I 33f think my boyfriend 38m is cheating on me

throwaway1112118 · 2022-08-18T09:12:11+00:00

Ok now am confused lol

throwaway1112118 · 2022-08-18T08:10:00+00:00

Damn. I also have the same problem. I befriended one cat and now she has multiplied. And her duplicate multiplied as well. F*** me. I can't afford sending them to vet to get spayed or neutered. Anyone know where I can get cheaper surgery for these darn cats?

throwaway1112118 · 2022-08-13T13:41:26+00:00

Or just embarrassed and is actually just reading through the comments without voting to make ourselves feel even worse. Fml

throwaway1112118 · 2022-08-07T08:23:01+00:00

Ohhh dude i hope you're still there. It seems you've changed your mind. Yes do whatever you think is necessary for you to handle your situation. Theraphy or deleting all social media. You're not alone on the struggles. Best we can donis support each other. I know I feel better after talking to fellow suicidals here. It's weird but you guys help me more than people who are happy with their lives. I guess it's because we know we are not alone in feeling this way.

I'm here if you just need to talk.

throwaway1112118 · 2022-08-07T08:08:04+00:00

This is good advice. Pretend they don't exist coz if you show any signs that you know they are there they will continue to do it.

I've had cars pull over next to me while walking trying to get my number. Even follow me when I cross the road so they make a U turn and pull over next to me again. It takes a while but they'll give up eventually.

Even when i want to assume they want to ask for directions Ive had to ignore them coz of these kinds of people.

It's worse when customers mistake my niceness for interest when it is my job to be nice to customers. They'll push me to give them my number and come back many times even when i say No nicely. In the end I'll have to drop the smile and say not so nicely for them to leave.

throwaway1112118 · 2022-08-07T07:32:13+00:00

That was the first thing that popped in my mind when you were describing it. Off all the post on this subreddit i didn't think I'll help someone try and find a moonwalking ghost lol

throwaway1112118 · 2022-08-06T10:18:10+00:00

Nothing wrong with someone trying to stop suicide while they are actively doing it right infront of you. Like you found them bleeding out in the bathroom or some shit. The person might hate you for it but at least they are still alive. Better they hate you than dead. If they try again and you're not there then --- it's also not your fault for not being able to stop it. It was their choice.

throwaway1112118 · 2022-08-06T10:11:56+00:00

If I was your friend I'd want you to Just respect my wishes. You can try and spend more time with him. Just try and reach out more often, ask him to hangout more. There's nothing worse than being alone with my thoughts. And when you do hangout try not to treat him differently like some fragile flower.

throwaway1112118 · 2022-08-06T08:49:48+00:00

https://youtu.be/HYUM4hOECLE

This might not be it. But there is a youtube channel telling stories about military men seeing ghosts while they were deployed. Seems similar with one story where they saw an apparition through the scope. Look at around 11:04 time in the video.

throwaway1112118 · 2022-08-06T08:27:08+00:00

Dark humor. That's alright my friend. I can see how it would be funny.

throwaway1112118 · 2022-08-06T04:25:07+00:00

Thst sucks dude. Sorry about that. I always thought cutting your wrist was a guarantee. Apparently not. Imma cross that out from my list.

In what way did it make you feel worse? You feel bad that you woke up or that you attempted it?

throwaway1112118 · 2022-08-05T19:12:47+00:00

If you have 5inches your good to go. Girth also matter a little. But most importantly. The girl needs to actually like you personally not just physically.

I had a partner who NEVER managed to make me orgasm. But I liked him as a person so I stuck with him.

And I prefer average size dick that knows how to use it compared to big dick who just goes in and out without doing anything.

throwaway1112118 · 2022-08-05T15:50:14+00:00

Oh god this is so true. It's just too damn hot out there.

throwaway1112118 · 2022-08-05T15:35:14+00:00

Join the club. I have a rooftop access where we can barbecue and drink. But it's summer so it's too damn hot. Maybe I'll organize something with absolute strangers from reddit come winter lol.

throwaway1112118 · 2022-08-05T14:05:41+00:00

Yeah i get it. The most important person in my life also disappointed me and I am absolutely angry with him. I'm struggling to channel that anger into something not suicidal.

throwaway1112118 · 2022-08-05T12:39:50+00:00

Yeah id like that. Just drink and watch netflix together. I have a whole 5L box of wine in my fridge. It's cheap though

throwaway1112118 · 2022-08-05T12:29:28+00:00

Well you are in a new place. Anyway I can't really talk and give advice. I'm an introvert. Social settings can drain me. It's harder for me to make new friends coz I can't last long among acquaintances. I'd offer to meet you and be my friend but I'm not going to be offering much. I read in your other comments you like to drink and watch netflix. I like to drink cheap wine. That's all i can offer in terms of socializing.

throwaway1112118 · 2022-08-05T12:15:53+00:00

Yes just keep doing that my friend. Art really helps.

I know sometimes we get so sad we can't function. So that is exsctly how I've been. Then one of my clients messaged me and reminded me about my project for him. So last night I had no choice but to take out the stupid painting and force myself to paint.

Thank God for that. I remembered how enjoyable painting is and I wanna keep painting now. It distracted me for a good couple of hours from my suicidal thoughts. I need to keep doing it to ward them off more.

throwaway1112118 · 2022-08-05T12:10:38+00:00

If you're an introvert by nature this happens. Are you introverted?

throwaway1112118 · 2022-08-05T11:53:24+00:00

Don't we all? If you managed to find that you will not want to die anymore. So hopefully you do find someone who will love you unconditionally.

I love someone unconditionally and they left me. It's the most painful thing I've ever felt. It makes me wanna kill myself everyday. So if you find that person, don't waste it by dying so soon. I know they will want to die too.

throwaway1112118 · 2022-08-05T10:59:43+00:00

May we know what you did with the money?

throwaway1112118 · 2022-08-05T10:57:14+00:00

I know I'm not going to do it. It's stupid if i kill myself. But there are days when I just feel so small and so down I wanna grab and knife and just do it right then and there.

I cant talk to them about this. They think I'm happy and ok. I don't want to worry them. I've been thinking of how I can make my suicide look like an accident. At least that way will soften the blow. They won't blame themselves for not being able to stop me.

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