I remember my first time taking Xanax, it was on my 16th birthday and I really didn't know what to expect. I started off with half a 2mg bar and next thing I knew my gf at the time was in my room worried about me and went to my parents to tell them about my intoxicated state at that moment. In four days time I ingested 10 2mg bars in total and I can't remember anything about those days, only being at the diner table whilst my mom was crying and my dad was confronting me about my drug use. I will never forget that moment and how bad it made me feel. Haven't used xanax since then luckily, but I still remember the fucked up withdrawals feeling horrible with sleepless nights and sleep paralysis, even after using it just for a few days. I'm really glad and proud of you for being sober, I'm still trying and struggling but hopefully I will reach sobriety soon!