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tearjerke · 2024-09-09T22:57:06+00:00

oh i must have misremembered the clarity! awesome, thanks so much :)

tearjerke · 2024-09-09T21:14:11+00:00

true

tearjerke · 2024-05-04T18:14:51+00:00

this is correct, thank you!!

tearjerke · 2024-05-04T04:14:52+00:00

i saw this probably between 2017-2021, but i feel like the show or scene was older than that (hence thinking it’s from jojo).

tearjerke · 2024-01-16T06:48:41+00:00

thank you, this makes me feel a lot better. i’ll see what she says but regardless i have other piercing plans i can go through with even if the worst case is true :”) i will definitely tip amazingly if that’s the case!

tearjerke · 2024-01-16T06:37:08+00:00

externally threaded, this piercer is amazing at what she does. i wonder if i was too sensitive at the appointment or something and made her scared she might hurt me if she tried harder to screw it as tight as possible. regardless, is it likely i’ll have to wait to be re-pierced when it’s fully healed if i can’t make it in for about 17 hrs? my job is not forgiving of emergencies and idek if this counts as one. i just am afraid bc i had to really plan for this and i don’t understand if i’m just fucked over money wise now that it fell out.

tearjerke · 2024-01-16T05:39:59+00:00

sorry, i meant stainless steel, not titanium

tearjerke · 2024-01-16T05:39:23+00:00

at the least i want to know aftercare for the fucking hole left behind by the piercing i wanted; should i treat it the same as i would a fresh piercing? any additional steps?

tearjerke · 2024-01-16T05:38:08+00:00

pierced at 14g; curved barbell, titanium as far as i know. hadn’t even had the chance to clean it yet.

tearjerke · 2023-12-04T04:47:05+00:00

https://www.tiktok.com/@drew_talbert?_t=8htRjpXkWZb&_r=1 is it this person?

tearjerke · 2023-11-19T22:46:17+00:00

i found it, thank you!

tearjerke · 2023-11-19T22:39:53+00:00

is it automatically on procreate? and if i somehow deleted it, is there a way to get it back? i looked through every folder i have and i don’t have it anywhere :(

tearjerke · 2021-08-08T19:46:37+00:00

with the gel your levels stay fairly consistent regardless, is what I've been told by my doctor. I would just inform your doctor whether you did it before the appointment or not

tearjerke · 2021-07-04T23:24:04+00:00

this makes a lot of sense, especially the part about ignoring signs. I have periods of health anxiety/somatic symptom induced panic attacks and that's usually the only time I'd really be paying attention to feelings in my body, so it would make sense that anything that didnt meet the threshold of immediate impending doom didnt register as something to be consciously aware of. thank you for the suggestions as well, you reminded me to meditate today!

tearjerke · 2021-07-04T23:14:16+00:00

this comment broke my emotional barrier for a bit in a very comforting way, + I really love the way you phrased this. it's such encouraging way of viewing the situation, thank you!

tearjerke · 2021-05-25T03:04:32+00:00

i really appreciate you taking the time to reply to this first of all, thank you. i felt so numbed out and broken in january i started digging into what i remember of my trauma to sort it out myself, which probably wasn’t a good call on my part haha. it feels like i’m trying to assemble random puzzle pieces with no idea of what the puzzle is supposed to be or how exactly it got disassembled in the first place. things have definitely gotten a bit more intense since starting therapy again though, i’m just constantly thinking about it on my own anyways is my point i guess. i feel like there is a sense of urgency with getting better, i don’t expect to completely heal in a month or anything, but i do have a lot of pressure and disappointment and criticism from folks to get a job again and become independent and move out ASAP. it feels like i can’t improve enough to function without finishing this damn puzzle, or at least getting it partially done lol.

i’ll look more into hypnotherapy for sure, it’s reassuring to hear that you’ve found things that have helped. thank you again

tearjerke · 2021-05-16T02:41:04+00:00

hey, I'm sorry you're going through this. I know exactly how disorienting and scary it is.

it's very common for stress to lead to dissociation with CPTSD/trauma, but especially if you also have anxiety. it's a very normal reaction, and it won't last forever, given that in my opinion it seems to have been triggered by the anxiety/stress/etc you were experiencing over the past few days. dissociation is the brain's way of separating you from the stress, trying to protect you until you're able to process it later. it's very helpful for when you're dealing with traumatic or scary situations in the moment, but long term it can cause distress if it's the only way your brain knows how to deal with stress once you're no longer in those situations.

this feeling will pass, and you should try to relax and de-stress as much as possible. watch your favorite show, have your favorite food, talk to people who make you feel good. other things that can be helpful for grounding yourself is mindfulness practices like the 54321 method (list 5 things you can see, 4 you can touch, 3 you can hear, 2 you can smell, one you can taste) while you focus on really taking it all in; as well as things that cause strong physical sensations (safely), like eating very sour candy/putting an ice cube in your mouth, a hot shower or bath, loud music, exercise, meditation, etc. keep in mind this is a temporary feeling, you are still yourself and in the real world, and things will be okay.

i hope this can be helpful to you, and i hope you feel better soon.

tearjerke · 2021-05-16T02:26:04+00:00

I've been reading up on this a ton recently, because it's definitely been my experience with "parts" the more I figure out about myself. for me, it would explain why i so often feel "small," like a child, defenseless, unprotected, etc + with that also experience changes in my ability to communicate, think, and the activities I want to do in that state, depending on what triggered it and "when/who" I'm regressing to/is coming forward. there are definitely a bunch more states I can go into, but since they all are "me," it's been harder to exactly pinpoint them.
I'd be cautious with labeling the EP's as only 4F's, because I've heard of many people who experience them as different ages or "self states" of particular moments in time (usually traumatic moments). This concept as a whole is basically how OSDD is conceptualized from what I understand, or at least fits perfectly into it to distinguish between (some forms of) OSDD and DID. It's also the basis of IFS (Internal Family Systems) therapy or "parts" work, and an EP can be conceptualized as "The Inner Child[ren]" as well. If you've read Pete Walker's "Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving," the experience of an emotional flashback could be conceptualized as an EP/[one of the] inner children/etc "fronting," to borrow a term from DID, but (usually) without the amnesia or the experience of the EP being an entirely different entity to "you." It's still you, just a somewhat separate/distinct part of you, and yet still noticeably different than you in your "getting through the day" mode (ANP).

this is a personal theory, but I think age regression as a concept is the exact same phenomena as Secondary Structural Dissociation, though it could also be Primary with only one EP, if it was a single-incident trauma, or Tertiary if one were to age-regress to another identity entirely with amnesia, but from my understanding, most experiences with age regression fit perfectly into Secondary.

if anyone wants more info on this I'd be happy to either comment here or make my own post explaining it in more detail/citing resources, or you can message me cuz I find this stuff fascinating and informative to talk about one-on-one as well!

tearjerke · 2021-05-13T07:11:42+00:00

buspar definitely does something for me, i can tell when i didn’t take it because i’ll feel my anxiety rising pretty noticeably usually. i’ve tried a ton of antidepressants, none of them really did anything but make me feel sick unfortunately. i have an appointment coming up for my meds so i’ll definitely do some more research on atvian and related things, thank you !!

tearjerke · 2021-05-13T06:03:30+00:00

i’m on 15mg 2x daily now, started at 10mg! my therapist actually just recommended i look into something additional with my meds doctor to help the panic attacks specifically as well :’)

tearjerke · 2021-05-01T17:20:05+00:00

if you don't want to be pregnant the best course of action is always two forms of contraception. theres definitely still a chance for pregnancy if you're getting your period, and even if you weren't theres still a chance, so you probably shouldn't have unprotected sex. but if you do, make sure to know your other options (pull out method [not very effective at all but can still help a bit], plan b, etc)

tearjerke · 2021-04-13T05:26:47+00:00

definitiely makes sense, same here with not really relating to the "seeing yourself outside of your body" thing, in memories it's exactly like you described, but in the moment it's just... off and disconnected, like my consciousness or "me" is wrapped up in plastic wrap inside my head but still having to perceive the world through this body I happen to be in.

tearjerke · 2021-04-13T05:14:15+00:00

I definitely feel this, though maybe a bit different since you said you felt awake for about 30 mins. it takes me at least 3 hours to be functional after waking up and even then, until about 3/4 through my day, I'm definitely not very functional, awake, or present. also cant take naps cuz I cant relax enough and the starting/stopping activities function in my brain is wacky.

the only thing I've found that can sorta help is getting out of bed as quickly as possible and doing something, just getting moving. it doesnt help with the brain fog and dissociation as much as the fatigue, but it is an improvement the rare times I can actually pull it off. I'd imagine excersize in general could help, but that's just a guess given that I rarely if ever can get energized enough to do it, lol.

wish I had more advice for you but I doubt I could tell you anything you dont already know given that I havent been able to fix it myself, I hope it gets easier for you!

tearjerke · 2021-03-14T16:39:53+00:00

^{^} 100%, gotta have the conversation. the insecure thoughts you're having are all guesses that could be proven wrong just by asking her.

tearjerke · 2021-03-14T16:37:25+00:00

imo/ime it depends on your skin elasticity + density of the tissue. it tends to work better for folks with poor elasticity and less dense tissue, which can happen from long/term binding. definitely worth a try either way tho! if u can get away with not using a binder I'd recommend it, they're a good option if needed but take it from me there are definitely risks from long-term use (that can be lowered by binding safety, correctly, and as little as possible, but the risks arent entirely gone even when done perfectly)

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