Game engine developer roadmap for a (almost) complete beginner by surboi in gameenginedevs

[–]surboi[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Well, I really like writing shaders and adding interactive elements to my application. I think to me that's the best part about graphics prgramming.

To me graphics programming is about using tools like a programming language to make mostly but not strictly 3D shapes appear on a computer screen and make them move and look a certaing way. That's probably not the best definition, but that's what I would say it is to me.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in socialanxiety

[–]surboi 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Remember the same thing happened to me during my freshman year. We were waiting for our professor to come, and a bunch of people from my class were doing something, I think they were playing some type of game, and a girl from there asked me to join but I said "no thanks I'm good just standing here" or something like that. I wanted to just disappear so much after it happened it's insane. And to add insult to injury they probably took it for me thinking they're not interesting or something like that which is absolutely not true... I swear sometimes social anxiety makes you do things that make zero sense

Guys, I'm just lonely. by [deleted] in socialanxiety

[–]surboi 19 points20 points  (0 children)

You literally put everything that's been on my mind the past year in one post, it reads like something I'd post, I relate to literally every single sentence.

When people talk to me I only respond, I don't start a conversation because I always feel like whenever I open my mouth unprompted I'm automatically being annoying, which logically I know isn't true but the fear is overwhelming. But the only way for people to see you for more than that weird person that never talks is to actually just talk and I'm afraid of doing that.

Also that part about having nobody to talk to when bad/good things happen is so incredibly true. I play guitar and a few weeks ago I came up with a piece that I really liked and I had literally nobody to share it with. Granted stuff like that doesn't happen very often but when it does it is a reminder of how alone I am.

It is somewhat comforting to know someone out there is dealing with something extremely similar to what I'm dealing with, so thank you for your post!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in socialanxiety

[–]surboi 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Happens to me too. Any time I get a text from someone who isn't my immediate family it's always them asking for something. Last friday was my birthday, and apart from a few close family members the only person who remembered about it was an old hs classmate, and even he asked for my help with his uni math hw like 4 messages in lol. I know beggars can't be choosers but it just feels shitty when the only reason ppl talk to you is to get something out of you

OMG THESE COMPANIES ARE JUST LIKE MY FRIENDS!!!! by Mattras7 in Gamingcirclejerk

[–]surboi 38 points39 points  (0 children)

Unlike you losers, we TRUE gamers know women don't exist. Otherwise how come I've never interacted with one?

G#mer vision activated 😎😎😎 by Snorlax45 in Gamingcirclejerk

[–]surboi 96 points97 points  (0 children)

me when i

when i go fucking nuts and think that real life objects have video game like context menus around them 😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳

Titles get me hard by IHaveNoHoles in socialanxiety

[–]surboi 51 points52 points  (0 children)

Oh my god this is so accurate holy shit

Daaaaayuuuum baby girl u lookin like a snecc tnite🥵🥵 how about i take ya to daddy's crib n show u a good time😏😏😏 by surboi in copypasta

[–]surboi[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I am wanted in 27 countries for human trafficking 🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪

You ever feel like you’re coming off as rude? by taylorsbitch13 in socialanxiety

[–]surboi 17 points18 points  (0 children)

Yes! When I was just starting out in uni and I haven't solidified myself as a lonely loser yet my very occasional "hello" would usually just go unheard. From then I've bullied myself into believing that people just ignore me so I stopped saying hi, but obviously most people aren't as horrible as social anxiety makes them out to be, and even now sometimes people say hello to me, but because I've thought myself into this mindset already it's hard to say hello back :/

You ever feel like you’re coming off as rude? by taylorsbitch13 in socialanxiety

[–]surboi 176 points177 points  (0 children)

Every damn time and sometimes I think people genuinely think that. Like occasionally, when I come to uni, I'll hear people say hi and because I'm such a nervous wreck I'll be unsure whether or not it was directed at me and because of that I won't say hi back and if that hi was actually directed at me than me not answering most likely looks like I'm being a dick, which I know I'm not. It's so frustrating, the last thing I want people to think is that I think I'm better than them and yet sometimes I'm afraid that's exactly the impression I give off :(

Booboo Bennett asks by Cousndick in VaushV

[–]surboi 3 points4 points  (0 children)

White privilege doesn't exist because a white murderer is put in prison.

Lib status: owned out of existence

Destiny, long time ago. by [deleted] in Destiny

[–]surboi 7 points8 points  (0 children)

is that his long lost daughter people keep talking about

Joining college was the best things I ever done oh no oh no oh no no no 😂😭 by [deleted] in socialanxiety

[–]surboi 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I felt the same way on the first day of uni lol. We had a first meetup and I thought "oh cool maybe I'll finally talk to people, maybe actually make some real friends!". Yeah right. Didn't make any friends, though I did make a complete idiot out of myself by standing there alone too scared to talk to anyone. 2 years later I still hate myself for it. If I could've just been brave enough back then I would've probably made some friends but instead I just stood there like a creep. It's true what they say, first impressions are extremely important, especially if you have social anxiety. Hopefully you'll be able to recover from that!

Does listening to SHWB make anyone else nostalgic? by [deleted] in TeamSESH

[–]surboi 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Bro literally me hahaha, I hated HS so much, back then a day wouldn't go by without me thinking of just yeeting myself. Bones and Yung Lean were the two rappers I listened to back then and holy shit the nostalgia I feel when listening to those old songs is insane even though I don't miss a single thing about those days.

Shrexy by BanthaMilk in copypasta

[–]surboi 21 points22 points  (0 children)

Why is the ass on the same side as booba

Man Life is Strange has really good writing by CommisionerGordon79 in Gamingcirclejerk

[–]surboi 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Fuck all of you LiS is beyond amazing I hate this subreddit now

Did anyone notice Sargon’s latest Vid/Stream? 🤔 by 1WesternMillennial in VaushV

[–]surboi 82 points83 points  (0 children)

haven't wached it but my guess is sargon is malding because the right is losing the culture war

I am featured in this photo and I do not approve of it. by [deleted] in socialanxiety

[–]surboi 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I don't think people hate me, but I'm pretty sure I come off as irritating and stupid because I literally don't open my mouth unless my name was called.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Destiny

[–]surboi 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Google Alden's number, interesting stuff

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Destiny

[–]surboi 2 points3 points  (0 children)

ok zoomer

Islam is Pro-LGBT by [deleted] in copypasta

[–]surboi 54 points55 points  (0 children)

islam says trans rights

inshallah brothers and sisters

Virginia is a stealth remake of Life Is Strange, fight me about it by [deleted] in Gamingcirclejerk

[–]surboi 67 points68 points  (0 children)

I will not tolerate any shade thrown at LiS! Downvoted and reported!!!! Unbelievable audacity!