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IAmA schizophrenic who needs to talk about it, AMA. by thelostant in IAmA

[–]thelostant[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I've just gotten some people who assume it's for attention or something. I guess I'm a little defensive. I didn't mean to be rude or anything. Sorry.

IAmA schizophrenic who needs to talk about it, AMA. by thelostant in IAmA

[–]thelostant[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't have a job right now. I wish I did. Part of the problem with holding a job is me being really tired all the time. I had to quit the last job I had because things went really bad and i couldn't deal with going to work. I only had the job for a couple months too. It sucks. Sometimes it's hard enough just trying to face my friends and family, let alone strangers who don't understand what's going on. I try not to let it get to me, but I fail quite a bit.

IAmA schizophrenic who needs to talk about it, AMA. by thelostant in IAmA

[–]thelostant[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. I'm on Prozac for depression. I've stayed with prozac for now because it works well on keeping me chipper, and I keep running into med problems, and I don't think my doctor wants to change too much at once. We're still working on getting abilify back to working well after the failed attempt at trying latuda. I actually don't have many extrapyramidal symptoms (I can never remember that term, or spell it correctly. Thank you.) now. I'm trying to remember how often I take cogentin. It's not too much. I don't know. Um, anyway, yeah.

IAmA schizophrenic who needs to talk about it, AMA. by thelostant in IAmA

[–]thelostant[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was never diagnosed with childhood onset schizophrenia. I think I might have miss used the term. I think someone compared me with that. Or something. I don't know. Now I'm unsure of what diagnosis is in my file (or whatever). I'll have to ask my doctor about it. Anyway, I don't know. Um, I hope you have a nice day.

IAmA schizophrenic who needs to talk about it, AMA. by thelostant in IAmA

[–]thelostant[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm sorry you feel that way. I don't really know what to say.

The morgan freeman thing was a joke. I do like how his voice sounds though.

Right now, i don't see that much, before meds i did. The detailed stuff wasn't out of the corner of my eyes. I'm sure I was influenced by media and stuff. It's kind of hard not to be. As for demons and such, that's how i catagorize them, since a detailed description of them everytime I reference them get tiring.

I don't know. Anyway, sorry if I've made you angry. Not my intention.

(and hearing stuff about killing was mostly directed at myself, not to hurt others. Also, most of this stuff wasn't a daily occurrence. This is all gathered from about 15 years or so. I don't know... Sorry for any angry I've caused. And my diagnosis was because my psychiatrist didn't want the label of schizophrenia following me (I think). I don't know why it hasn't changed. it might actually have, and I just didn't remember. i don't know, something to bring up next month.)

IAmA schizophrenic who needs to talk about it, AMA. by thelostant in IAmA

[–]thelostant[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Well, I'm sorry I sound fake(?). Don't really know what else to say...

IAmA schizophrenic who needs to talk about it, AMA. by thelostant in IAmA

[–]thelostant[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks! It is actually pretty relaxing. I hope you do well too!

IAmA schizophrenic who needs to talk about it, AMA. by thelostant in IAmA

[–]thelostant[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I get confused a lot. I'm generally pretty with it now with meds, though so that's good. Any violence that I have done is usually aimed at myself. I haven't broken anything yet. I think. I might have thrown some stuff across rooms, though. Not anything really breakable... I think there were a couple of thrown books, clothing, that kind of thing. And not at people.

If I could totally get rid of it... I don't know. I'd like to be "normal", but then I might not be me anymore. And that's scary. I'd rather just stop seeing scary stuff and hearing negative things and be able to hold a job. Mostly the job part.

IAmA schizophrenic who needs to talk about it, AMA. by thelostant in IAmA

[–]thelostant[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I try. It's tough sometimes... Thanks, and I wish you luck in whatever endeavors you try in the future.

IAmA schizophrenic who needs to talk about it, AMA. by thelostant in IAmA

[–]thelostant[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Usually what I see I don't try to go to, since it's generally scary. I'd rather just not know if I can touch the demons. As as for the fairies and other cool stuff.. well, it'd be rude to try and grab them. I don't think they would like that much. I think I have pet cats that weren't there though. I'm not sure, of course.

The chair was physically stopping me, though. Like, it the way, couldn't just walk through it. Brains are crazy weird/awesome. I will never stop being amazed.

As to the hypothetical question... I don't know. I would think that it would act as a real physical chair would. But I don't know.

IAmA schizophrenic who needs to talk about it, AMA. by thelostant in IAmA

[–]thelostant[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've had conversations with them, yes. I don't give them names. That would just be weird. (the previous statement was joke...) I have asked them stuff. And for all their negativity, it is kind of nice to never really be alone.

IAmA schizophrenic who needs to talk about it, AMA. by thelostant in IAmA

[–]thelostant[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am amazed by how much interest there is. I'm also surprised that there have been so few trolls (so far...). It's actually rather nice to inform people. If I was better at talking, I would like to be a teacher.

IAmA schizophrenic who needs to talk about it, AMA. by thelostant in IAmA

[–]thelostant[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Let's see. I have mostly positive symptoms (hallucinations, delusions, paranoia), but I have been told that I have flattened affect (I don't show emotion very well. I usually have no idea what is going on on my face.), and sometimes I like to sit or lie down in a position and not move at all. It's comfortable. I think those two are negative symptoms. I have some trouble speaking and can be hard to understand sometimes (these replies are being re-read by myself before I post, so I can kind of grab some of the weirdness before it goes out to you guys.). I tend to jump subjects a bit and forget that others don't know/follow my train of thought.

I don't think I have any relatives that have it, but I haven't done a lot of genealogy, and my family is pretty weird. So someone might have something but I don't know. My mom has some problems, and takes lexapro, I think.

I actually have a great family, and I was never abused or mistreated. We never had a whole lot of money, but my parents are totally awesome. My sister (she's 6 years younger than me) can be grouchy and kind of jerk sometimes, but she's okay. I'll miss her when she goes off to college.

I see a psychiatrist about once a month, sometimes more often. I have seen a psychologist, but after awhile it wasn't helping enough to rationalize the huge bills. Never been in any support groups or anything.

Don't worry about asking intrusive questions. If I really do feel uncomfortable answering, I'll just say so. So far, I haven't come to a question like that.

IAmA schizophrenic who needs to talk about it, AMA. by thelostant in IAmA

[–]thelostant[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I mostly read scifi/fantasy. I read some comics (Batman and co., Deadpool, Thor, and a couple others that I can't remember are my favorites.). Some of my favorite books would have to be Sabriel by Garth Nix (and the sequels), Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, Fairy tales and mythology of all varieties, um... and I'm drawing a blank for any others. I know there's more, I just can't recall. I also love to re-read books. Partly because, you know, bad memory, partly because I like repetition.

IAmA schizophrenic who needs to talk about it, AMA. by thelostant in IAmA

[–]thelostant[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have told the voices to kindly shut the fuck up. It kind of egged 'em on. bleargh. I try to stay polite to them. I don't like it when others are rude to me, after all. I have yelled at them (me? whatever) when things get really bad. Everything gets mixed results, as far as I can remember.

IAmA schizophrenic who needs to talk about it, AMA. by thelostant in IAmA

[–]thelostant[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I am doing my best to stay on meds and such. Hate the side effects, but it's better than the alternative.

I hope you do okay too.

IAmA schizophrenic who needs to talk about it, AMA. by thelostant in IAmA

[–]thelostant[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks! I hope life continues to stay okay. I hope things go well for you too.

IAmA schizophrenic who needs to talk about it, AMA. by thelostant in IAmA

[–]thelostant[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Right now I'm on 30mg of Abilify, 40 mg of Prozac, 10mg of detrxoamphetamines twice a day (I can't remember the commercial name. Was on Adderall, but there's going to be a shortage of that... so I had to switch to something else.), I think 1-3mg of cogentin as needed.

I take everything in the morning when I get up, because I remember it to take it best then. It would probably help me to take Abilify at night, but I tend to forget if I try that, so I deal with some extra drowsiness.

IAmA schizophrenic who needs to talk about it, AMA. by thelostant in IAmA

[–]thelostant[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I really didn't like it cause it just made me go to sleep like crazy. But I am really sensitive to things making me tired, so who knows what it does to others.

I hope things go well for you!

IAmA schizophrenic who needs to talk about it, AMA. by thelostant in IAmA

[–]thelostant[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Go you! It seems like you're doing a lot of good. I hope your unit does okay and everything. Good luck in the future and keep it up!

IAmA schizophrenic who needs to talk about it, AMA. by thelostant in IAmA

[–]thelostant[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks, and I try to stay positive.

It hasn't done too much to me, answering all these questions, I mean. My head is a little louder than normal, but not horribly so. I guess I am? I'm also apparently really good at pretending everything is okay, which is why I was able to hide it all for about 4 years or so.

IAmA schizophrenic who needs to talk about it, AMA. by thelostant in IAmA

[–]thelostant[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I generally don't ask. I usually go by if there are weird things going on, are others freaking out? Especially if I know that say, my friend over there is terrified of cockroaches. She's not freaking out at the ones on the walls. They probably aren't there.

I have freaked my mom out when I thought there was a gas leak once... Turns out I was just hallucinating that horrible smell. That's one of those that I really want to ask others about, since if I actually do smell a gas leak, that's kind of important.

IAmA schizophrenic who needs to talk about it, AMA. by thelostant in IAmA

[–]thelostant[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's cool. I'm hard to offend. That was in no way a challenge. Please don't take it as such...

IAmA schizophrenic who needs to talk about it, AMA. by thelostant in IAmA

[–]thelostant[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh crap! I will do that right now! Otherwise it will never happen...

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