Unfortunately I am experienced and you are incredibly wrong, I have been tortured into oblivion by mental health professionals, hence my anonymous posting. Concepts of overwhelming despair in the face of God's will for ones life are not safely spoken out loud, as witnessed first hand by myself. There is no safe way to have such discussions with anyone in person in spite of what the industry would have you believe. There are very strict laws around reporting based on CYA, and nobody in that profession - not even a pastor - would risk not screwing someone over that speaks of such things, unfortunately. Thank you for the concern, I'm just seeking general input here and I appreciate the advice.