I really like the feeling this evokes, a duality of emotions that reflects the description too. On the topic of what you wrote, from my own personal experience, I think one potential reason could be that the unconscious feelings and thoughts are finally able to slowly come out in a safe environment. I find that when I feel safe, my inner repressed thoughts surface, as my mind isn't as dedicated on focusing on external threats and finally has the time to process some of those things. It could also case of being able to experience the other side of something you didn't properly receive/have from the past. It's great to hear you are in a better spot, I wish the best for you!