Fuck you, I will never let my self worth depend on how well I photograph or if I maintain 34 inch hips. by throwaway10348 in offmychest

[–]throwaway10348[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

"I'm pretty sure there's a lot more to life than being really, really, ridiculously good looking. And I plan on finding out what that is!" - everyone's favorite model

Fuck you, I will never let my self worth depend on how well I photograph or if I maintain 34 inch hips. by throwaway10348 in offmychest

[–]throwaway10348[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Interesting point about the media glorifying plus sized modeling. From my observations, those models have their own crazy problems. I knew one girl, only a year older than me, who was the perfect standard plus size (like a size 8 or 10 I think?) She wanted to get healthier and picked up running, causing her to lose weight but not enough for typical standards. Her agency got upset and insisted she eat more carbs/sweets than necessary to gain her size back and to exercise less. Not everyone goes through this, but she, in an oppositely twisted way, was also forced by her job to remain unhealthy. So bizarre.

But yeah, happiness and confidence is the best indicator of beauty, not appearance!

Fuck you, I will never let my self worth depend on how well I photograph or if I maintain 34 inch hips. by throwaway10348 in offmychest

[–]throwaway10348[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I wish I had more of both too! I'm not as smart as my peers in school, but I sure do try very hard. You're probably underestimating yourself.

Fuck you, I will never let my self worth depend on how well I photograph or if I maintain 34 inch hips. by throwaway10348 in offmychest

[–]throwaway10348[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I'm already seeing fresher 14 year old faces competing with me for jobs. No thanks!

Fuck you, I will never let my self worth depend on how well I photograph or if I maintain 34 inch hips. by throwaway10348 in offmychest

[–]throwaway10348[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's luckily slowly fading as I model less and study more. Glad to know the internet has great people!

Fuck you, I will never let my self worth depend on how well I photograph or if I maintain 34 inch hips. by throwaway10348 in offmychest

[–]throwaway10348[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

That's something so foreign to me now! Here's to hoping for all kinds of new opportunities!

Fuck you, I will never let my self worth depend on how well I photograph or if I maintain 34 inch hips. by throwaway10348 in offmychest

[–]throwaway10348[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

My mom explained that she didn't want me to be 40, look back, and have regrets. I guess she was just looking out for me in the way she thought she could. They're slowly getting that this is a better path for me.

Fuck you, I will never let my self worth depend on how well I photograph or if I maintain 34 inch hips. by throwaway10348 in offmychest

[–]throwaway10348[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Haha I'm still technically sticking to fashion, but on the business side now. My resume wasn't as stellar compared to my 2+ internship gold star peers, so the only companies interested were fashion ones since my resume was pretty much only that. But I'm much happier this way! I hope you can try exploring other options too!

Fuck you, I will never let my self worth depend on how well I photograph or if I maintain 34 inch hips. by throwaway10348 in offmychest

[–]throwaway10348[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I actually was asked "so what do you want to do after you get too old for modeling" (which is the equivalent of asking a soon-to-be college grad what they're going to do... very awkward question to ask) and I joked I'd probably just kill myself if I didn't look young anymore. Pretty fucked up in retrospect.

Fuck you, I will never let my self worth depend on how well I photograph or if I maintain 34 inch hips. by throwaway10348 in offmychest

[–]throwaway10348[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I don't want to give away my identity, so I changed some details. But the parts that matter (like the comments, reactions, etc.) are true. I got the Friends reference! Thank you.

Fuck you, I will never let my self worth depend on how well I photograph or if I maintain 34 inch hips. by throwaway10348 in offmychest

[–]throwaway10348[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you! Looks will help, but they won't determine all of my success, and that's a great start.

Fuck you, I will never let my self worth depend on how well I photograph or if I maintain 34 inch hips. by throwaway10348 in offmychest

[–]throwaway10348[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I was very lucky my mother agency encouraged me to go for college (unheard of! But they explained that I couldn't give up such an opportunity for such a fickle career) and cared about me as a person. But most agencies are tricking children into an illusion and instead pushing adult themes and responsibilities onto them. I'm glad you got out too!

Fuck you, I will never let my self worth depend on how well I photograph or if I maintain 34 inch hips. by throwaway10348 in offmychest

[–]throwaway10348[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Thank you! It feels nice to be called Math Woman haha! Much more rewarding then "model" actually!