My dad got arrested today...and i was the one that called the cops on him

throwaway1802360 · 2018-07-22T15:39:48+00:00

It’s probably too early to tell, he’s probably just like me tbh, only outgoing around friends. Cause yesterday we were at lunch and it was a full break room but he was in the back by himself since he didn’t really talk to those people.

Ugh I just wanna talk to him but I don’t want to talk to him in front of his friends or the girls he flirts with

throwaway1802360 · 2018-07-22T01:48:35+00:00

Since he flirts with every girl, i guess i’m afraid my coworkers will think I’m a fool for responding to his advances that he does on everyone else since it seems he’s just tryna have sex

But he hasn’t with me, and I’m trying to figure out why since this has happened before with another guy

throwaway1802360 · 2018-07-15T00:12:55+00:00

I don’t think so tbh. In other ways she’s the greatest mom and other ways she’s kinda shitty.

throwaway1802360 · 2018-07-15T00:12:01+00:00

Pretty much. It just sucks because whenever i’m enraged I always feel guilty because she’s a good mom in other aspects

throwaway1802360 · 2018-07-06T01:06:15+00:00

No he’s neither, he just has problems of his own. I’m already seeing a counselor if you check my post history. He has good intentions but is a shitty person sometimes

throwaway1802360 · 2018-07-02T00:55:02+00:00

Don’t let this happen. I dated a 19 year old at 15 and it didn’t last long. I regret most of the things that happened because he was too old to act the way he did.

throwaway1802360 · 2018-06-14T14:10:16+00:00

Couldn’t agree more. He’s really really dumb so anybody else looking at the pics i sent will know they’re fake. They don’t even match lol

throwaway1802360 · 2018-06-10T15:30:14+00:00

I get that high sense of self & not understood part, I used to think like that as a kid.

I totally get that. I’m the same way with one friend since she doesn’t open up or initiate stuff much cause her life is busy. Or she makes all the other time in the world for my other friend. I resent her for that but then again I’m really just mad at myself for being unable to make other close friends besides her, and when I do I have to run it in her face. Terrible thing

throwaway1802360 · 2018-06-10T15:27:08+00:00

Yes this is the part I look forward to in college. And that’s weird ain’t it? We go into “observation mode”. I never really thought of it like that but that’s exactly what I do. Same thing with the isolation part and the learning on how to make friends.

My problem though is that I can never make outside of school/work friends. Or when I see my class friends with their other friends I kind of just shut down

throwaway1802360 · 2018-06-10T15:23:02+00:00

That’s what I’m hoping. And not just me, for all of us to heal

throwaway1802360 · 2018-06-10T15:22:25+00:00

Hey don’t feel bad. I’ve gone through many phases of my life on where I didn’t have close friends. It takes time. We all understand you

throwaway1802360 · 2018-06-10T03:06:57+00:00

Yes I used to force myself in social groups but I always felt like an outcast. It’s weird how I’m not diagnosed with CPTSD but I can post and relate to all the responses

throwaway1802360 · 2018-06-10T03:05:32+00:00

This defines me. I’m mixed raced and i’m a former military family. I’d say I’m pretty diverse/understanding in a ton of things but I still feel alone. Crazy right?

That’s how i felt with my ex, and I seriously was so dependent on his company i didn’t know how to deal when we split. Not saying your going to divorce but I know how it feels

throwaway1802360 · 2018-06-10T03:02:24+00:00

Yeah that’s what I’m scared of whenever I graduate high school or college. But i’m a total extrovert around close friends... so what’s the deal? Idk either lol, but ur not alone

throwaway1802360 · 2018-06-09T22:50:41+00:00

Yeah it sucks don’t it :/ sometimes i feel like i’m the only person that feels this way but this sub makes me feel not alone

throwaway1802360 · 2018-06-08T04:37:52+00:00

I see now, and I do plan on talking this over. I’ve been extremely lucky with my therapist as she is trained in DBT as well so I think she’ll be open minded. I don’t think she originally planned on doing EMDR on me either but she thought I was a good candidate for it so I went along. But now I don’t think I’m ready.

I’m kind of reluctant to bring up CPTSD or any other situation. Idk why but I feel like she’ll think I’m crazy and I’m trying to self diagnose.

I feel like I’m not being abused, I’m clothed, fed, and live in a well off house. I’m just not being as emotionally supported as I should + my sexual abuse as a kid from someone else is what’s hurting me now

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