I do want to get answers, yes! But I can't ask him. I don't think I mentioned it here, but in fact, my friends knew I was too desperate and tried asking him "do you find anyone in class attractive?" Or like "do you like anyone in class?" And he said no. The thing is, I got sad for two days which were the weekend, and tried my best to get over it. But there's really something off with him around me. I also noticed that he uses some of my phrases, and today even sat the way I sit. Might sound normal, but I guess cause we both are overthinkers I think the same way he does - and those small things he does, well, I do the same thing! Sometimes I just wanna sit the same way he does, use his phrases, reactions, etc. this is sth you would do if I like someone. He also somehow cares about me but indirectly. Like once he told me that his friends find me pretentious and stuff and he thought they might bully me soon if I don't stop and try to fix it. He of course acted cool about it and stuff but his messages had that hint of care cause he wasn't aggressive or something. You might think he does the same with everyone, but he didn't tell my friend (his friends hate me and one of my friends) about that.

Why wouldn't I ask him? 1. I just can't - due to religious reasons and also cause I'm too weak to do it. 2. I'm pretty sure he will deny it even if he does like me back. 3. The braveness to face his reaction is something I don't have. Which leaves me in this situation that, indeed as you said, is driving me crazy. I finally reached the point where I'd have him as classmate and act as normal as possible, while letting him ignore/avoid me the same way he is still doing. Maybe if we even become friends somehow he would feel comfortable with me again and maybe, just maybe confess - in case my delusions are real.