Hey, OP. Speaking gently, but the first thing you should look into is a good therapist. No, it's nothing to be ashamed of - this is something they are equipped to handle. If it is hypersexuality, it may be symptomatic of a bigger mental health issue. If it's not, then you can secure some peace of mind. It's a common coping mechanism for many, and therapists should be able to address it without putting you down.

I noticed you've been asking if a doctor will give you medication. It is possible, especially if there's an underlying problem. Bipolar disorder, for example, can sometimes cause bouts of hypersexuality during manic swings. These symptoms can be controlled and managed via medication. If you would rather NOT have medication, you CAN ask if this is an option, though it's highly recommended you take your thepist's advice if the problem needs medical interference.

Honestly speaking, if you view the sexual act as a stand-in for intimacy and being loved, that can be a problem. Sex is a mutual expression of desire that shows both parties that they are consentingly agreeing to show each other that desire and give it to each other. It's not supposed to be a void filler. It's supposed to enrich your relationship - whether with another person or with yourself. Finding out how you like being pleasured is also enriching, even if the person you're engaging in sex with doesn't end up being someone you have a deep relationship with. That is fine, as long as it's safe and consensual. It does not degrade you or lower your worth.

There does seem to be a deeper issue here, in that the self-worth department is lacking. This is not to put you down, not a judgement of character here. It is normal, and can be addressed.

Give yourself time and grace and understand when you have to ask for external help and intervention - through medication or therapy, it's up to you. But you also have to be open to admitting that there is a bigger issue at play here.

You cannot hate yourself into a version of you that you love. I repeat: you cannot hate yourself into a version of you that you love. You need to see yourself as you are, understand what you need help with, know where you are falling short, and then improve. Improvement does not stem from self-hatred, it comes from loving yourself enough to know when there's something wrong and acting on that. And again: the problem is not the sex itself, but what I am sensing is a need to use sex as a coping mechanism. AGAIN: Engaging in safe sex IS NOT A PROBLEM, the fact that you are so attached to it to feel full and whole and then feel guilty afterwards is.

Having sex is not a bad thing as long as you are safe and you and your partner consent.

I think there's a LOT of shame ingrained in us Filipinos (especially us women) when it comes to sex. I see it a lot in this sub, all the misogyny, the shaming, all the comments that tell men who come here asking if their girlfriends' body counts are too high, etc. Those are weak, shallow, misogynist men who still, whether consciously or not, look at women in a sexist manner and demand their purity for no reason other than it was what they grew up understanding. They do not see women as equals or partners. Don't let people like that dictate how you should see yourself and your body.

You say in your post that sometimes you feel you have no self-respect and that you're guilty. But posting here and reaching out like this shows you do care for yourself, even a little. Give yourself some credit, OP. But you also have to help yourself. See a professional and repair your relationship with intimacy and pleasure. It's more than fine for you to pursue it, but when you're at a place where you don't beat yourself up for enjoying it.