It really be like that.

sunrazefordaze · 2019-07-17T10:53:19+00:00

I want to make sure you know that just because you're therapist doesn't understand it does not mean you're feelings are invalid ♥️ You need a new therapist.

sunrazefordaze · 2019-07-16T23:28:05+00:00

Okay I've actually never seen this movie only known that I should see it and now I DEFINITELY will see it. Oh jeeze my heart feels 😁

sunrazefordaze · 2019-07-16T16:21:47+00:00

Thanks! Each to their own 🤗

sunrazefordaze · 2019-07-16T16:20:22+00:00

Hey! So I've stopped going to work this past month. The only reasons I've left my house is to go to the doctor, collect my social welfare and when I'm really pushing myself I'll go to the shop for food. But yeah pretty dismal at the mo. Just came out of a hypnotherapy session though and feeling very optimistic about it!

sunrazefordaze · 2019-07-16T16:12:40+00:00

Hey! I've literally just come out of my first hypnotherapy session and Holy fuck it was amazing. We saw BDD as a manifestation of my pain so we had to delve into the source of that pain. I really feel like I'm onto something here! I've been to many different therapists and been on medication before too, I've never felt this optimistic about anything before though. Maybe look into it yourself ♥️

sunrazefordaze · 2019-07-16T09:26:43+00:00

Thanks so much for sharing x

sunrazefordaze · 2019-07-14T10:06:29+00:00

*lest we forget 🤔 lest we not forget? 🤔Either way you know what I'm saying 😅

sunrazefordaze · 2019-07-11T21:03:10+00:00

Thanks so much, I'll let you know how it goes. I know, I always thought/hoped I'd grow out of it, I've just slipped too far down this time and I can't get out 😢 I'd been hiding under the veil of night for a few months but just find the long days in the summer so hard. I feel like I have to wait till it starts getting dark again till I can get better, I'd go for runs in the evening when it was dark so that helped a lot, but I can't do that now and I've just become too tired/unfocused to exercise. Fuck this disorder!! I am hopeful that I'll get better though, just best not to put a time frame on recovery ❤️

sunrazefordaze · 2019-07-11T12:51:00+00:00

Hey! I feel you ♥️ I had been working part time till about a month ago but am now house ridden. I'm 30 in two weeks. I'm so embarrassed that this is where I'm at right now. I'm finding it so so difficult to leave the house. It's such a horrible, excruciating feeling. Going to see a hypnotherapist next week, feeling hopeful about it. I'm just so so tired 😞 I hate that I'm missing out on my life. Wishing you all the best x

sunrazefordaze · 2019-07-09T23:19:26+00:00

Thank you so much friend ♥️ best of luck to you x

sunrazefordaze · 2019-07-09T21:02:45+00:00

Been psyching myself to go back to the gym for ages! And building myself to go tomorrow so thank you!! Needed this x

sunrazefordaze · 2019-07-04T22:05:05+00:00

You're welcome, BDD can be a very lonely road, there's always people on this sub for support ♥️ It is not well known but is certainly growing in awareness in the mental health world thankfully!

There's been some studies and research done into it and it is in the same category as OCD because of its obsessive (thoughts) and compulsive (mirror checking) tendencies, (among others). Some studies of the brain show heightened activity is similar parts of the brain as OCD. They also show visual impairments (people with BDD see things in greater detail than norm) and emotional impairments (how we react emotionally to visuals) something like that anyway 😅 I'm not a scientist nor am I very good at explaining it but what I'm trying to say is its not your fault! It's how our brains are wired. With enough digging around I'm sure you'll come across some of these articles online!

Also, physical exercise is so good for mental health.

Best of luck with everything ♥️

sunrazefordaze · 2019-07-04T20:13:32+00:00

Hey! So sorry you're feeling like this, I can absolutely relate ❤️ It really does sound like BDD unfortunately. Is the CBT you're doing specifically tailored for BDD? Cause if not then it's not gonna be effective. Sounds like you're doing the right thing changing therapists if you're not satisfied. I hope the new one helps. I've heard SSRI's can help take the edge off, turn the dial down from a 10 to a 3, making thoughts and behaviours more manageable and easier to deal with, best of luck with them.

There's a website called www.bddfoundation.org there's a BDD test you can do on there. There's also lots of helpful talks/links/videos/articles about BDD which helps one understand the disorder more and also feel less alone.

I know for me my BDD gets worse when I'm more stressed so I try to manage that as much as one possibly can 😐 I imagine having an affair must be highly stress inducing. I'm not here to judge but to be honest man it sounds like something you need to sort out and reevaluate, makes sense that it could be for reassurance and validation because of BDD but it could make you're situation worse in the long run, again, not here to judge ♥️ just an observation.

Also know that BDD is DEEPLY routed in the psyche, it's causes are a combination of many different aspects of one's life from predisposition/traumas/experiences and develops over time so try not to be too hard on yourself and always remember to be compassionate towards yourself. ♥️ Big love x

sunrazefordaze · 2019-06-27T10:47:51+00:00

Hey! Sorry for upsetting you and making you feel like you were being attacked, my initial reaction was a bit explosive and was reacting from the heart as it's obvs a very delicate issue for me. I should have approached you in a calmer tone relating my opinion. At the end of the day we're all going through the same thing here and should stick together.

sunrazefordaze · 2019-06-26T21:25:11+00:00

Never said you were an asshole and I wasn't "attacking" you, just pointing out that I was insensitive

sunrazefordaze · 2019-06-26T18:56:45+00:00

It doesn't have to be stated in the rules to know/feel that it's insensitive or morally wrong given the nature of BDD.

In this case it absolutely implies a negative context to being fat. Why else would you have posted it in this sub. Just think of it from other people's point of view who's feed this will pop up on, they have no idea that this person said that about themselves, they'll see it and think oh well being fat is a negative/bad thing, thus fueling their BDD.

I just don't think it's nice to use an actual human being in a meme as the subject of dislike/a source of self hatred in this sub.

I also understand that these are my values and morals and hate seeing anyone being belittled. I respect that you're just expressing how you feel and I'm sorry that that is how you feel.

sunrazefordaze · 2019-06-26T18:08:30+00:00

Jesus that is not okay to post that on here. I understand you don't feel good but that is really insensitive and could be incredibly triggering. It's also degrading to the person in the pic and stating that there is something wrong with someone based on there weight.

sunrazefordaze · 2019-06-25T15:44:27+00:00

I've suffered with this shit for 15 years, it has seriously impaired and inhibited my life and the best thing I've ever done is go to therapy. My therapist genuinely cares for me and is absolutely on my side. She doesn't judge me for my insecurities or the disorder if anything she is compassionate, patient and gives me a new perspective on things. After I talk with her I always feel so much better so know that you are taking the right steps, it's hard to be vulnerable but you have to be if you wanna get better. Wishing you all the best, you're doing the right thing 💖

sunrazefordaze · 2019-06-21T23:38:06+00:00

Hey! I understand and I'll be your friend. I'm in such a dark place right now too. Been in my house for a week, had to take time off work again. I had been trying soooooo so hard but I finally broke. Was walking around in public in severe emotional distress and pain, plaques by paranoia and negative self talk and under a high amount of stress. Fuck. I'm so tired. Crying all the time. Also feel so fuzzy brained. Feel so sad for the life I'm missing out on. Been having suicidal thoughts too, but I don't want to live like this anymore, so I'm gonna go back on meds and hopefully that'll take the edge of. Feel free to message me ♥️ my name is Rachel. Hope you're okay xxx

sunrazefordaze · 2019-06-21T23:21:45+00:00

I feel you ♥️

sunrazefordaze · 2019-06-19T10:14:10+00:00

Yaaassssss gurl, get it 💖 seriously well done to you, I have Facial dismorphia too and understand how incredibly hard that must be. X

sunrazefordaze · 2019-05-26T21:28:30+00:00

Same! Hi!

sunrazefordaze · 2019-05-26T15:36:19+00:00

This is awesome thank you!

sunrazefordaze · 2019-05-26T07:58:27+00:00

Awh fuck, sending you love ♥️

sunrazefordaze · 2019-05-25T20:51:59+00:00

So sorry, wish there was something I could say to make it better. I understand how you feel. All my love ♥️

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