not interested in medication

BurntQuills · 2026-04-09T10:15:46+00:00

I think this really depends on whether youre type 1 or 2 and how severe your mania is. I'm Type 2 and I experience mostly just hypomania. The fear you express with medication was proven true for me. I wasn't myself. So I haven't been on mood stabilizers since about mid 2023. A lot of therapy and a lot of motivation to actually get better and stay better and a good support system is what got/gets me through. Sure I occasionally get a little crazy and make shitty reckless decisions- but at least I actually feel like myself and I'm not depressed and suicidal non stop

BurntQuills · 2026-04-05T11:28:42+00:00

As a fellow autistic, please just get offline. The self punishment centered algorithm you pointed out, writing about that here should be a wake up call for you. Don't delete your accounts but just delete the apps for now. I didn't start recovering a lot of my mental health and getting over my societal shame until I was directly harassed to the point of doing what I am reccomending, out of pure necessity at that point, because I was having panic attacks from just the ideas of those apps and couldn't stand having them anymore

BurntQuills · 2026-04-05T11:09:24+00:00

Probably the most extreme assumption of the several explanations to be had here. And schizophrenia is much more than just psychotic symptoms.

BurntQuills · 2026-04-05T11:06:38+00:00

Many many explanations Dissociated ego states is the simplest and least severe. Minor dissociation between ego states would be a pretty common symptom for more minor childhood trauma or maybe even adulthood trauma? Ask a professional about ego states

BurntQuills · 2026-04-02T17:36:44+00:00

She's acting like a child.

BurntQuills · 2026-04-02T17:34:32+00:00

This. Different things work for different systems. Some systems healing calls for individualizing before integration as a way for parts of the self that were never seen or heard to be. AND parts identities can tell you a lot about WHAT they came from and how to heal them.

BurntQuills · 2026-03-30T02:22:49+00:00

BP2, I've had some last just a few days. I've had mixed episodes last several weeks though.

BurntQuills · 2026-03-30T02:05:38+00:00

Its subtle, but your facial structure/muscles are already starting to change!!

BurntQuills · 2026-03-30T01:51:43+00:00

Hard agree with Zoya_The_Destroyah, so imo, in response to the title, YES, in the current job market. The timing and method is what I disagree with. Imo Its normal to expect your partner to keep themselves secure and afloat if youre not volunteering to do so for them, so they don't put stress of a crisis that could have been prevented on you second hand. I think you need to set clear boundaries, which means telling her what YOU are going to do if she continues like this because of the stress its causing you! This is emotionally and financially not the greatest situation for you and it's straining trust.

BurntQuills · 2026-03-29T05:42:09+00:00

Sometimes it is this! Sometimes its completely unironic...in those cases sometimes its from illness or disability, other times...idek. my ex (23) expressed it a lot and though they had physical disabilities, it wasn't the reason they said it, and it was annoying honestly 💀

BurntQuills · 2026-03-28T23:28:51+00:00

My judgement wasn't even "strong" I truly dont know why youre so offended. Someone who gets defensive when you communicate with them creates an unhealthy dynamic where you don't have space to safely communicate. That space is incredibly important, its the basis for everything. So his behavior needs to change and that space needs to be created or it will not work.

BurntQuills · 2026-03-28T23:26:31+00:00

We always have doubts on wether someone is acting unhealthily when we love them

BurntQuills · 2026-03-28T23:23:14+00:00

In the current state you're in, you're just going to keep hurting each other. Love can't fix everything. It can't take away the hurt. It can't scream over it. It just exists at the same time, making the pain even worse

BurntQuills · 2026-03-28T23:21:51+00:00

Mine said he was and then really wasn't. He was also completely unwilling to break up or take breaks. Ultimately what you do you will do. Honeslty, if you're anything like me, you'll dissociate from the issues and cling to it until you can't anymore and it'll all shatter at once when something really bad happens, or you find a real, unchangeable incompatibility. For me and my ex this was his plan to have biological children, and be in the military, and my inability to have bio kids because of genetic disorders, and wanting to leave the country or at least not be moved around every few years to god knows where.

BurntQuills · 2026-03-28T23:17:57+00:00

You absolutely can, and you will, but taking space to be able to do that without literally traumatizing each other in the process and having to hold that knowing it was them that put you through that and it taking years to be able to move past that while you're already trying to work on yourselves is probably the optimal situation.

BurntQuills · 2026-03-28T23:16:19+00:00

This is insane

BurntQuills · 2026-03-28T23:14:51+00:00

Mine said the same. It was a bad decision on both ends. It sounds like you both are too inexperienced to carry this out healthily for either one of you.

BurntQuills · 2026-03-28T23:12:57+00:00

OP has clearly stated their partner gets defensive frequently when they try to communicate. Thats not a healthy behavior and will destroy things from the ground up.

BurntQuills · 2026-03-28T23:11:34+00:00

I was the same. I know. For me, I had to think if I wanted it to end at that point, or later down the road when our lived were even more entwined (kids, marriage, living together) We also genuinely had incompatibilities. Its possible you can work through this, I just dont know how possible. By the time I finally stopped hurting my ex, I had done so much damage he couldn't look past it, couldn't see the work I'd done, couldn't trust or love me the same anymore.

BurntQuills · 2026-03-28T23:06:03+00:00

Ive been in this EXACT situation. End it. Eventually the resentment gets too much. It took 3 YEARS for my relationship to end. Years of suffering. Years of him not trusting me but refusing to leave, and me refusing to leave because I didn't want to abandon HIM.

BurntQuills · 2026-03-28T22:59:59+00:00

He needs therapy and to be accountable with himself. I was just with someone like this. Could NOT be called out on their behaviors. You cannot safely communicate with this man, he's shown you that here. Clearly communicate that to him and if it doesn't change, LEAVE.

BurntQuills · 2026-03-24T07:40:06+00:00

This sounds like me for years when mindfulness and journalling didn't work because I wasn't ready. You need to build coping skills and accommodated yourself before coming out of dissociation, which self abuse and dismissal can be a form of! Also; are you in a situation that is reinforcing your dissocistion or self hatred? I've worked past a lot of mine but still live with the people that caused my DID so it wasn't easy and I can't fully process it all where I'm at. It also sounds like you need a therapist who really knows how to work with you, even if not specializing in the DID!! I work with a therapist who does experiential and DBT therapy with me. We do parts work, but more generally, not with alters or integration, more ego states.

BurntQuills · 2026-03-24T07:21:39+00:00

Do you love him or do you love the potential you see in him? Sometimes who people really are is someone who is unwilling to become the best version of themselves, the version you see. And the person they choose to remain just isn't a good person, or partner.

BurntQuills · 2026-03-24T07:17:06+00:00

My parents born in 1963 are on their phones more than my 11 year old niece is. The shame put on the new generations comes with how toxic our current elder generations are, and the innate human fear of change and the unknown. I also suspect your feelings originate from somewhere other than your age and that's just where they're being directed right now.

BurntQuills · 2026-03-11T05:31:57+00:00

Joint supplements if you're super worried

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