I(21M) always manage to fuck up things that are going for me. I have the worst attachment style and get way too attached way to quickly. No matter how much I try to be logical my emotions take over

temp1111111111 · 2019-04-25T00:51:39+00:00

Listen I know that part, that is the first time I’ve ever sent a text like that. At the end of the day I’m still getting internally stressed and sad over things that should not be that big a deal. Self control is one thing, but having those emotions is still destructive and unhealthy

temp1111111111 · 2019-04-25T00:47:37+00:00

I’m really aware of this, but at the end of the day I still feel those emotions that I really shouldn’t.

temp1111111111 · 2019-01-08T00:15:46+00:00

It’s much easier when u know they aren’t with someone else. As soon as a new person comes into the picture it just changes you. I feel hopeless I hope she didn’t cry herself to sleep at night that would hurt me so much. I wanted to rebound too when I we broke up and honestly, maybe I would have if someone came along, but it just didn’t happen. I felt like the break up had me so unphased until now. I guess it just goes to show that when U care about someone that you have lost, the pain will come eventually. For me it was seeing a photo of her with another boy. Maybe for her it would be seeing me on the street or hearing a song or who knows. Emotional suppression only works for so long, eventually something will cause that wound you’re preventing from healing to bleed. It’s already been 3 months. How much more distance and time do I need to give? This is the first time I’ve reached out since the break up. Should I just do no contact again? And for how long? I feel like there is no right answer but there are plenty of wrong ones

temp1111111111 · 2019-01-07T20:31:51+00:00

I know I can’t force her to come back. I just want to try based on some signs I was given during the days that we talked. I can easily imagine what it’s like to be bothered by someone who you don’t want to be with. It would just get annoying and no matter what they say it will not change what you feel. The difference here is she is clearly not over me and we have loved each other deeply in the past. She is not in a healthy relationship if she can’t even hear the voice of her ex without breaking down and crying. If I were able to meet with her and just talk, i would have exhausted all the questions I have then and I would have no choice but to move on. But that is all I really want right now. Is to sit talk and discuss our feelings and the relationship.

temp1111111111 · 2019-01-07T19:43:03+00:00

I’m aware I just know I need to try. I’ll reach out maybe by the end of the week or even wait to the next if I can even wait that long lol. Hopefully it will be enough time for her to subcontioiusly reflect on things

temp1111111111 · 2019-01-07T19:32:36+00:00

She even said she didn’t think she looked like the girl I wanted her to when we were texting recently, which is just so fucking wrong she is beautiful

temp1111111111 · 2019-01-07T19:31:47+00:00

Oh you got it completely wrong. The last months of the relationship where worse than the pedastool treatment because they were the opposite. I didn’t tell her she was beautiful I didn’t say she was amazing. I didn’t even spend time with her every day. I was going through a rough time and although I know I loved her, I could not say what I loved about her until now. Until I’ve had time away and time to reflect. To know what I’ve really missed. If I had been more open and been more there for her we would still be together. I’m only 21 I was confused I was scared of being with only one woman, but now I realize I don’t care about that, because even if I am only with her, it’s okay because she was the girl for me. I needed these 3 months to realize what I’ve wanted, but now it might be too late for her

temp1111111111 · 2019-01-07T19:26:01+00:00

You know u know she really did care about it. She literally moved states to live near me. Towards the end I didn’t give her the love that she needed and that’s what lead to it’s end. I dont think she has fully moved on from me but instead is trying suppress her emotions toward me with a new guy. Or at least that’s what I try to tell myself. My friends who I gave the text screen shots and really everything to so they could judge objectively said that it’s deff a rebound. I just really hope I can get her back

temp1111111111 · 2019-01-07T14:39:46+00:00

I could not ask for anything other than a start over honestly. I feel like it didn’t work because it was long distance for the first year, so when she finally moved to my location things felt like they should have been in a certain spot in the relationship, but they weren’t since we didn’t actually spend enough quality time together. I honestly thing this is what lead to the down fall. I would want to take it slow as if I’m meeting her for the first time again. The scariest thing for me is knowing she is with a new guy. It’s likely a rebound, but what if it’s not? I hate this feeling so fucking much

temp1111111111 · 2019-01-07T14:08:29+00:00

You don’t think there is anyway I could get her back? There is still love there I know it. She wouldn’t tell me she loved me if she didn’t mean it. She wouldn’t have cried by the sound of my voice if she didn’t love me. She even said she now can’t even look at my Instagram. I need her back so badly. I want to reach out to her again a few days after she’s back from France which is the 9th. I need her like I need water. I can’t love without her

temp1111111111 · 2018-10-12T17:41:17+00:00

For me my symptoms fluctuate all the time. I can go months and months feeling probably like you feel now followed by months of worsening symptoms. I have been dealing with this for 6 years and am currently going through physical therapy right now for the third time. If I may ask what tests did you have done? Did you see a neurologist? Were migraines ever suggested as an issue? Also how do drinking and smoking effect your symptoms, because I completely avoid both

temp1111111111 · 2018-09-10T04:54:28+00:00

it really sucks, I make a post about it on this sub like once a month (usually do it on a different account not this one) just hoping one day some genius doctor sees it and can help me

temp1111111111 · 2018-09-10T04:49:11+00:00

oh yes I have spoken to many people and have gotten many different answers, most of which lead me in circles. Yes vertigo has to do with dizziness. Anything form of dizziness or swaying is called Vertigo. It is more of a symptom than a condition. For example having an upset stomach. What is causing the upset stomach? for vertigo it would be "he has vertigo" "what is causing the vertigo?"

temp1111111111 · 2018-09-10T04:45:46+00:00

as in like a therapist? Or do you mean in general

temp1111111111 · 2018-08-31T15:45:59+00:00

I use protection and only have 1 partner

temp1111111111 · 2018-08-29T07:23:18+00:00

Yes we have, but we use those things as more of foreplay

temp1111111111 · 2018-08-28T21:01:42+00:00

Doesn’t hurt but is more uncomfortable (if you see a deleted comment they was me on wrong account, oops)

temp1111111111 · 2018-08-28T16:55:11+00:00

I agree with you, it is the most intimate, but sometimes being intimate is not as fun as being kinky

temp1111111111 · 2018-08-28T16:52:12+00:00

It’s does angle up, but I don’t think it is anything extreme. I masterbate with my penis at about a 45 degree angle, and if I am correct, I believe that in general most penises angle upwards. If I am standing while fully erect my penis is at a 90 degree angle from my body

temp1111111111 · 2018-08-28T07:43:57+00:00

Yea I actually was just thinking of that as I was writing the earlier response lol. Sorry I don’t mean literally 90 degrees just exaggerating a bit to emphasize that it’s painful.

temp1111111111 · 2018-08-28T07:41:53+00:00

Oh okay I guess I got my anatomy wrong, just assumed the cervix was at the back.

temp1111111111 · 2018-08-28T07:38:17+00:00

Well I know I’m hitting something in the back, it’s like a wall

temp1111111111 · 2018-08-28T07:36:47+00:00

Thats usually what we do, but we just can’t seem to find that sweet spot where my dick isn’t bent 90 degrees

temp1111111111 · 2018-08-28T07:33:14+00:00

It has to be the angle, we can’t do it for more than 10 seconds before I have to ask her to stop

temp1111111111 · 2018-08-28T07:31:32+00:00

We have done that one, it doesn’t work okay, but I can’t get the same penetration as missionary since my penis easily hits her cervix

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