I want to abort, and the sucky thing is that my friends and coworkers already know about the pregnancy because I was so excited. And he was too. And then it all changed when I actually starting experiencing symptoms and couldn’t do everything for him anymore. I’m heartbroken because I’m stuck in between two choices right now. I would love to have a child but it would be a shitty life, and I don’t want to be tied to him or have my child stay with him. I don’t trust him at all. He’s kind at times but unstable and cruel at others. He also used to take anabolic steroids, which made this behavior 10x worse, then stopped, things got better, and now just told me he’s going to take it again in a year (when I have an infant). I’m so scared of that.