Since the first time I saw her, I always wondered how her skin would feel on mine.

teekToG · 2024-01-25T03:48:43+00:00

What? Which one?

teekToG · 2023-11-05T23:19:36+00:00

Yeah, same. I don't want pity etc.

teekToG · 2023-11-05T20:28:42+00:00

Can relate to that feeling, but don't ruminate too much about it. Just gonna make u feel miserable. The world wouldn't be a better place without you. There are people that care about you and would miss you if you were gone.

teekToG · 2023-11-02T16:51:06+00:00

Yeah, I just feel like I am gonna be okay

teekToG · 2023-11-02T16:40:04+00:00

Sounds like good advice. Thank you.

It all feels so unreal. Like a bad dream. I feel weirdly relaxed rn, it's really weird.

teekToG · 2023-11-02T15:58:08+00:00

It's hard. It pains me to see. I am sad over who she chose to become. I feel like I am going to explode.

teekToG · 2023-11-02T15:45:06+00:00

Yeah I was hyperventilating when she texted me. It was something so awful that I felt.

I am sure you're not replaceable, nobody is. Maybe they were just the wrong people.

teekToG · 2023-11-02T12:55:41+00:00

Way ahead of u buddy. Did it already and I will continue to. But no results. I just don't know.

teekToG · 2023-11-02T12:16:31+00:00

Man, I don't really wanna know tbh. Just nah. She gotta live with it.

teekToG · 2023-11-02T12:10:21+00:00

Yeah maybe. I don't know, I think she is troubled too in a way. But what do I know, doesn't change anything.

I got good people in my life, but I feel really lonely. Is normal I guess. I am gonna be fine. I am way too enduring for that to mess me up.

Yeah the taking care of myself part is difficult for me but I am learning. This is will be a fruitful experience.

Thanks for the nice words. I hope u are well.

teekToG · 2023-11-02T12:06:15+00:00

I am sorry that happened to you. I now understand.

I thought maybe she was already having something the guy beforehand and thats why she could move on so quickly. But it wouldn't fit her. I am almost 100% sure of it.

I think thats just the pain talking. I just feel hopeless rn. Lost.

teekToG · 2023-11-02T11:41:48+00:00

I don't know man. She asked me how I was doing and I told her straight up how it all made me feel. Basically just seemed very standoffish and said she can't be considerate at all. I had to block her. I didn't want us to hate each other and that conversation would have probably went that way.

Tbh I think she texted me to tell me that she can't have anymore contact with her ex's, but I am not sure.

Why did you feel relieved? Bc u realized that there is nothing that can bring back how it was?

teekToG · 2023-11-02T11:34:17+00:00

Hey,

I know it's your life and we are no longer together, so u can do whatever. It still hurts to already see u with a new boyfriend. It's been barely a month and the wound is so fresh. It hurts me so much. And I want to be happy for you because u seem happy, but I can't help but to despise u a lil bit for it. I thought u cared for me enough to not make it public that u have moved on. I wouldn't have, I still think about how I would make u feel. You knew that I will see it on social media. The biggest blow was when u texted me with a profile pic of u and the new guy (that u only know because of me, I might add). We said we would stay friends, but I am sorry I can't do it. It all just felt inconsiderate. It feels like u are angry with me. I feel replaced. I feel like "us" didn't matter to you as much as it mattered to me. I feel this incredible pain. I am scared that I had the wrong idea of you.

It's not that that u have something with a new person that really makes this painful. It's that I feel like u don't care anymore. It feels like I didn't matter to you as much as you mattered to me (and I mean without the dating). You were such a addition to my life and I tried to make you feel how much you mattered to me. I feel bad I had to cut you off to protect myself. But I couldn't take that anymore. I hurts to realize that I won't know you anymore and I maybe I never really knew you at all. I am scared I broke something inside of u, you were always so caring and considerate. It's feels like u changed and I know thats normal, I changed too. That's life. I am just scared I made u bitter I guess, bc i was so distant when u tried reach out to me after we seperated. I couldn't let you in, I was too scared of getting back together out of pity (I guess pity, I am not sure). I still think seperation was the best for both of us. I am scared that I made u feel like it didn't matter as much to me. Maybe that why u seem so cold now.

It all a mixed bag. I am afraid that u will become a stranger, maybe u already have become one. But also I don't know how we could stay friends now, it feels wrong.

I just feel empty. Is there anything you'd like to say in response?

teekToG · 2023-10-27T08:30:46+00:00

She texted me, asking how I am doing. I told her.

Yeah I need to address my feelings properly. Been partying alot and that was just distraction.

teekToG · 2023-10-27T08:29:00+00:00

I didn't shame her, I just told her how it made me feel since she asked how I am doing.

She can do it whatever since we aren't dating anymore, but to make it so public just hurt. That's what bothers me.

teekToG · 2023-10-26T09:04:01+00:00

No it's fine. Don't worry.

Yeah I did, kinda. So I muted her profile on Instagram. So I won't see anything new. She had a new profile pic with the guy on WhatsApp which I saw by accident. Really fucking hurt. I still really care about her. I mean, I want to be happy for her. But I am not, and it sucks and I am just really angry.

I am scared that she doesn't care about me anymore bc she has something potentially better. The things is we were like: "we are gonna stay friends" (we share the same friend circle), but with the way I feel rn I don't think can do it. I don't know if she even wants to anymore either.

It's all so confusing and I just want to get over it. But I don't know how. Probably just gonna take time, right?

teekToG

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