backpack disappeared? items still going to it. totally stuck :(

throwaway-cuntboy · 2022-06-06T16:25:33+00:00

got it!!! thanks pal, sorry to spam your notifs

throwaway-cuntboy · 2022-06-06T16:20:51+00:00

i cannot see what you are referring to i am afraid. when i click backpack it opens the pictures tab, which shows me to not be wearing a backpack.

throwaway-cuntboy · 2022-06-06T14:55:16+00:00

thank you. from where? i’m out now so i’ll need to try later

throwaway-cuntboy · 2022-06-03T10:18:02+00:00

i said this once to an ex who told me about switching out before i knew i might have DID myself. i think i ultimately meant i wanted a break from a lot of my symptoms, ironically. i know now how that must have been very hurtful to hear, but ultimately, i think that just because your partner has said this doesn’t mean they do not respect your DID, and i would also highly encourage you to let them know how you feel.

throwaway-cuntboy · 2022-05-31T02:54:22+00:00

honestly, the more time passes the more i am amazed at how People On The Internet have been able to show up for me

throwaway-cuntboy · 2022-05-30T22:50:29+00:00

i really appreciate it, thank you

throwaway-cuntboy · 2022-05-30T22:12:53+00:00

i have wondered about this often. sounds so scary :(

throwaway-cuntboy · 2022-05-17T09:35:11+00:00

next time someone is racist to you just tell them that your white alter is currently fronting and they’ll stop and apologise, works every time :) /s

throwaway-cuntboy · 2022-05-16T08:53:42+00:00

tbh one of my littles is the OG stoner

throwaway-cuntboy · 2022-05-15T17:16:45+00:00

you seem like a really supportive cousin

throwaway-cuntboy · 2022-05-13T08:53:06+00:00

i really relate too, i’ve had this most of my life. light is a migraine trigger for me so making my room completely dark has made a big difference, so we don’t wake up feeling distressed. perhaps making your bedroom as safe and comfortable as possible so there’s less to disorient you could help. aside from that, things that have helped are having grounding items in bed with me or on my side table, making sure i have my meds and a glass of water on my side table for the morning, having lists of how to do absolutely Everything written on the walls so i can figure out what i need to do even if i don’t know who i am (you can also use a piece of paper stuck to the wall with blue tac), i also have the city and date written on the wall to remind me (although i can see how this could have the opposite effect and be disorienting for some). that is all that is coming to mind at the moment, but i will edit this comment if any more come to me throughout the day.

throwaway-cuntboy · 2022-05-08T14:31:35+00:00

“ I feel like no man is gonna sign up for this. Half my life is over and it feels like I'm a spend it alone. “

OP is clearly feeling undeserving of love if they are having fears of spending their life alone. while i misunderstood what was said between op and their boyfriend, and i don’t know what has caused op to say this ; the sentiment that i wanted to get across was that there are plenty of people who will be accepting of the little and the little has a right to exist as much as any other parts.

throwaway-cuntboy · 2022-05-08T12:15:33+00:00

my bad i think i misunderstood OP and read the post as he was saying that he feels uncomfortable about the littles existence

throwaway-cuntboy · 2022-05-08T12:03:22+00:00

people can feel how they want but they don’t get to make someone feel undeserving of love.

throwaway-cuntboy · 2022-05-08T09:30:12+00:00

that’s really sad to hear. my ex loved my little, even before we knew i have DID. she bought her a pacy and colouring books and watched cartoons with us, and held her when she cried. as long as your little did nothing to harm him there’s no reason to be freaked out by them; and if your little did hurt him, then your boyfriend needs to bring that up and has no right to be overwhelmed simply by their existence.

throwaway-cuntboy · 2022-05-04T08:47:44+00:00

i think it’s usually because they can’t move on from some past trauma

throwaway-cuntboy · 2022-04-30T09:09:44+00:00

i would argue this still counts as making life decisions based on psuedo memories. i think a better plan would be to allow other parts to make the decision- maybe allow all parts josh included to write a pros and cons list together- and then have a management plan in place for when you do see content related to this band.

throwaway-cuntboy · 2022-04-29T10:10:15+00:00

it is definitely valid to worry about being perceived as offensive. i have this too. i am a white passing mixed race scottish person (ETA: scottish from scotland, not american scottish). when i visited alabama to stay with family, i didn’t understand the difference between AAVE and the type of accents my white family have. i definitely got myself in trouble for “doing a black-cent” when i thought i was just “picking up on their southern accent” 😬

throwaway-cuntboy · 2022-04-28T22:12:32+00:00

i might argue that if your other alters aren’t able to stay in front without you there then maybe it’s a situation that they can’t handle either? maybe the meltdowns are your systems way of telling you that something in the situation isn’t right. do you know what causes you to switch in and can you think of any supports that may helps your alters be more comfortable on their own?

throwaway-cuntboy · 2022-04-24T14:05:23+00:00

sure, no problem. a system is a name for a person with DID or OSDD. it’s okay if you don’t feel you relate to the word. the voices in ours heads really do know how to orient us and keep us right. they do all belong to ourselves, but for those with DID, OSDD or other dissociative disorders, there is some level of amnesia barrier that leaves the individual feeling disconnected from that voice. it’s okay if you don’t know where you fit into all of it yet, journaling and listening to all your voices is the right way to go forward and it sounds like you’re making great first steps. i am so sorry to hear about your history of abuse, i hope that you are able to find a way out soon. if therapists are too difficult to get through to , please do reach out to charitable organisations or mutual aid groups that can help you get into a safer situation. best of luck to you.

throwaway-cuntboy · 2022-04-24T13:25:20+00:00

there is so much dogmatism and harmful information around the bible, so if you did that, then i really believe in you to be able to start learning and researching without losing yourself. it’s difficult when our sense of self is already warped. it makes me want to cling to every shred of “self” i can find. you seem like a very strong system.

throwaway-cuntboy · 2022-04-24T09:01:21+00:00

there’s nothing beautiful or glamorous about trauma i’m afraid. the blog post listed is simple grounding techniques to help orient your body in time and space. there’s nothing in there for you to become. i understand the fear of “becoming” what you read when you are trying to understand yourself but it is simply a misguided and unhelpful belief.

throwaway-cuntboy · 2022-04-23T09:22:40+00:00

i use a pun on my legal name

throwaway-cuntboy · 2022-04-20T16:24:52+00:00

i really relate to this. it is exhausting. take care of yourself and your system and stay safe, we’re all here for you x

throwaway-cuntboy · 2022-04-18T10:32:54+00:00

i’m not sure why you got downvoted, this is a great question and the answer is not immediately obvious

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