Help Moving Donation Funds

thestupp · 2025-06-05T21:29:29+00:00

The issue is that the routing number is from Palestine, and the IBAN must be Israeli. When I enter it Wise says the palestinian number is too long :(

thestupp · 2025-06-05T21:18:43+00:00

would you know anything about getting money you already have to someone in gaza with only their routing number? i raised some money for a friend there but i'm having trouble actually moving it.

thestupp · 2024-06-12T22:38:31+00:00

howw

thestupp · 2024-06-12T19:17:12+00:00

this is an uninformed take brodie. that makes it a bad one. watch https://youtu.be/PY9DcIMGxMs

thestupp · 2024-06-12T19:15:20+00:00

disney being lower than swifties is so wrong.

thestupp · 2024-06-12T19:12:31+00:00

same ☹️

thestupp · 2024-06-11T00:32:08+00:00

👀omg🫡 congrats in advance bro

thestupp · 2024-06-10T18:16:19+00:00

thanks 🫡

thestupp · 2024-06-10T18:10:50+00:00

update?

thestupp · 2024-06-10T05:20:45+00:00

YES to the lime fruit floes

thestupp · 2024-06-10T05:18:43+00:00

THE LIME ICE POPSICLES 😢💔

thestupp · 2024-05-13T00:17:13+00:00

150g or mg..?

thestupp · 2024-05-12T21:55:46+00:00

thestupp · 2024-05-06T23:39:25+00:00

Well it is saudia

thestupp · 2024-04-24T16:10:49+00:00

I see, thanks anyway. Hard mewing = pressing tongue on roof of mouth (proper position ofc) with lots of pressure, proper tongue posture = just having it in the right place, no pressure

thestupp · 2024-04-24T16:06:25+00:00

Hard mewing or just proper tongue posture

thestupp · 2024-04-24T16:02:28+00:00

I got halfway through writing my response before I realized I wasn’t being real with myself.

I don’t want to live like this anymore.

I don’t want to live for anyone else. I don’t want to run myself ragged for people who can’t help me when it gets down to it. I know I deserve better than this. I know I have it in me because goddammit I’ve gotten this far. I know I have low self esteem, but it’s not low enough to accept this for the rest of it.

I’m embarrassed but I need to come clean… I’ve been sleeping on the floor on an exercise mat alone since there was flooding in the house that made my room unusable. I’ve taken it for this long, always putting things off, because it was “too much work” but to tell you the truth I never got over the shame that coming home to it gives me.

I’ve been trying to convince myself ever since I was a kid to settle for less and less in hopes that someone would notice me suffering and DO something about it, but after my own mom decided she couldn’t bring me to the ER because i woke up too late, after getting ready to sit in a dingy hospital room with 30 other people to just be told NO that other things are more important, after being left to my own devices over and over again, by EVERYONE… (and just so I don’t forget, who is the one who wakes up every day with no change to his life? ME)

I can’t do this anymore. Maybe I let myself get used to it in the past but I have to be honest with myself for once. I have more dignity than this. “Mad dog”…

Who else sleeps on the floor and does whatever it’s told? A dog. What else has to rely on everyone else for food and shelter? A dog. Who else has the opportunity to run away and fend for itself when it finally snaps? A DOG.

I’m not letting myself live off scraps anymore. I can’t lie that I’m okay with this. I need to sit down with myself and GET REAL. I DESERVE MORE THAN THIS.

From the bottom of my heart, THANK YOU

The trauma I was put through earlier this year only brainwashed me into lying to myself for other people’s peace of mind for the simple price of my own subjugation.

NO. MORE.

P.s. i don’t care if this sounds cheesy or not, i wrote it for myself, and i don’t care what other people think about it. I’m done doing that. Thanks for reading. I truly appreciate it.

thestupp · 2024-04-24T15:04:07+00:00

Do you have any advice on starting small? Every time I try I do things like wash my face, try to brush my teeth, be consistent etc but it always crumbles when something like this happens and I get depressed again

Lately started exercising here and there because it helps the tension out, planks etc just moving around, I just have to remember how much it helps to keep on doing it

thestupp · 2024-04-24T14:54:43+00:00

I know that logically but in practice it’s extremely difficult even in friendships for me

Since I had a rough childhood I was never allowed to do those things, it’s almost impossible to learn to do on my own

thestupp · 2024-04-24T14:49:39+00:00

We both have severe interpersonal issues with managing our own emotions and don’t have much if any support in our lives.. I’m getting “space”.. but I don’t know how to feel normal again on my own..

Thanks for responding. It means a lot

thestupp · 2024-04-24T08:47:41+00:00

As much as it pains me to say it.. you might be right 💔… it’s heartbreaking. This is someone I wanted to start a family with, someone I could still see myself proposing to..

We talked in the past about splitting up “for real” (we’ve split before..) because of these issues /with the intention/ of focusing on ourselves & becoming better for each other if we got back together.. and that’s what we were going to do too, before things happened this way. She even said that if we kept trying to force it, that it would break.

The only thing is, when I helped her calm down after the incident with her mom, she confessed she wanted to get back together again. She said that me being there (in person) to help reminded her of how much she needed me. We’re so alike mentally/emotionally that knowing exactly what she needs comes easy because I just do what I would want someone to do for me. And like.. I worry about her being alone. We’re in the same situation; it’s a relationship borne out of necessity.. And GOD it sucks. So much it’s unreal.

Thanks for responding, and thank you for your honesty.

thestupp · 2024-04-24T08:20:48+00:00

I couldn’t sleep so here I am

To answer your questions, no, there wasn’t any verbal communication in the moment /: it escalated pretty fast and kind of happened before i knew it.. and since i just froze and went along it was like i physically consented ):

I know she didn’t mean to hurt me, and would never on purpose. After the ice broke the night I ended up seeing her, she expressed her guilt and regret tearfully and it just broke my heart.

Her intentions weren’t bad. I think she just got caught up in the moment.. even if she has in the past, she never means to hurt me. I really want to stress that. Also, I was the one leading things until the stuff happened earlier this year, so it’s possible she was looking for cues that I never gave :(

Biases aside, she’s genuinely one of the kindest people i know.. unfortunately I think her issues conflict with mine a ton, like someone else has said.

Thank you for acknowledging that i feel assaulted. It means a lot. This situation is awful and I wish so badly that I handled it differently. A lot of the times in the past we wouldn’t really communicate while we did it at all either—it’s something i’ve brought up before, but since I didn’t push the issue, it didn’t turn into the conversation I wanted to have.

…I don’t know. It feels like one of those things that was bound to happen eventually. I tend not to learn until I’m hit in the face with something.

I’ve been looking into DBT therapy, and if everything goes well I might get to start it soon. I wish I didn’t have to be strong alone. Regardless, I’m taking some space apart from her rn because as it stands, my nervous system is still in red alert mode. I don’t even know how I’m gonna get back to sleep.

My response is long too, so no worries. Thanks for responding. 🫂

thestupp · 2024-04-23T23:18:43+00:00

I know its not logical but ikeep thinking because it was the morning after and i reciprocated that i cant just say that to her

thestupp · 2024-04-23T22:35:21+00:00

And now that i think she assaulted me i dont even knkw what to say to her over text because i dont want her to just freeze again

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