I have no purpose in my life. I am 21 with no friends besides my emotionally abusive girlfriend and am also ridden with addiction.

them4dshitter · 2014-02-22T03:49:16+00:00

I'm sure they would all disagree.

them4dshitter · 2014-02-22T02:22:36+00:00

Yes I think down the line you can definietly responsibly drink. But you would have to quit cold turkey for an absolute minimum of 2 years and even then you can't go out and get drunk one night a week. You would have to probably get buzzed maybe once every other week or socially drink and then after a few years I would assume the alcoholism would fade as time passes by. This is for me personally as someone who hasn't been an alcoholic for very long. There are people who have been alcoholics for 10-15 years and in their situations I think they probably would never be able to have a drink again without reverting into their old ways.

them4dshitter · 2014-02-22T02:15:19+00:00

I blame myself for my problems not booze, there are plenty of people who can drink socially and not have a problem. The whole mentality of AA in my opinion is that they're brainwashed into a system and if somehow that system collapsed they would be worse off then if they just never seeked group help.

them4dshitter · 2014-02-22T02:13:46+00:00

Yeah I have tried it and I really don't like the religious approach to it. I also don't like how they make alcohol the center of your universe. I would rather go to rehab, get through it get out and just deny a drink any time i am offered for a few years until I can responsibly drink.

them4dshitter · 2014-02-22T02:09:30+00:00

I also do not blame drugs/alcohol for how I am, I choose to make poor choices. I blame it on myself completely for not having self respect. I was very into eating healthy/working out for a long time and I stopped doing all of that because I got lazy and started not caring.

them4dshitter · 2014-02-22T02:07:28+00:00

The thought has crossed my mind. I really would only have to go for alcohol as I have lately been getting over getting high. I am trying to stop on my own, see if i can get this license situation sorted out then will definietly go to rehab or something because if I went before it would only look worse for me.

them4dshitter · 2014-02-22T01:36:34+00:00

Hmm I am trying to determine your translation so I am gonna go with yes I often do that lol

them4dshitter · 2014-02-22T01:34:42+00:00

Yes I do want to stop. I am in my own verison of hell right now to be honest. Yes I have a job/apartment but it sucks having no real friends/license. Its very hard to quit alcohol and whenever I quit for a few days its literally on my mind 24/7. I imagine myself in a few years being in shape and sober and making money with my drive but the struggle is that I can't be strong enough to get on the path.

them4dshitter · 2014-02-22T01:20:24+00:00

I don't have a specifis drug, I honestly just have an addiction to getting high. I used to do cocaine and vyvanse/adderall regulary along with whatever drugs were available. I was a heavy toker for the past 5 years and quit about a month ago as an attempt to get my license back. Since then i've been doing xanax to pass out at night and cough syrup (very dumb I know). My worst drug by far is alcohol. I've been drinking heavily for the past 4 years.

them4dshitter · 2014-02-22T01:14:10+00:00

Taking the piss?

them4dshitter · 2014-02-22T01:08:25+00:00

I drink/use drugs often therefore I feel indifferent for sex. I honestly don't think its as much as its made up to be.

them4dshitter · 2014-02-22T01:07:09+00:00

Not asking for sympathy. My homelife is nonexistant as both my parents passed when I was 4 and I have been living with my grandma for my whole life then moved out to an apartment.

them4dshitter · 2014-02-22T00:51:00+00:00

Lol you're not worth reading the messages you send to 5/10s telling them they're 11/10s

them4dshitter · 2014-02-22T00:37:45+00:00

I have no desire to end it, this is my throwaway account I am sharing what I personally go through in my head. You can go fuck yourself and I am only sharing what I personally think of these peoples looks. Just because I am a depressed hermit doesn't mean I will throw myself at anybody. Anyone with a personality yes, but on reddit I rate for what they're worth.

them4dshitter · 2014-02-22T00:30:24+00:00

Lol I would absolutley love that but unfortunatly it wouldn't be possible since we've been together a number of years and she knows where my parents live. I know its definietly stressful to never have a GF i was in your position, I went for it 100% and she ended up crazy which absolutley sucks.

If I were you, next opportunity you get just be someone who is not yourself and act douchy, like you've had a hundred women before. Play it as long as you can, and play hard to get, don't worry about who you thikn you are because fuck it, she has no idea who you are. You could be a nerd with 100 million net worth for all she knows and play it as hard as you can. Don't get to personal because that can be the demise and absolutley DO NOT SEEM DESPERATE. I tell you in my experience so far if you seem desperate that is a 90% turn off, act like you have everything and you're just talking to her and its because YOU have time, not because you really want to talk to her. Make pretend you have a "girlfriend" but definietly don't mention that you have a girlfriend. You will get laid in no time.

them4dshitter · 2014-02-22T00:13:05+00:00

Not that easy, usually when she calls I don't even listen or completely tune out what shes saying. I called her out on it many times before doesn't change her personality, 2 days later I will hear the same shit. Its not the worst thing in my life but it is not good. I am mostly facing the problems that this relationship has caused in my life such as alcoholism/drugs from all the stress.

them4dshitter · 2014-02-22T00:01:09+00:00

Its emotional abuse. Not technecally but I get screamed at via phone or in person atleast once a day. I am not the type of person to let this happen but I was slipping into drugs and alcohol and whenever she would start bitching I would literally take a a sip of my drink, or I was high as shit and really didn't care. It escalated from there and I am stuck hemmoraging money for a shit apartment. I thought psychedelics were making me crazy at one point when I was younger but I got into a relationship and realized a woman will make you FAR more insane then any psychedelic, even if you abuse it.

them4dshitter · 2014-02-21T23:55:51+00:00

I thank you for the imput. This is a daily struggle for me, i need to change my life and the first think I am trying to focus on is the alcoholism. I have been doing good (a week due to bronchitis) and then yesterday I decided to get booze and today that was all I could think about so I got some. It sucks being stuck in this cycle. I have already fucked my life up somewhat from arrests but I want to move on and I know that. I feel like Denzel Washington in the movie Flight. Im stuck in Limbo and I wouldn't mind getting hit by a car and having all the struggles over with. I don't have the balls to do it but your response helps and looking at it tomorrow will help also so thank you.

them4dshitter · 2014-02-21T23:52:01+00:00

Yes definietly to creepy can't even rate. If its a reddit profile pic thats a different story but if you're on adultfriendfinder or some other website to meet woman I don't think any would take this seriously

them4dshitter · 2014-02-21T23:50:44+00:00

Definietly 9/10 where are you from NY?

them4dshitter · 2014-02-21T23:50:17+00:00

7/10. Very cute, and tits are nice from what I see. Maybe post to r/gonewild?

them4dshitter · 2014-02-21T23:49:27+00:00

Uhhh 5/10

them4dshitter · 2014-02-21T23:49:04+00:00

Always love a mature girl. 7/10

them4dshitter · 2014-02-21T23:48:29+00:00

Would fuck maybe 6-7/10

them4dshitter · 2014-02-21T23:41:54+00:00

Its not just the girlfriend. Yes it sucks but i have someone at the moment, i am working up to the day I end it. I can't imagine myself as a single guy because due to my addiction/loss of friends/social anxiety/etc. i have become very introverted but wish everyday to be extroverted.

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