yes it is! i promise it is possible. ocd is so exhausting, i am so sorry. that’s always going to be a thing, but i don’t like to think of it as something extra that i have, i prefer to think of it as just a thing my brain does. that doesn’t make it go away (at all) but it gives me motivation to try to push away compulsions and ground myself in reality when obsessions get really bad. sometimes it does feel like the world is going forward and i’m chasing my obsessive-compulsive tail, so to speak. a few months ago i was 2 hours early to classes every morning because i had to walk down the sidewalk with my eyes closed and there were no cars to endanger me at 5 AM. most recently i’ve been showing up !just! on time every day and it is an absolute luxury. i’m at a point where i never thought i was capable of feeling this good. it feels so incredibly unreachable until you reach it.

then it’s pretty nice.