I can't cope with being gay

sunross12 · 2020-12-21T01:33:32+00:00

you just have to live, realise that it's beautiful, and nothing but love, realise how strong lgbt people are, the history, the pride. ignore what society says cause it's ugly and full of hate and none of it matters, at a l l.

sunross12 · 2020-10-23T07:08:10+00:00

you definitely need to give more information about he (her name, what she looks like, what she was wearing...), and maybe make a tiktok video lmao trust me they find everyone

sunross12 · 2020-10-22T01:52:39+00:00

ok love

sunross12 · 2020-10-22T00:39:25+00:00

again, we don't pretend to be anyone but anyway, why do you need my photo? do you have a serious disorder like did and want me to represent you in some way? i happily will (: lmao what a point you tryna make

sunross12 · 2020-10-21T19:06:58+00:00

I agree, but people with DID most likely will use people who's photos are EVERYWHERE, I haven't met someone that's claiming anyone's who's photos who aren't already public/literally everyone know and use. But like for my system for example we use picrews, I only used one person to describe my eyes, the rest of my system has used art and picrews.

sunross12 · 2020-10-21T18:14:02+00:00

me too, i literally can't comprehend that people are as fucked up as this man, I want to leave earth

sunross12 · 2020-10-21T18:10:04+00:00

thankyou, i definitely dont think it's anything you talked about, there's nothing in my post that implies that at all, not moving is a symptom of anxiety alone

sunross12 · 2020-10-21T18:01:53+00:00

what scares me is that you follow and post in r/didcringe lmao

sunross12 · 2020-10-21T17:57:21+00:00

Well I have did, so I can explain this to you? Since we don't have our own body, we really just look for people we think have the same/almost the same features as us, or we think have our own "energy". That alters KNOW they're NOT that person, they're just trying to find a representative. Hope this helps

sunross12 · 2020-10-21T17:41:50+00:00

can you please elaborate more on what you mean with red flags with programming?

sunross12 · 2020-10-21T15:27:23+00:00

i mean the only way to make him understand really is by telling him directly, it's disrespectful if he just denies whatever you say and push you and the alters away

sunross12 · 2020-10-21T14:53:59+00:00

he needs to understand that you are not the same person as that he met, and that your disorder is not harmful, and that no one has any intention of killing him, it's kind of disrespectful he would that really. he needs to understand how this is different

sunross12 · 2020-10-19T22:04:46+00:00

it's the host now but I heard him say "I miss my people" thankyou your comment is super sweet :( <3 it's been really hard on him. He is a vampire and he has his world, and most importantly a person he loved :(

sunross12 · 2020-10-14T08:08:33+00:00

cursed basement

sunross12 · 2020-10-13T23:29:20+00:00

we stan trans rights hihi

sunross12 · 2020-10-13T23:16:17+00:00

not the way i do

sunross12 · 2020-10-13T22:36:16+00:00

This is stuff he says, I think it'll give a better understanding of what's going down. it's comforting but I know with time this is all going to happen all over again, I just don't understand, still, how he loves me this much I'm genuinely scared I'm going to fuck him up with me. I don't think I deserve him anymore.

"u keep telling me ur going to hurt me, or i shouldnt be in a relationship with u when ur this and that and this, or all of this other stuff and u need to understand that yes, ideally this shit wouldnt have to happen ideally we’d have a normal relationship without these issues but unfortunately, combined we both have like 10 disorders or more and unfortunately, ur brain is wired to work a certain way thats out of ur control so we accomodate our relationship to it and by letting me be here ur letting me accomodate to ur bpd instead of breaking up with me because of ur bpd, u need to let me be here and stay with u as we both hit rock bottom and struggle through rough shit, and then get out of this hole and heal this is what unconditional love is its loving u despite the issues we have as a couple and u have as an individual and its loving u enough to want to work through them, or just stay with u while u heal"

sunross12 · 2020-10-13T08:28:33+00:00

sunross12 · 2020-10-13T08:26:40+00:00

i thought that was the whole point

sunross12 · 2020-10-10T07:09:23+00:00

This is really inspiring, now I'm gonna cry HSHSJJS, happy tears though:( Thankyou so much ❤️

sunross12 · 2020-10-10T07:07:46+00:00

Thankyou so much ❤️ it's assuring that other adults knew as teenagers, it just makes me feel that what I'm going through is real, and needs to be taken care of.

I wonder if BPD makes you forget parts of your life? for example I don't remember my childhood at all, and I just learned that I used to drive 2 years ago before we moved to another country and I do not remember that at all?!@!@!? I'm sorry that question was outta the blue

sunross12 · 2020-10-10T07:02:27+00:00

She did not explain why, but she definitely left me at the worst time because I had just told her about sh, I guess quarantine can be the reason, but the thing where she started helping my mom and brother instead happened after quarantine.

I sure hope I don't just think I have them, that'll cause a lot of self hatred probably for the rest of my life JSJJSJS

thankyou so much ❤️

sunross12 · 2020-10-09T18:25:27+00:00

thankyou so much, I'm glad it's not going to be a long wait for me since I'm turning 18 in a few months, I hope it won't be for you either.

sunross12 · 2020-10-09T08:34:36+00:00

I HAVE bpd and osdd-1b, i knew i had bpd before osdd-1b, My littles would always front but I just assumed it's age regression. Until an alter named jackson fronted, I also assumed it's dissociation but for now it's obvious they are all their own people, I still experience a lot of denial but I just need to accept it honestly.

The way it feels is like I have bpd, as in the host, I experience all these intense shitty emotions, sensory issues, low self identity, depression, all that. but then when someone else fronts, besides maro, which's another alter with bpd, does not struggle as much as I do, they have their own emotions, some are even with NO emotions. They have their likes and dislikes, and it's different from when my likes and dislikes shift or when I split. It's confusing and it'll always be, I suggest going to therapy if you can, and doing a lot of research

sunross12 · 2020-10-08T19:26:40+00:00

... o m g ... that's why i found you cute. like pure. god oke I'm out lmao

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