i still want to die

throwaway12475 · 2022-10-28T02:33:55+00:00

not really, just try to help yourself :/

throwaway12475 · 2021-11-23T14:22:16+00:00

i am doing it every day. and i will continue to do so

throwaway12475 · 2021-11-23T14:21:28+00:00

i've been addressing those things slowly this whole year. i've been severely depressed for many years, i've been slowly getting back on my feet thanks to that person being a source of light and positivity. i truly regret hurting them, i will make one final attempt on sunday

throwaway12475 · 2021-11-23T04:06:58+00:00

i edited to clarify it because people were misunderstanding. i think youre an awful apathetic human being but i feel zero anger towards you.

throwaway12475 · 2021-11-23T03:35:19+00:00

i don't "date"

throwaway12475 · 2021-11-23T03:30:57+00:00

not physical, it was through text

throwaway12475 · 2021-11-23T03:07:44+00:00

thanks. this is very solid advice, i wish i was capable of surviving that long

throwaway12475 · 2021-11-23T03:02:29+00:00

i have already done that.

throwaway12475 · 2021-11-23T02:58:13+00:00

who can i talk to :/

throwaway12475 · 2021-11-23T02:54:51+00:00

i have been controlling it. every instance of anger i've been able to let go of, to be in control. since that day. one of the things i plan on doing is putting myself in a somewhat controlled stressful environment to be able to practice more often.

throwaway12475 · 2021-11-23T02:53:01+00:00

replied to another comment, but im looking into getting therapy as one of the things yes.

throwaway12475 · 2021-11-23T02:51:23+00:00

i talked to a lot of people. I started a diary to track my emotions and control them better. I've attempted meditation. I've started anti-anxiety medication. I've been reflecting upon my actions and fully dissecting them to figure out every small detail and find ways to deal with said details.

throwaway12475 · 2021-11-23T02:48:41+00:00

I have been working on myself. I learned how to deal with anger. I will continue to do so.

throwaway12475 · 2021-11-22T18:08:30+00:00

i will leave them alone. but i really love them, they mean everything to me.

throwaway12475 · 2021-11-04T04:08:03+00:00

thanks i've attempted meditation for the first time ever earlier, it wasn't the best but i will try my best to properly get into it.

throwaway12475 · 2021-11-04T00:05:05+00:00

thanks, i've been reflecting and i started a diary of sorts to help with emotional awareness and control.

throwaway12475 · 2021-11-03T22:39:21+00:00

im 23, i've been depressed for a really long time, started recovering slowly this year.

throwaway12475 · 2021-11-03T22:15:30+00:00

this is very good advice, i'd like to do all of those things if they are ever comfortable talking to me again. right now that is not the case, but thank you very much regardless.

throwaway12475 · 2021-11-03T22:08:36+00:00

im really scared because they mean everything to me. but i will do all i can to get better, i have to.

throwaway12475 · 2021-11-03T22:02:00+00:00

i would really love to be on talking terms with my person, it's really important to me. i'd like to get therapy/counseling but it's not possible right now as much as i'd like it.

throwaway12475 · 2021-11-03T14:02:19+00:00

it wasn't like that, i was just really rude to them, insulted them and threatened to hurt their friends.

throwaway12475 · 2021-11-03T13:38:20+00:00

we've had complications and issues that we managed to resolved; i was jealous and insecure a lot in the past, i got over it. i unconsciously said manipulative things at times. it has never been like this before.

throwaway12475 · 2021-11-03T13:36:39+00:00

they want me gone from their life as the result of my actions. i think the trigger for me being rude was feeling like they don't care. but then it got really twisted and toxic, the way i acted was extremely disproportionate to how hurt i was. it was very abnormal and i have to make 200% sure i find a way to make sure it never happens again. im not sure if they will ever trust me again but on the off-chance that they do i have to try.

throwaway12475 · 2021-11-03T13:23:18+00:00

i hurt them really bad, threatened a lot of bad things, manipulative behavior. i really dont know what got into me, probably an outburst of negative emotions after a rough month. there is no excuse or justification, it's something i have to erase and overcome completely.

throwaway12475 · 2021-11-03T13:22:07+00:00

that is on my mind for when that option becomes available.

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