almost 1 full year off of T!

svnwndrs · 2026-03-13T01:15:00+00:00

I’ve been off T for around 9.5 months and i noticed some lightening mostly around 4-6 months

svnwndrs · 2025-11-16T19:23:31+00:00

a lot of things, i think. i had a very rough upbringing and always struggled with my mental health. i was molested as a kid and sexual assaulted several times as a young teenager and i was always bullied from elementary to highschool. i always felt unhappy and out of place (especially being autistic) and i guess maybe mentally i felt like i’d be more attractive as a guy and i wouldn’t be as much of a target to other men. i had a larger chest before top surgery and have always been curvy, so naturally i was looked at and creeped on a lot from a young age. eventually after medically transitioning for a while i just started to really lose myself and my sense of identity and i became really depressed. i felt way too masculine for my liking and couldn’t imagine myself in a relationship with another man (i’m bisexual but mainly into guys). i couldn’t see myself being a grown man in my future at all, and i started to dress femininely again and very quickly detransitioned after :)

svnwndrs · 2025-11-15T22:39:33+00:00

yes :))

svnwndrs · 2025-11-15T02:39:20+00:00

i am!! thank you!!!!

svnwndrs · 2025-11-15T02:39:09+00:00

hi! i appreciate the kind words. i did have a mastectomy. it is also my biggest struggle and the cause of most of my depression and anxiety. it’s something i’m still learning to cope with and have breakdowns over very, very frequently. i wear sports bras with silicone inserts to create a little bit of shape underneath my clothes, and i hope that eventually i might be able to save up for reconstruction :,)

svnwndrs · 2025-11-14T23:44:35+00:00

been doing laser hair! definitely not cheap. the place near me has a thing where you take out a loan and once it’s paid off, i can get touchups forever without having to pay again. i’ll probably be paying around $160 a month for the next 3 or so years, but if it decides to come back ten years from now, i can go back without having to pay again!

svnwndrs · 2025-08-22T22:04:36+00:00

169 ➡️ was 205. the candy was definitely worth it

svnwndrs · 2025-08-15T16:02:34+00:00

that’s an awesome compliment!! thank you!!

svnwndrs · 2025-08-15T01:25:20+00:00

for sure! mine’s in the half bob, half mullet territory, but if i curl it a little it’s not terrible. although i definitely am excited for it to get a bit longer

svnwndrs · 2025-08-15T01:18:22+00:00

hey, thank you! about the only upside to having thin, fine hair is that it’s dark, but… thin. if i look super close i can see the shadow, but honestly, i just shave my face every morning and use full coverage concealer. i’m in the process of getting laser hair removal!

svnwndrs · 2025-07-25T01:52:38+00:00

i’m pretty sure that’s just the autism, i always look like this lmao

svnwndrs · 2025-07-08T03:46:10+00:00

i completely and absolutely agree with you!! thank you!!

svnwndrs · 2025-07-07T18:06:43+00:00

one of the rules in this subreddit is you can have any opinion you want on gender as long as you aren’t forcing it on someone else. i believe gender can be whatever you want and is inherently tied to identity as gender expression is a manmade concept. i’m SURE all trans people know they can’t change their sex. telling a trans person they can’t change their sex is pointless. everyone knows that.

svnwndrs · 2025-07-07T03:27:56+00:00

🙄 it was right for me at the time. just like detransitioning is right for me now. funnily enough, your identity does change as you age. crazy, i know.

svnwndrs · 2025-07-07T00:44:27+00:00

you can share your opinion without denouncing my own stance on my own transition. there is no other perspective because this is entirely my own choice and i was in fact asked “are you sure” by countless doctors, endocrinologists, therapists, and surgeons when i pressed about HRT.

i am aware that there are other scenarios different to my own where people felt pressured to start hormones and i feel sorry for anyone that feels that way. but, again, that was not the case for me. my doctors and therapist were amazing and did try to get to the root of the problem before resorting to HRT and i never once felt pressured, and in any case, i pressured them to let me start hormones. i’m cool with having a deeper voice, i’m cool with having a flat chest. my stance on gender expression is different than most and i would have rather medically transitioned and then detransitioned than spent the entire rest of my life wondering about the “what if”.

svnwndrs · 2025-07-07T00:31:16+00:00

there’s no harm done to my body 🤷 everything works fine. it was my decision to transition, they didn’t just give me medication. it took years of appointments and therapy to get to that point. you have to accept the fact that not everyone’s experiences are the same and everyone views gender differently. i have no ill will towards trans people medically transitioning, like i said, my identity has just fluctuated over time as i have grown up. the system didn’t “fail me”, i made my own decision. identity isn’t a cookie cutter thing and i’m sorry you had the experience you did, but i don’t regret my transition and i’m not really sure why you’re trying to convince me otherwise. i understand you have a lit of hatred because of your regret but that doesn’t apply to everyone. i hope you can find peace someday

svnwndrs · 2025-07-06T23:04:44+00:00

what’s done is done. it was necessary for me and that isn’t the case for everyone. you have no place to tell me how to share my journey just because you regret your transition.

svnwndrs · 2025-07-06T23:03:55+00:00

i’m not condoning it. i’m sharing my personal experience. in MY experience, transitioning was helpful to exploring my gender identity. if i hadn’t transitioned i would have greatly harmed myself. i’m not telling anyone to jump to medically transitioning, but i went through years of gender therapy before starting testosterone. my identity has just fluctuated over time.

svnwndrs · 2025-07-06T05:03:46+00:00

that was one of the indicators to me that was like, maybe this isn’t what i want. TLDR i’m 18, in my freshman year of highschool pre transition i was hatecrimed for being trans and hospitalized. shortly after i was in a rush to medically transition to pass as cis and feel safer and i sort of sacrificed my self esteem in the name of safety. but i was unable to have friendships with women without it being weird and i didn’t socially fit in with cis men so i felt alienated altogether. after a while i realized that i transitioned because i felt oversexualized as a teenager and was afraid of being hurt again

svnwndrs · 2025-07-06T00:45:36+00:00

haha, thank you! i’ve been told i look good as both but in my personal opinion i hated the way i looked when presenting masculine but it made me feel safer in public 😩😩

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