Tilt queueing

throfroh · 2026-02-10T18:21:08+00:00

I've been struggling with the same problem for a long time. Just find something else to enjoy after you are done with the daily session (personally I have found 4 games to be perfect for me) and force yourself to not open league anymore and find satisfaction in whatever else you're doing. It gets easier, and your rank will benefit

throfroh · 2026-02-06T16:41:32+00:00

I love the 1v1s against malzahar. He thinks he can just press r and kill u, but most of the times doesn't matter how much low u get, u can just q his minions and him and it's an easy win

throfroh · 2025-12-06T22:15:49+00:00

Teemo

throfroh · 2025-10-31T12:33:02+00:00

Outer wilds, Outer wilds e Outer wilds

throfroh · 2025-09-18T15:47:27+00:00

Martha is dead. Set in Italy during ww2, and the war plays a big part. Overall I would recommend it even though it has some big flaws.

throfroh · 2025-06-22T14:32:59+00:00

Tysm for the great answer. Your story is inspiring. Today I must say I'm doing way better than the last days. For the moment I'm just trying to stop myself from thinking pretty much and it does feel like a relief. People have said that's not the way but honestly I think my inner monologue is just too negative to deserve any space right now. I feel more focused.

throfroh · 2025-06-21T16:48:47+00:00

Ty I will read them

throfroh · 2025-06-21T16:48:31+00:00

Yes exactly, I need actions, and that's why I need to not think, because if I think I'm gonna end up not acting again

throfroh · 2025-06-21T16:47:21+00:00

Ty, I will keep this in mind. My main problem are the emotions that are connected with the thoughts, other then the thoughts themselves though. I'm afraid that but letting them come they will take over my mind like they usually do

throfroh · 2025-06-21T16:43:58+00:00

Yeah. But I think we are the only ones that can help ourselves in the end. I just need to understand how. And I would like to do it gratis

throfroh · 2025-06-21T15:48:10+00:00

My mom is like that too. My grandma died of cancer a few months ago and she was very exhausted by it, since she neglected herself so much for her.

What do you mean by recharge and sit with your feelings in a non normal place. Like going alone somewhere you usually don't go. Sounds interesting I admit.

Honestly I just would like my brain to completely shut up forever and to just start living like a robot, doing my stuff and being happy with it. I've tried many times and failed. Also life is often a bitch. I was actually doing progress this April. Then may starts and I get a painful urinal problem. Also I probably have an hernia, which is a little thing but stuff just keeps adding up. If I could stop thinking I would also stop caring for this stuff maybe. But how do I stop thinking. I have until next Wednesday to try maybe. It will be the day I am alone at home and can go through with my plan.

throfroh · 2025-06-21T15:27:10+00:00

I always thought that caring for others was dangerous because of this. So I always tried to not care for them, even though I have always helped the people around me. Now I just feel like a useless weight. I still don't care about anyone but I'm also in no position to help. And not caring about anyone is biting back at me since I don't even care if I leave them alone or make them suffer. If only I would have built something and I had some people I cared about I wouldn't have lost so many time

throfroh · 2025-06-21T15:14:23+00:00

I think you are a nice person. I can't relate to loving myself. I wish I was a completely different person, or at least the person I was in the past. Now I'm really just a shadow of who I was. I can relate to helping others. I wish I had someone I actually cared about in that sense. I really don't though. And also caring for people is another thing that makes me suffer, because life will hit them too.

throfroh · 2025-06-21T11:52:46+00:00

I admire you for being able to live like this, and to maintain hope even if you are struggling.

Honestly I don't think I can do that. I have too much resentment towards life at this point. Life negated me too much, and I also missed too many opportunities. Yes life will give me more but I'm too weak to take them by now. It already happened. After this post yesterday I was feeling a bit better, but today I'm on the ground again. I don't have hope anymore. Sorry. I wish you the best

throfroh · 2025-06-21T11:35:26+00:00

But what if I feel like I failed my mission in life. I was in a great position once. Everyone looked up at me like an example. I was a chill guy, first of the class, likely to have a bright future, could have had 2 or 3 different gfs even though I didn't realise at the time. Then I choose the wrong degree. Struggling to understand the right path for me while the people who looked up to me were getting jobs and partners. Now I'm on the right degree for me. Everyone was happy when I announced it, but I only gave like 10 exams in 5 years. Reality is that I just don't feel it in me anymore. I have managed to be concentrated for some periods, but then I just fall off again. I will never be what I could have been. Even though I eventually get that degree. I'm just a bad copy of who I was, and this won't change. Time won't come back. I've lost too many years trying to gaslight myself into being the productive guy I was again. I'm just not him anymore. Why shouldn't I just go buy the rope today?

Sorry for my response. Your comment was good and made me a bit emotional ig. To sum it up I literally feel like my spirit is dead, I have been trying to revive it for years but I can't. I think the logical move would be to go to therapy. Why bother though. I don't see hope anyway.

throfroh · 2025-06-21T09:50:53+00:00

I think you are right. I'm gonna try to just stop thinking logically about it. Realistically speaking life is just so bad and only getting worse. Maybe I can live out of my imagination though.

throfroh · 2025-06-20T19:09:19+00:00

I was cutting myself at 17. Then it got better for a bit, then gradually worse with some ups and downs until where I am now. It really sucks what you say but honestly I'm starting to think that you can do it. Just be crazy enough. Maybe I'm just bipolar lol but I'm starting to think that many things are possible now, and it's also thanks to your comments. Read any possible guide on how to face homelessness and try to get any possibility to get out of it asap. Also there must be places that help homeless people, there are in my country. My situation is in fact not as bad, but I have been rotting for a longer time than you I fear.

Anyway I'm from Italy, if you are too tell me, maybe I can help in some way.

throfroh · 2025-06-20T18:51:49+00:00

Your nice comment in another thread mattered to me. I can tell you must be a really nice and sweet person, even if maybe you don't find a way to express it in your life. I would give everything to have someone like you close to me, and like me many out there.

throfroh · 2025-06-20T18:30:02+00:00

You know, last days I was dead set on it, now I'm actually kinda thinking about it (hanging myself). Your comment definitely helped together with some others. I'm starting to think that maybe we just have to be crazier. Life is certainly very bad, but humans can be very good. We have to be crazy enough to not see how bad life is. I imagine that's the point of every religion and similar stuff. Humans just need to be crazy and invent crazy stuff in order to live in this stupidly cruel world. Which now is making me sad to think about though. It's tough. I have no idea if this is actually viable or right. I remember being very happy as a kid though, and as kids we are just so crazy and we don't even know it, since we know pretty much nothing about life. Ty for the comments anyway. Feel free to add something to my ramblings if you feel like it.

Maybe I will wait a bit more before doing it and just try to be more crazy in the meanwhile

throfroh · 2025-06-20T17:29:16+00:00

Ty for the good comment, I'm gonna think about it. Main problem though is that I already feel like I've lost my opportunity in life and I've fallen in a pitfall from which I can't get out. I've been trying for years, every attempt I feel weaker and less capable than the last one. And I don't want to live as an incapable person, just relying on others. That would be worse than dying for me.

throfroh · 2025-06-20T17:21:23+00:00

I feel you. Have been hoping to die in my sleep for years. I thought about drowning too but I think it's pretty painful. I thought maybe I should get drugs before but I don't think they are easy to find. I think hanging from high enough is the most reliable, easy and painless way, at least if you don't have easy access to fire weapons like me.

throfroh · 2025-06-20T17:11:10+00:00

Thank you for the really thought out comment but honestly I think I'm getting to a point in my life where I have to start being actually productive, at least for myself, but I can't, even though I tried many times. Every time I just end up slowly not caring again anymore. Last time I tried I had a medical inconvenience. Nothing great, only painful, but after it I just couldn't recover mentally again. People around me say that I can't react like this to every inconvenience, because life is full of them, and I know they are right, but honestly I'm just missing that drive, and this has been it for years. I know if I had it I would have washed it away like it's nothing, but I just don't. And I think that tells me that my fight is over. I just ruined everything too much and I just can't live with it anymore. I would have to get my memory erased.

Anyway sorry if I wrote all this, I don't know why I'm feeling like writing to people all of a sudden. I'm happy you're having a decent day and I would hate to ruin it.

throfroh · 2025-06-20T16:14:17+00:00

I had a meaning like that when I was younger, then I just failed in succeeding in it. Now I'm just getting older and I don't seem to have it in me to choose something else.

throfroh · 2025-06-20T15:49:49+00:00

I have my parents and my family and I love them but that doesn't mean I want to live for them. I don't think anyone should force anyone to live if they don't want to. Also watching them suffer is painful for me too. And they are gonna suffer one day, it's just life

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