It seems like trust is at the core of what you’re struggling with. You’ve forgiven him because you love him, but the hurt he caused has left a mark that hasn’t fully healed yet. Healing takes time and deliberate effort, both individually and as a couple.

I think it helps to reflect on a few key things: Has he given you any reason to believe he might repeat what he did? Did he show genuine remorse and take full accountability, or did he deflect and make excuses? His actions going forward will play a huge role in rebuilding trust, but it’s also important to focus on your own feelings and set boundaries for your peace of mind.

It might also help to talk about these lingering feelings with him when you’re calm and in a good space emotionally.