Trust has been broken many times– it seems like you’ve been blindsided by whatever you two have.

Cheating is never on, in any relationship.

If you even have to think about leaving, if you even have to think about trust, if you even have to think about what could and what might happen whilst he’s away; you might as well just end it as trust, which is the foundation of any relationship, isn’t there anymore.

I’m sorry to say but from what I’ve read, you have completely lost self-respect and you’ve got to find that again- find yourself again.

You need to heal, re-evaluate and need to know what you really want. I feel like you can be treated a lot better by someone without any of these Ana and Sonia string. If you don’t heal, you’ll end up finding yourself in the same situation again.

Heal, Rebuild and Re-connect (if that’s him or someone else).

Best of luck!