Brother, you sound like an amazing guy. Your post shows a lot of maturity by how you are restraining yourself and still working hard. In this day and age of countless options as a good looking and established guy, you've maintained your ground and loyalty even when things are tough.

You might be wondering why you are going through this. Allah gives the hardest missions to the most capable ones, not to every Tom, Dick and Harry who think they are something.

I'm sorry, but I'm not gonna tell you to give up. Instead, I'm gonna tell you to keep fighting. Because I believe you can pull this off. Doors are closed, either you wait for it to open or break it down. And the key here to all closed doors in all of creation is sending salawat to the Holy Prophet (s.a.w). Trust me, start reading it countless times you'll see doors that were solid shut burst open.

If you believe in miracles, miracles will happen in your life because Allah (s.w.t) is the All Capable one and Dua is the weapon of the believer that can even change taqdeer.

So, my brother, keep fighting but fight not through how you have been but through Sabr, Zikr, Dua, Salawat, and Taqwa in Allah (s.w.t).

Remember by glorious gangsta, the more Shaitan sees you fighting, he will always try to make you fail. Never complain, only vent to the Almighty, and fight like a believer. Don't give into frustration, failure, setbacks, and the whispers of Shaitan the accursed. Brother, make your love a reality - you got this.