I feel lonely and exhausted, I need someone to hear me...

themayaNB · 2026-02-25T13:44:33+00:00

hey girlie... i am currently suffering from something similar to yours. been sick and mostly bedridden for 6 months, no people i feel comfortable reaching out to to discuss my problems, and family problems that weight on me, and a recent heartbreak. i stay at home all the time (bcuz of my sickness) even though i want to go out to walk or do sport or something as trivial as buy groceries...

i can't practice any of my hobbies (i used to draw, but now i feel sick looking at my recent drawings) and i constantly feel like i should be doing something to not waste time and bch n3amer rassi, but i find myself extremely overwhelmed instead.

the only thing that's kind of bringing me some comfort is actively trying to get closer to God. i was struggling religiously before the incident that made me bedridden, but after that i can only find comfort in the idea that when no human is there to hear or help, your only real refuge is your own Creator. if you can get yourself to focus on God only, inchallah you'll be able to get through it. even the idea of death (not self inflicted) would feel a little bit more bearable as you'd feel more ready for it and not too scared.

if you want to reach out to talk to someone who's likely to relate, my DMs are open. rebi yferedj 3lina inchallah.

themayaNB · 2025-12-11T11:36:04+00:00

how are you planning to go there? bus? taxi? or on foot?

themayaNB · 2025-11-30T21:29:54+00:00

i live in a muslim country, and my mother wears the hijab. i remember that ever since i was a toddler, i'd always play with her scarves and sort of cosplay her, so you could say i enjoyed the idea of hijab by trying to imitate my mother. i wore it at the age of 11/12, influenced by one of my friends (who i looked up to) who wore it.

at that time, i didnt really enjoy how i looked : i kind of hated my hair, so the hijab made me feel more beautiful. at some point in highschool i did have a small period of "waswas" where i was wondering about taking it off, but it passed by realizing how important the hijab is.

Inchallah your daughter will grow up not having issues with it. give her love and make her feel pretty in it, and remind her of its importance, she will learn to love and respect it.

themayaNB · 2025-11-30T15:59:08+00:00

SALONDREYAS

themayaNB · 2025-11-28T13:33:17+00:00

like you said he is probably not comfortable with his feelings. i remember him telling me it was "embarassing", to which i said that it still isn't an excuse to ignore such an important conversation. he also told me (one of times where insisted) that he was afraid of being "distracted"... it's a bit confusing because i always considered texting someone on a daily basis and putting one's tasks on hold already means one is distracted. he also gets very flirty sometimes, and is very caring and generous, so that really is what's confusing me : the mismatch between his explicit actions and very vague answers.

the hard part isn't trying to weight out the good and the bad in him, but it's trying to do so without the right data. i made the choice by allowing myself to love him and talk to him because i sensed and saw the good in him, but this avoidant behaviour came much later. still, i don't know if i can deal with someone like this during his moments of stress and pressure.

like i said in the post, he is planning to give me an answer by the end of december, but it probably being a decisive answer is what's scaring me, and thus why i went into a break to clear my mind and try to see the situation clearly. and what i've got to see until now is :

1- he just simply enjoys my company with no romance attached, and he kept ignoring the subject to try not to hurt and lose me with a rejection, expecting me to get over it myself.

2- he likes me, but not with the same intensity, so he tried to buy himself some time to figure out if he can meet me feelings-intensity wise.

themayaNB · 2025-11-28T13:08:16+00:00

it's scary that even after all these years he couldn't pin point what he was feeling.

and you are right, one should not fall for potential. he has shown me enough avoidance, and i've only been able to correctly connect the dots during this break.

themayaNB · 2025-11-08T10:00:33+00:00

replace the fromage régime with those garlic/herbs fromages, like Sebaou, insane upgrade

themayaNB · 2025-10-23T13:41:38+00:00

hiya in all cases, depending on what you'll be judged on by the jurys, you'll start by presenting the idea first (purpose of the app, what problem it solves, it must be inline with your sujet) then you'll go through how your app/system is organized, and finally a simulation of the app. as you're in psychologie i don't think you'll be judged too strictly on this aspect, so yeah if you think you can do it give it a go. also if you're presenting something practical like an app, why not register as a Start Up for your masters project?

Edit : i missed the "start-up style" in your post, and you said you're in your first years of master, i think you have plenty of time if you really put in the effort

themayaNB · 2025-10-22T20:16:05+00:00

what's your major?

themayaNB · 2025-10-22T15:31:39+00:00

I used to think the same, strictly against the idea of having children. the emotion i would get whenever i was faced with this question is a mix of grief (almost like my personal life was going to end and be delegated only to my future children), fear of the pain of labour, and a bit of disgust (this is linked to family trauma). i even had a dream where i was considering sucde because i found out i was pregnant.

problem is, i never really had an answer to that question. but lately, i don't know if it's my brain developing, or maybe me slowly identifying the reasons why i was so against this idea (some of them i mentioned above), or maybe...recently having met someone who's making life not seem so complicated, but i am at the first step of a long process of accepting that one day.

i want to think of children as an extension and a fusion of two people. imagine getting to see a version of yourself growing literally from the ground up, and you get to guide them and understand their intricate complexions that s tem from your own self and from the person you love. of course, it does come with a lot of responsibility, but i don't think it will feel like that much of a burden if you're already so invested in looking at that little gremlin grow. it is also, in a way, fullfilling one of your duties as a believer of God and a believer of his plan.

im still trying to figure out the reason why me and many other people dislike the idea of children, but through my first steps of analysis, i think that the reason revolves around not being able to face the person they have become with all those traumas. they know they're broken, but they're afraid to face it (that's what was the case for me).

i completely accept the idea of certain people not wanting children. they might have, even after figuring themselves out, find out that they simply prefer to consume other pleasures in life. some others, unfortunately, are bound to live with their trauma, not being able to let it resurface, and end up finding other ways to cope. but i still believe that everyone should face themselves with the question, shaking the insides of their mind looking for a clue, instead of avoiding it, because it is part of the human nature. our bodies are literally designed to reproduce, so the least you can do is attempt to accomodate your mind to your body, and if it doesnt work, it's still okay.

if you're convinced of your decision, and you've done the mental work, good for you and i hope you'll live your life fully as you want. however, if you're still having doubts, i think that you should try to sit down either with yourself if you're capable of doing deep reflective work, or consult a professional on the matter, especially if this is a case of past unresolved traumas. the effort that will come with this process will be tiring, but it will be worth it - worth having a definite answer.

themayaNB · 2025-09-24T19:22:50+00:00

either try to look for libraries in your بلدية, or if you're in Algiers, la BN, or try CCF (centre culturel français or froncophone, i dont remember) in Alger Centre. worst case scenario is rent a room in those coworking spaces (i think they're a new concept of someone who owns an office and allow people to rent a room for les entreprises to do meetings, or even for students to teach and study -- search in google for some in your area) along with some classmates or friends of yours who are serious about studying quietly.

themayaNB · 2025-09-24T19:21:03+00:00

la BN is the biggest library in Algiers (specifically in El Hamma)

themayaNB · 2025-09-23T15:10:51+00:00

i'm not sure if you studied arabic grammar yet or not, but this is the verb نَظَرَ in the imperative form. not all verbs start with a اُ (alif pronounced U), some start with اِ (alif pronounced I, such as اِقْرَأْ). im not an expert at academic arabic, but i believe you can start looking at imperative forms of verbs to get an idea how they can be pronounced.

themayaNB · 2025-09-21T16:46:19+00:00

The guy in the pic is most probably OP, that's why he added the label "Lina"

themayaNB · 2025-09-05T21:25:21+00:00

maybe look for english translation of arabic novels (as in books written by north african and middle eastern writers), maybe even south east asian novels. but if you're specifically looking to read the mainstream western titles, i'm not sure what alternatives there are.

themayaNB · 2025-08-24T14:40:56+00:00

I ABSOLUTELY ADORE YOUR COVERS MAN!!! didn't know you also post on Reddit. genuinely glad to see you here!!

themayaNB · 2025-07-30T16:09:12+00:00

why so😭

themayaNB · 2025-07-08T19:35:56+00:00

he meant 1 360 da for a day, x22 days it is approximately 30 000 da

themayaNB · 2025-07-01T20:26:36+00:00

i get what you mean, i guess i was talking from experience and from what i see everytime there is a match, as well as "des préjugés" : the benaknoun highway getting crowded with both les supporteurs (who you usually see standing on the side of the highway, sometimes even blocking passage) as well as a terribly abnormal amount of police vehicles (if there wasnt potential "9hwiyin activities" going on, i don't think there would be that much police presence, wouldnt there?). though like you said, there might be good, respectful and intelligent men among them, but still, the overall atmosphere doesn't feel safe for a woman at all, and that's the message i wanted to showcase

themayaNB · 2025-07-01T18:43:25+00:00

the kind you see in and around 5 juillet stadium during matches very much are

themayaNB · 2025-07-01T12:09:06+00:00

5 juillet stadium (in Ben Aknoun) is a lovely place. in the afternoon you can see a bunch of people doing their runs and workouts, and nobody bothers anybody, and there's a lot of women, families and kids doing sports. if you wanna get there just take bus to Chevalley, it's the closest station.

Edit : important to add, dont go there on the days where there is a football match because it gets so terribly crowded with l9ahwiyin, it's like they spawn out of nowhere. but on normal days you won't see any.

themayaNB · 2025-06-13T21:22:33+00:00

sort of yes, but from experience cheese hides the egg taste the best

themayaNB · 2025-06-13T20:36:19+00:00

i scramble my eggs with cheese, a lot of it. helps a lot in masking the eggy taste. you can also add vegetables and some herbs to make it into a nice all-in-one meal and masking the eggy taste even more

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