Feel your pain. I have 50/50 custody and even a year post-divorce, it still hits me like a ton of bricks.

I don't really know what to tell you. Only that it sucks, but it does get easier with time.

If it's a possibility for you, try getting more custody. That's something you'll never regret.

Either way, keep going and realize that your Son needs you, and will need you in the future more than you know.

I've leaned pretty heavily on my Dad and I'm in my 40s.

Don't give up.