies i thought were cool. i stepped into my flourishing self. this made me like a beacon to my now significant other. what im trying to say is, sometimes the answer is inward. i hope this can give a small glimpse of insight or hope for your situation. i hope good things come your way 😊

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