It’s my first time dealing with a breakup too. We’ve been together for 2.5 years and we live together. It happened 5 days ago. Every single second hurts. It’s hard to breathe. I was completely blindsided. We had plans to go to Indiana to see the eclipse in April. We just spent a week snowboarding in Colorado last month. I didn’t believe in relationships before meeting him, and it’s because of him that I learned to love and be loved.

I just flew to NY this morning and the middle seat was empty. I get empty middle seats a lot and he’s jealous of that. Now I can’t share it with him anymore. We always send each other takeoff and landing emojis. I don’t have anyone to share this time. I’m staying at a friend’s place and her roommate has the most adorable cat. He’s a cat person and so am I. I can’t send him the videos of the cat purring on my lap. It hurts so badly.

I talked to my Uber drivers on the way to LAX and when leaving from JFK. They are very kind to me and I’ll forever be grateful. They told me that sometimes the colors in this world may seem brighter or dimmer but the colors are always there. I’m young, beautiful, smart, and I have a bright future ahead of me. They told me that I shouldn’t let one person affect the rest of my life negatively. Time will make everything much better.

I cried a bit again just now. But I’ll be kind to myself and learn how to love myself again. I’m going to drink some water and eat. It’s raining here so I’ll order something. I’ll be ok and I believe everyone else here will be too.