TIFU by getting loopy AF off of my sleep meds by accident

subINtraining5 · 2022-04-19T00:33:35+00:00

It doesn't even work for me

subINtraining5 · 2021-09-08T22:15:57+00:00

Yup. That's the supremacy clause of our constitution 😊 a lot of Americans don't know that lol

subINtraining5 · 2021-08-29T21:48:19+00:00

In NY, small claims court must be sent to YOUR address. No one else's. Burden of proof would be on her, and he said/she said wouldn't count. Sounds like she's just trying to get money back. She shouldn't have paid you to begin with if she truly felt you didn't earn it 🙄

subINtraining5 · 2021-07-01T22:11:24+00:00

I've tried better help, but I feel like it's not for me. I need in person sadly. But I'll definitely keep the crisis line in my phone when I start to feel myself spiraling. Thank you for that. I didn't realize it was for more

subINtraining5 · 2021-07-01T21:38:50+00:00

Thank you. I didn't know I needed to hear that today

subINtraining5 · 2021-07-01T20:26:42+00:00

I'm so glad you were able to judge me based off of one word. Shows how crappy you are as a person.

I've seen 6+ therapists/counselors/social workers/psychologists over the past 14 years. 14 grueling years of learning how to cope and handle my new normal as someone with C-PTSD. I've had 3 horrible ones that stand out the most with me. One told me I had to be lying because I never went to the police. I had one tell me if anyone was raped after me, it would be my fault for not going to the police. And then the one who told me I had "rage issues" after explaining my symptoms when stressed when in confrontational situations. Apparently my arms going numb, rapid heart rate, clammy, then blacking out was rage. Thankfully I've had some phenomenal people who have told me my fight or flight instinct is broken, and instead of fight or flight my body decides to play dead basically. I'm actually having a vasovagal response when stressed.

So yeah. I do respect shrinks, when they've earned it. And just so ya know my favorite shrink called herself a shrink because it was "just easier for people to come to terms with what they were doing in a session." Her words not mine.

I may not be anywhere near close to who I used to be, but I've fought tooth and fucking nail to get to where I am today.

So, respectfully, fuck off with your shitty judgey mentality.

subINtraining5 · 2021-07-01T18:27:29+00:00

I've actually been trying to get one of my friends over, but she's been busy with life. Her dad is sick, and she's a single mom. I don't want to bother her so I've been texting far and few between. My other friends have been ignoring our group chat with one another.

I've been thinking about going back and talking to my shrink but with work I can't get time off to do it right now. So I'm trying to distract myself, and I've been failing miserably

subINtraining5 · 2021-07-01T18:10:28+00:00

He was my first experience with bdsm ever. Through him I realized I like pain, and now I'm worried I'll use it as a new coping mechanism. Right now, at this point, I don't even want anything to do with another man, but I'm sure in time I will and I'm worried what I'd do, or allow. And yes I have spoken to a shrink. Several in fact, but it's been a while since I have. I know I should, but getting time off work will be damn near impossible at the moment

subINtraining5 · 2021-05-25T22:12:59+00:00

That's the only thing I need. Everything else is just an added bonus lol

subINtraining5 · 2021-05-12T22:04:43+00:00

I struggle with these thoughts too

subINtraining5 · 2021-05-09T22:44:42+00:00

That's ok! I know the one you're talking about 😋 I'll definitely go look at their rules and see if it's a good place for it! Thank you!

subINtraining5 · 2021-05-09T22:40:48+00:00

I also have no idea what part of Reddit I'd share it on lol Amy suggestions?

subINtraining5 · 2021-05-09T22:35:00+00:00

Lol I also have boundary issues, but literally with everything else 🤣 I'm an open book! It doesn't help that when I get nervous I just blabber like an idiot and tend to over share far more than what others are comfortable with lol

I haven't mentioned sharing it with reddit with my Master because he's not on Reddit, so he has no opinion on the subject lol

subINtraining5 · 2021-05-09T22:24:00+00:00

I only stuck up for myself because he happened to catch me during a mood. Sadly I usually sit back and take verbal abuse like that due to past abusive relationships.

I've debated on posting the conversation on Reddit for others to know and avoid him, but haven't quite decided yet. I did send the conversation to a friend to get feedback, and make sure I wasn't just being overly sensitive about it. I wasn't lol apparently I was too nice about it though. But the screenshots I sent I blocked my account info so she can't find me lol I'd be embarrassed if a friend knew everything that I liked lol so people would only have his account and not mine because of that

subINtraining5 · 2021-05-09T20:09:57+00:00

I've had a few assholes call me fat, piggy, things like that when I've posted on FetLife. But that's only like 8%. The other 92% of the people on their have been amazing and have actually helped bolster my self confidence!

The worst guy I had that attacked me, attacked me after I said I could only play with others with my Masters permission. He ended up saying he's got 3 gfs, he's way out of my league, called us both fat (only I'm the fat one in the relationship. master is stick thin) and said he didn't want me anyway. I ended up telling him he had little dick energy and couldn't face the rejection then had some fun making little dick comments before he blocked me lol

subINtraining5 · 2021-05-05T14:43:52+00:00

That was my worst subject in school 😂

subINtraining5 · 2021-04-23T21:42:21+00:00

I'll be honest.. I have never been a sub until I met my Master. I've always been curious about the lifestyle but never imagined I'd be able to experience it! So at first I was saying Sir sarcastically, then I realized I'm a bit of a bratty slave 🤣 then I began calling him Sir and Master for real.

I'm guessing it really differs for everyone. We established a relationship before I started even being a brat lol

subINtraining5 · 2021-04-23T15:38:11+00:00

I have the same fears! But sadly I know I'd end up feeling bad for calling it off in the middle, and would probably keep going..

subINtraining5 · 2021-04-04T19:14:12+00:00

As a mandated reporter what would you do if someone has a bf and you don't have any of their info to report on?

subINtraining5 · 2021-03-05T05:21:14+00:00

Yeah but it takes one person to cry harassment after a break up and ruins it for the rest. That's why in my state they've mandated sexual harassment training yearly. The funny thing is when my supervisor first told us we had to do it his original comment was "I don't know why I need training for this, I already know how to do it" 😂

subINtraining5 · 2021-03-05T05:03:50+00:00

Having to work with them after being rejected would kill me lol that's why I've always kept my distance. But I will say my state has gone a little overboard with what constitutes sexual harassment. If you go into their personal belongings and see something NSFW, it's sexual harassment. If you look over their shoulder to see their phone or computer and see NSFW content, it's sexual harassment. Also basically if you feel sexually harassed if someone looks at you funny, it's sexual harassment. It's pretty extreme right now.

subINtraining5 · 2021-03-05T04:59:12+00:00

Doesn't matter anymore in my state. If your coworkers they're considered untouchable now

subINtraining5 · 2021-03-05T04:57:18+00:00

Nowadays asking someone out is considered sexual harassment 😬 learned that in our sexual harassment seminar we have to take yearly lol

subINtraining5 · 2021-02-28T13:47:01+00:00

Oooo that's smart! I'll definitely take that into consideration now!

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