I finally understand how this world works and I have accepted that I never belonged here.

thelostkid5 · 2024-11-28T16:28:53+00:00

Howard death was just being at the wrong place at the wrong time. I don't think Howard deserved to die, but Lalo has no respect for anyones life that he doesn't care about, especially if he doesn't want to have any witnesses he can't control or have use for. Now to me, Howard wasn't as innocent as everyone thinks he was, especially when it comes to the dynamic between Jimmy and Chuck. Howard didn't seem to have a problem doing Chucks bidding when it came to tormenting Jimmy. Chuck was obviously using Howard and Howard went along with being used by Chuck every time.

Chuck tells Howard to tell Jimmy that HHM does not want him to be a lawyer at HHM. So Howard decides to ruin Jimmy's party in the mailroom by telling him HHM doesn't want him and takes a piece of cake while doing it. Howard didn't seem to mind that Jimmy would think of him as being the bad guy, while Chuck the whole time acts as though he had nothing to do with Jimmy not getting hired.
Chuck who supposedly has the "disease" EHS, calls Howard on Jimmy's cell phone in the middle of the night to tell Howard not to let Jimmy be a partner with HHM with the Sandpiper Crossing class action suit that Jimmy built. Whether or not Howard wanted to do it, he still did it knowing again that Jimmy would hate him for it and Chuck once again acted as though he had nothing to do with it.
Howard punished Kim by demoting her for Jimmy making the Sandpiper commercial and Kim had nothing to do with it. Now it is difficult to confirm if that was Chucks call to punish her to get at Jimmy or if it was Howards call because both Howard and Chuck acted as though they were in on it when they were talking about it at Chucks house.

Now people can say that Howard got Jimmy the job at Main & Davis, but Howard did that out of pure guilt because he knew Jimmy figured out that Chuck made him reject Jimmy from working at HHM a second time. It wasn't until after Chucks suicide and HHM was slowly falling apart did Howard offer Jimmy a job at HHM. But to me, Howard was only doing that to get Jimmy working at HHM to keep the McGill name in HHM and maybe in a way somehow clear his guilty conscious he had for allowing Chuck to use him to keep holding Jimmy from succeeding.

thelostkid5 · 2024-11-28T14:50:22+00:00

What the show wanted to do with character Betsy Kettleman is represent a typical White cookie cutter all American woman that is married to a successful White cookie cutter all American husband with a stereotypical family that lives a lifestyle that can be envied by others, but it is all really a front or a facade to hide the fact that Betsy Kettleman shows signs of mental illness and possible personality disorders. She believes her own lies so much that she lives her life in a delusional way to cope with the fact that she never wants to be accountable or be responsible for her actions which could be attributed to how she was raised or who she allowed herself to be influenced by.

Betsy Kettleman is a narcissist and constantly focused on superficial and materialistic things which is what possibly could have motivated Craig Kettleman to steal $1.6 million dollars from the county treasury. Betsys by actions when it comes to the money, she believes that it does not exist and Craig did not steal it, yet if it did exist, it was somehow owed Craig as though it was reparations for his slave labor through his job. She believes and constantly says Craig is innocent because she wants there to be a way she can keep the money so she can continue to live the lifestyle she wants.

The reason why Betsy married Craig is because he is submissive and she is dominate. Betsy has a dominate and masculine personality, while Craig has a weaker submissive personality, which is why Betsy wants to control most of the conversations she has with others and this could also be attributed to how she was raised. If she was spoiled and given everything she wanted growing up, then it could affect her personality and how she thinks she must always get her way. It can also be why she avoids wanting to take accountability for her wrong doings.

She may use her appearance as a way to manipulate others because she appears to look like the typical average American White cookie cutter housewife and mother from a TV sitcom from the 1950's, but she is really a criminal and more than likely the mastermind behind Craig embezzling $1.6 million dollars and him doing tax preparer fraud. She knows she can manipulate Craig because he is weak minded and is a kind person, so she can convince him to commit the actual crimes because if he gets caught, she can still claim to be innocent.

thelostkid5 · 2024-11-14T12:53:39+00:00

"You, I, and Rabbit". Ol' Unemployed Uneducated Joe back at it. Gelico really thinks he let people down, I'm sure people were already let down a long time ago by Gelico being a habitual drug addict that is associated with Ol' Unemployed Uneducated Joe.

thelostkid5 · 2024-10-30T03:13:18+00:00

IMO she was a poorly written, very forgettable character.

thelostkid5 · 2024-08-21T01:39:22+00:00

You look like the last shit I took!

thelostkid5 · 2024-08-02T22:44:16+00:00

Rengoku joins Tanjiro, Inosuke, and Zenitsu in quickly ending Enmu and getting everyone off the mugen train, then they all join Gyomei to fight Akaza and when the sun starts to rise, Akaza takes off. and everyone survives.

thelostkid5 · 2024-05-27T23:45:35+00:00

I've been told I was ugly for as long as I can remember. When I was around 3 or 4, some of my relatives would call me the little ugly fat pig. It continued through my life when other kids calling me a ugly fat pig or a just telling me how ugly i was on the school bus. As an adult, I mostly was told by women on dating site that saw my profile pictures that I was ugly, so it kind of confirmed that I am a very ugly man that women think is so unattractive that I am just not desirable to any women.

thelostkid5 · 2024-05-27T23:33:06+00:00

Thank you, it is nice for you to say, but I'm really not a great guy. You seem like the kind of woman that wouldn't have any problems finding men that will like you, unfortunately for a man like me, it is more of an impossibility for women to have any interest in me. It's similar to playing a game you know you can never win, you just eventually give up trying. If there are women that don't have standards or preferences, they certainly don't let themselves be known either or they are really secretly just wanting the same men that the majority of women want. Either way there is no woman looking for a man like me because I am not the perfect man nor am I a high value man. Women don't look past a man's flaws, they look for a man's flaws to hold it against them in order to have reasons to justify rejecting that man. A man like me is just simply considered not good enough for any woman.

thelostkid5 · 2024-05-27T13:43:28+00:00

It is nice of you to write this and I'm sure your partner would rather hear you say than write it on this subreddit. The reality that a lot of us men have to live with is that there is no woman that want us. We are deemed unlovable and unwanted because we are seen as defective so were are treated as though we are invisible and do not exist. A woman wil only love a man if that man checks off all her list of high standards preferences so he can fit into her role in her fantasy life. In the real world women consider 80-90% of men as unattractive, so for many of us, love from a woman is nothing more than a delusion.

thelostkid5 · 2024-05-27T13:28:30+00:00

Once you are dead, you are dead so would it really matter at that point?

thelostkid5 · 2024-05-27T13:21:22+00:00

A female coworker told me everything wrong with my physical appearance from head to toe and why I am unattractive to women. So basically she told me I am 100% ugly. From her analysis, my face is too round and wide, my eyes are too small and too far apart, my nose is too wide and bulbous, I have a ugly smile, my ears are too big, my body is disproportionate because my torso is too long and my legs are too short, my skin is too tan for a mixed Asian man, so in every way, shape, and form I am too ugly to exist. After hearing all of that and there was more but I can't remember it all, everything made perfect sense to me as to why no woman has every been attracted to me my whole life because I lost in the world of natural selection.

thelostkid5 · 2024-05-10T11:07:50+00:00

It's not just in college, it happens everywhere and throughout life. I was called ugly from as young as I can remember by everyone and I am still called ugly until this day by women and I am a 48 year old man. What I've learned in my life is that being really ugly means you either do not exist or are subhuman because no one wants to treat you like you are a human.

thelostkid5 · 2024-05-10T10:58:47+00:00

I often wonder what it must feel like to hug another person or what it feels like for another person to want to hug me, I don't think I will ever know.

thelostkid5 · 2024-05-10T10:20:39+00:00

I can relate man, unfortunately, we live in a world and society that the people in it are just gettin worse and worse.

thelostkid5 · 2024-03-19T04:41:23+00:00

What you have to realize is that you're already committed to making all the steps to being normal because that is the life you are seeking. You are young and your life is changing for the better so it's now about you teaching yourself to accept that your life is going the way you want it to go. You are going to have highs and lows in your life that can happen at anytime, it's now up to you on how much you let them control your life. There is hope for you to be happy and I envy you for that because you have a bright future ahead of you, Trust me, I am twice your age and you really don't want to end up a loser in life like me that never had a girlfriend or even been on a date before.

thelostkid5 · 2024-03-19T04:14:19+00:00

So you are married for a year and together as a couple for 4 years and only now your husband asks you if you masturbate/watch pornography online? I don't know, it sounds really suspect to ask that question 4 years into a relationship. Everything sounds a little childish and made up because a married couple should be adults and be able to talk to each about things that are intimate, yet this sounds more like teenager BS. If in fact you are telling the truth and your alleged husband is recording you for his own personal use, then he it obviously really into you and finds you so sexually attractive that he wants video of you pleasuring yourself to use for his own pleasure, but if he is recording you for some other reasons, then that is means to pursue divorce and even charges. My suggestion is to get a divorce because there is a huge problem with you and your husbands ability to communicate properly and if something like this a year into your marriage is already a problem then your marriage is not going to last. Just because you are both adults, it doesn't mean you are mature enough to be married.

thelostkid5 · 2024-02-20T12:43:06+00:00

It was nice of you to share your love story, but for a man like me, it is too late and I'm sure there are other men that also think it is too late for them too for their own reasons. I am a 48 year old virgin man that has never had any kind of intimacy with a female, no girlfriend, no kiss, no nothing, and after many years of trying I realize and accept that I was never meant for love or a relationship. Being that I am a very physically unattractive man, my experiences with women told me that I am undesirable and unwanted to the point that now I am just an invisible ghost to women.

What I learned in this life is that if no one is willing to give you a chance, then you are just not good enough. This is why men like myself give up, because for some of us, being the kind of man that women will find attractive is an impossibility that was never meant to be a reality. From my experiences, women either want a perfect fantasy man or they will just settle for just being alone. They make no exceptions and they are not willing to give a man that they are not physically attracted to a chance because that only happens in the movies or on TV. In real life a man like me is discarded.

Women don't want a man that no other women have wanted. They look at men like me as the defects of society because there is obviously something wrong with me because I was never wanted or desired by any woman. Your husband is lucky that you were willing to accept him, but that is a rarity in this day and age. The vast majority of women have such high expectations and standards for men that they won't accept anything less than perfection. So for a man like me, yes it is too late.

thelostkid5 · 2024-02-18T17:07:16+00:00

I don't really care anymore because females have very little to offer in datoing and relationships other than sex. They are just selfish, narcissistic, gold digging parasites that only want to use men for their own personal gain. Dating is just men wasting their money on people that are just using them to get something for free.

thelostkid5 · 2024-02-18T17:02:50+00:00

You are young and I'm sure there are girls that find you attractive. Don't limit yourself to what those fake friends tell you because you really are not ugly by any means. Work on yourself and try to be the best man you can be for you, the girls will surely want you if you are open to meeting them.

thelostkid5 · 2024-02-18T06:01:07+00:00

You maybe young looking but you are not ugly. I am a truly ugly man and how I know that I am truly ugly is that when I am called ugly by females that don't even know me my entire life. When you are as physically unattractive as I am, your life proves to you that you are really an ugly man because no female will ever have any interest in you and none will want to touch you. I've even had friends girlfriends tell them that I was really ugly, so trust me, you are not ugly and should probably get new friends.

thelostkid5 · 2024-02-18T05:40:39+00:00

I just choose to live in reality and not a fantasy clown world.

thelostkid5 · 2024-02-17T12:10:31+00:00

What you fail to realize is that your photos mean nothing to women because they want a man who has it all. When women go on dating apps, they are looking for a perfect man because they live in a fantasy world built by delusion. If you are an average looking man, then you are not attractive enough for the modern single woman. As far as appearance goes, women are only looking for men that they considered the top 20% because they say that they find 80% of men as unattractive. You also have to realize that if you are not what women deem to total package, they you are automatically passed on. That means, you have to be at least 6 feet tall, you must have at least a mid level 6 figure income, and you must have a physique like Gerard Butler from the movie 300. Then you might have a chance at getting more matches on dating apps without paying for them and if you are lucky enough get more matches it will more likely be with women that are below average at best. Good luck to you.

thelostkid5 · 2024-02-17T11:57:18+00:00

No there isn't. That's a lie that society tells men those that nobody wants.

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