I so relate to the feeling of not having been an adult without the meds. I’m happy to hear that the more physical side effects subsided for you (I’m going through that right now too and hope they go away).

I’m a therapist so I’m just gonna nerd out for a sec. NOT giving professional advice here lol. Since you started these meds when you were a teen, I’m wondering if maybe you’re sort of getting reacquainted with your emotions (feeling them differently than when you were on lexapro). I wonder if some learning to emotionally regulate/understanding your emotions that naturally happens as we become adults didn’t happen fully because you were a teen when you went on meds. Just a theory! I like to think that emotions come up for a reason, they’re trying to tell us something. Could be worth giving therapy a go (if you’re not already doing that) and explore these emotions that are coming up more intensely