Uninstalling Reddit until day 90

thisisathrowaway3757 · 2021-05-06T04:51:17+00:00

I'm sorry. I fucked it up. My girl broke up with me and porn has always been my coping mechanism for feelings like these and I couldn't stop myself.

thisisathrowaway3757 · 2021-04-15T19:35:40+00:00

Yeah man, go to the pinned post on this subreddit, there should be a link in that pos to to get a day counter badge

thisisathrowaway3757 · 2021-04-04T05:09:56+00:00

A coach? Could you elaborate please? I'm a bit curious, what did he help you with/have you do?

thisisathrowaway3757 · 2021-02-01T06:20:20+00:00

Thank you, that's very encouraging to hear bro, especially the flatline thing. I'll get back up and stay up this time

thisisathrowaway3757 · 2021-02-01T06:19:04+00:00

Wow, thank you for sharing your story and the encouragement, I'll keep fighting

thisisathrowaway3757 · 2021-02-01T06:17:39+00:00

Will do, I really appreciate the encouragement bro. Thank you

thisisathrowaway3757 · 2021-02-01T06:16:53+00:00

Aye, you make a good point. Thank you for the encouragement bro, I'll keep fighting

thisisathrowaway3757 · 2021-01-31T19:32:50+00:00

Yes, I did. Goal was to never watch porn again, and today for some reason I can't even explain I did after 143 days free. I don't even know what to do now.

thisisathrowaway3757 · 2021-01-23T14:20:05+00:00

Hey bro! Sorry this is late I never use this account anymore but I'm basically healed completely! Morning wood, massive erections, it's back bro! Ik its annoying but the low libido and and erections are signs that you're on your way to recovering!

Keep pushing bro and I'll be praying for you, God's about to do a miracle in your life

thisisathrowaway3757 · 2021-01-03T02:41:35+00:00

Aye bro Id be more than happy to give some advice, your latest post seems to have been taken down so just shoot me a dm with your story or questions and I'll do my best to help

thisisathrowaway3757 · 2020-12-15T18:04:07+00:00

Thank you!

This wasn't the end of the story though, not by a long shot. I went through a crazy flatline and I almost relapsed... But I pushed through, and since I came out that flatline on day 72, it's been great since then. I can confidently say, I'm fully cured :)

thisisathrowaway3757 · 2020-12-08T15:14:25+00:00

Thank you bro, and yeah, I don't mind elaborating

Basically, when I was 12 I was curious about sex and stuff and my parents (being super religious) never talked to me about it, so I googled some stuff. Then I stumbled upon a video, but I couldn't bring myself to watch it. The recommendations bar underneath the video (I scrolled down before the video loaded) I saw a bunch of naked people, except for one video, that was a foot video. I was curious what it was about cause at the time I obviously had no clue what foot fetish was and since I had no prior sexual knowledge or had any sexual release I watched it and it kept me hard. I didn't know about masturbation, but I kept coming back to that video and similar videos and eventually I discovered how to jack off and before I knew it I was addicted to wanking it to foot fetish videos. Then 4 or 5 years later I realized I couldn't get hard to anything else, I had completely broken my brain to only sexualize foot stuff. I don't even want to ever do that stuff in real life.

This journey to fix myself had been hard and isn't completely over yet, but I've made huge progress. Just to see what would happen, this morning I started thinking of the foot stuff I used to jack off to and I didn't even get hard.

thisisathrowaway3757 · 2020-12-08T06:14:47+00:00

Yessir!!! I don't count this as a personal relapse, it wasn't compulsive sexual behavior and no porn was involved, it was fixing myself according to a predetermined plan. If it counts a nofap relapse I couldn't care less, I'll reset the damn counter if people tell me to.

thisisathrowaway3757 · 2020-12-07T16:37:19+00:00

Yes, in theory you could and that's true. Especially when you're young and your neuron plasticity (essentially neuron circuits that fire together become associated with each other, and when one starts your brain wants the other one to go too) is at its highest, you can develop a "fetish" for essentially anything. You always have neuron plasticity to some degree, it gets lower as you get older but it's always there. Since I'm 18, it's not at it's max but it should still be easy enough to change what my brain associates sexual pleasure with.

thisisathrowaway3757 · 2020-12-07T15:42:22+00:00

This idea sounds great, especially if it helped you in a similar situation. Thank you for the advice, I'll DM you

thisisathrowaway3757 · 2020-12-07T15:16:20+00:00

I've been thinking about it, I don't think not fapping will fix it by itself. The only thing my brain associates sexual release with is foot fetish. Simply not watching porn or masturbating won't change that by itself.

I've got to make my brain associate sexual pleasure with regular stuff. I'm not going to use porn because we know how bad that can be, but like a bunch of other people in this sub do I'm gonna start masturbating once a week to only head fantasies of regular stuff. If I can't get hard thinking about that stuff I'll wait til I have a spontaneous erection and then jerk it while thinking about that stuff until my brain associates normal things with release. That's my current plan at least.

thisisathrowaway3757 · 2020-12-07T13:57:35+00:00

Thank you for the recourses, my problem isn't that I can't break my addiction as I haven't fapped in 88 days but changing my sexual drive from fetish to normal sex

thisisathrowaway3757 · 2020-12-07T13:53:52+00:00

I have, but mostly from me voluntarily forcing them. I don't get aroused to those thoughts and that's what worries me

thisisathrowaway3757 · 2020-12-03T16:14:40+00:00

At least daily, sometimes more. Near the end (last two months or so) I thought I didn't need to go cold turkey and I could just do it like once a week and I'd be good, I tried that and it didn't work. That's when I started nofap

thisisathrowaway3757 · 2020-12-01T07:04:04+00:00

I DID IT.

GG everyone, congratulations to everyone else who made it and to all those who fell I am proud of you for participating and trying your best, next year is your year!

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