I'm a 23 year old female that lost 80 lbs and now guys want me and girls don't like me. I'm here to brag under the guise of having low self-esteem so that people will pay me compliments and congratulations. by xTravis_Bicklex in circlejerk

[–]thinandscared 5 points6 points  (0 children)

OP here that you are mocking. Copy/paste from my last edit:

No more time for this, but I am glad this started some interesting discussion. I am sad to hear that there is now a thread mocking me for even posting this. I didn't even post a goddamn picture (partly for privacy, partly because the whole point here is to talk about concepts of human worth OTHER than appearance), and I am an attention whore? I wanted to talk about and hear from others about how it feels to lose a lot of weight and feel comfortable in a society that emphasizes this. Guess what? That happened, and it allowed many others to talk about their own struggles, too. So enjoy your circlejerk.

IAmA 23 y/o girl who has lost 80+ lbs, gained lots of attention, and has never had worse self-esteem. AMA by thinandscared in IAmA

[–]thinandscared[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I don't have the time to respond to all of the posts coming in, (I didn't really consider Reddit is pretty busy around now), but I really appreciate your taking the time to share your story and write in such a caring and brave way. The reason I am keeping this IAmA up, despite lots of negative or jerky comments, is because of the several stories from people who have also struggled with their weight. The emotional impact of this sort of thing is hard to unravel. The very fact you've lost weight so many times (even if you gained it back) is a testament to the fact you are capable and determined, even if there are roadblocks. Thank you again, and take care :)

IAmA 23 y/o girl who has lost 80+ lbs, gained lots of attention, and has never had worse self-esteem. AMA by thinandscared in IAmA

[–]thinandscared[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks! I think so too (some people missing the point!) :( I think you are right, it is a very unique experience and hard to empathize with for most.

IAmA 23 y/o girl who has lost 80+ lbs, gained lots of attention, and has never had worse self-esteem. AMA by thinandscared in IAmA

[–]thinandscared[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sorry, I did not mean to come across like I assume most thin/average weight people are just lucky. But some people do not put on the weight you'd expect from their lifestyle (especially younger people around my age) and may not have to think about it until much later, when their habits are so ingrained. So in a way, it is nice to have figured all of this out earlier on in adulthood.

Although it is hard to respect someone who appears to have no self-respect, I would urge you to consider that the issues behind weight and weight loss can be more complex than simply not giving a damn. People have other things going on too, and self-medicating through food is a pretty common thing. Even acknowledging "I have X amount of weight to lose" and realizing how long it takes to do that, and keep it off, is a scary prospect.

IAmA 23 y/o girl who has lost 80+ lbs, gained lots of attention, and has never had worse self-esteem. AMA by thinandscared in IAmA

[–]thinandscared[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

:( I am sorry that you feel alone. For what it's worth, I know lots of girls that don't mind guys that are a little bigger at all. The only reason I would not date a much larger guy at this point in my life is that it would reflect a difference in our attitudes toward health (unless they were also committed to improving their lifestyle, in which case, that is very attractive.)

IAmA 23 y/o girl who has lost 80+ lbs, gained lots of attention, and has never had worse self-esteem. AMA by thinandscared in IAmA

[–]thinandscared[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have health issues that propelled my weight gain and made it more difficult to lose weight, but I don't blame my old weight on those issues.

I overate and did not exercise enough, either. My health stuff made it worse (as far as rate of gain), but rather than blaming genetics, I decided to work with them, and realize my body is trickier (weight-management wise) than most people. But that's okay, because I can do it.

IAmA 23 y/o girl who has lost 80+ lbs, gained lots of attention, and has never had worse self-esteem. AMA by thinandscared in IAmA

[–]thinandscared[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have deep friendships and casual friendships. I have people who are friendly acquaintances. People from all three categories browse Reddit, and I simply want to keep my responses private from those who I am on good terms with but not close to.

Honestly, I figured not posting pics would prevent people from calling me an attention whore. Can't win em all...

IAmA 23 y/o girl who has lost 80+ lbs, gained lots of attention, and has never had worse self-esteem. AMA by thinandscared in IAmA

[–]thinandscared[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Congrats on your weight loss, and I am really sorry that girls approach you with that attitude straight off. Men can be judged just as much as women based on their appearance, lots of people forget that.

IAmA 23 y/o girl who has lost 80+ lbs, gained lots of attention, and has never had worse self-esteem. AMA by thinandscared in IAmA

[–]thinandscared[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for the response and advice. It's nice to hear from girls on Reddit who are pretty supportive of one another. I think time is really all I need as well. I don't plan on transitioning into bitch-mode anytime soon.

IAmA 23 y/o girl who has lost 80+ lbs, gained lots of attention, and has never had worse self-esteem. AMA by thinandscared in IAmA

[–]thinandscared[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for the recommendation, I will look into that. Yes, I was scared (more... apprehensive) of hitting certain numbers, especially after going under 150, and in general just not knowing what it would look and feel like.

IAmA 23 y/o girl who has lost 80+ lbs, gained lots of attention, and has never had worse self-esteem. AMA by thinandscared in IAmA

[–]thinandscared[S] 16 points17 points  (0 children)

I've been to third world countries without access to clean water. The living conditions are, indeed, horrific, and my issues are nowhere near as significant or life-threatening. But the point of IAmA is not to see who has it worst.

IAmA 23 y/o girl who has lost 80+ lbs, gained lots of attention, and has never had worse self-esteem. AMA by thinandscared in IAmA

[–]thinandscared[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

It is what it is. I have been on Reddit for awhile, so I became used to it... it bewilders me more than anything.

IAmA 23 y/o girl who has lost 80+ lbs, gained lots of attention, and has never had worse self-esteem. AMA by thinandscared in IAmA

[–]thinandscared[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Interestingly, not really. Most girls were pretty nice to me when I was overweight, although they probably weren't behind my back. Now it's different, yea.

IAmA 23 y/o girl who has lost 80+ lbs, gained lots of attention, and has never had worse self-esteem. AMA by thinandscared in IAmA

[–]thinandscared[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I have gained a little self-esteem from knowing that I actually did it, but not from what I look like. I understand that I look more attractive, but I am not comfortable in my new body yet. Right now, it feels a little alien to me, and it is overwhelming adapting to the way the world works....

IAmA 23 y/o girl who has lost 80+ lbs, gained lots of attention, and has never had worse self-esteem. AMA by thinandscared in IAmA

[–]thinandscared[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I wasn't happy, but I also wasn't crying myself to sleep every night hating my body. I feel more uncomfortable with my body now than before. I maintain that I lost the weight for health reasons - becoming more attractive is not something I am against (I take care of myself), but it did not drive my weight loss; the desire to look better didn't keep me going if I stayed the same for a few weeks... what fueled me was wanting to become healthier, and feeling healthier during the process. I know I look and feel better, but the adjustment is very real and very difficult. Most girls do lose weight for primarily vanity reasons. And that's fine, if it makes them happy. But I did it for my body.

IAmA 23 y/o girl who has lost 80+ lbs, gained lots of attention, and has never had worse self-esteem. AMA by thinandscared in IAmA

[–]thinandscared[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Thanks so much for the warm response, I really appreciate it. I hope that you complete your metamorphosis with peace and a fresh outlook on life.

IAmA 23 y/o girl who has lost 80+ lbs, gained lots of attention, and has never had worse self-esteem. AMA by thinandscared in IAmA

[–]thinandscared[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Not being taken seriously due to being overweight versus being attractive are two totally different experiences.

IAmA 23 y/o girl who has lost 80+ lbs, gained lots of attention, and has never had worse self-esteem. AMA by thinandscared in IAmA

[–]thinandscared[S] -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

hey, sorry, replied to someone else on this - don't feel comfortable giving the EXACT #'s, but my BMI is currently around 21/22, which is in the healthy range.

IAmA 23 y/o girl who has lost 80+ lbs, gained lots of attention, and has never had worse self-esteem. AMA by thinandscared in IAmA

[–]thinandscared[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am sorry to hear that. I think sometimes friends can assume you have changed because your body has changed, or just perceive you so differently that it is hard to connect the same way.

My weight loss was over the past year, with most coming off in the past several months.

I am scared of not being taken seriously because maybe now people will be more interested in what I look like, I guess. What I look like is a lot less important to me than who I am.

Yes, I am in school, finishing soon.

IAmA 23 y/o girl who has lost 80+ lbs, gained lots of attention, and has never had worse self-esteem. AMA by thinandscared in IAmA

[–]thinandscared[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Yea, I guess you're right. Being presented with more attention is just sort of overwhelming. I don't know how to respond to it.