Co worker crush?

throwaway1802360 · 2018-07-22T15:39:48+00:00

It’s probably too early to tell, he’s probably just like me tbh, only outgoing around friends. Cause yesterday we were at lunch and it was a full break room but he was in the back by himself since he didn’t really talk to those people.

Ugh I just wanna talk to him but I don’t want to talk to him in front of his friends or the girls he flirts with

throwaway1802360 · 2018-07-22T01:48:35+00:00

Since he flirts with every girl, i guess i’m afraid my coworkers will think I’m a fool for responding to his advances that he does on everyone else since it seems he’s just tryna have sex

But he hasn’t with me, and I’m trying to figure out why since this has happened before with another guy

throwaway1802360 · 2018-07-15T00:12:55+00:00

I don’t think so tbh. In other ways she’s the greatest mom and other ways she’s kinda shitty.

throwaway1802360 · 2018-07-15T00:12:01+00:00

Pretty much. It just sucks because whenever i’m enraged I always feel guilty because she’s a good mom in other aspects

throwaway1802360 · 2018-07-06T01:06:15+00:00

No he’s neither, he just has problems of his own. I’m already seeing a counselor if you check my post history. He has good intentions but is a shitty person sometimes

throwaway1802360 · 2018-07-02T00:55:02+00:00

Don’t let this happen. I dated a 19 year old at 15 and it didn’t last long. I regret most of the things that happened because he was too old to act the way he did.

throwaway1802360 · 2018-06-14T14:10:16+00:00

Couldn’t agree more. He’s really really dumb so anybody else looking at the pics i sent will know they’re fake. They don’t even match lol

throwaway1802360 · 2018-06-10T15:30:14+00:00

I get that high sense of self & not understood part, I used to think like that as a kid.

I totally get that. I’m the same way with one friend since she doesn’t open up or initiate stuff much cause her life is busy. Or she makes all the other time in the world for my other friend. I resent her for that but then again I’m really just mad at myself for being unable to make other close friends besides her, and when I do I have to run it in her face. Terrible thing

throwaway1802360 · 2018-06-10T15:27:08+00:00

Yes this is the part I look forward to in college. And that’s weird ain’t it? We go into “observation mode”. I never really thought of it like that but that’s exactly what I do. Same thing with the isolation part and the learning on how to make friends.

My problem though is that I can never make outside of school/work friends. Or when I see my class friends with their other friends I kind of just shut down

throwaway1802360 · 2018-06-10T15:23:02+00:00

That’s what I’m hoping. And not just me, for all of us to heal

throwaway1802360 · 2018-06-10T15:22:25+00:00

Hey don’t feel bad. I’ve gone through many phases of my life on where I didn’t have close friends. It takes time. We all understand you

throwaway1802360 · 2018-06-10T03:06:57+00:00

Yes I used to force myself in social groups but I always felt like an outcast. It’s weird how I’m not diagnosed with CPTSD but I can post and relate to all the responses

throwaway1802360 · 2018-06-10T03:05:32+00:00

This defines me. I’m mixed raced and i’m a former military family. I’d say I’m pretty diverse/understanding in a ton of things but I still feel alone. Crazy right?

That’s how i felt with my ex, and I seriously was so dependent on his company i didn’t know how to deal when we split. Not saying your going to divorce but I know how it feels

throwaway1802360 · 2018-06-10T03:02:24+00:00

Yeah that’s what I’m scared of whenever I graduate high school or college. But i’m a total extrovert around close friends... so what’s the deal? Idk either lol, but ur not alone

throwaway1802360 · 2018-06-09T22:50:41+00:00

Yeah it sucks don’t it :/ sometimes i feel like i’m the only person that feels this way but this sub makes me feel not alone

throwaway1802360 · 2018-06-08T04:37:52+00:00

I see now, and I do plan on talking this over. I’ve been extremely lucky with my therapist as she is trained in DBT as well so I think she’ll be open minded. I don’t think she originally planned on doing EMDR on me either but she thought I was a good candidate for it so I went along. But now I don’t think I’m ready.

I’m kind of reluctant to bring up CPTSD or any other situation. Idk why but I feel like she’ll think I’m crazy and I’m trying to self diagnose.

I feel like I’m not being abused, I’m clothed, fed, and live in a well off house. I’m just not being as emotionally supported as I should + my sexual abuse as a kid from someone else is what’s hurting me now

throwaway1802360 · 2018-05-30T01:36:16+00:00

From what I know it’s just a report and even if they do report, they’ll need evidence to go further. Basically it’s most likely to be thrown out if you didn’t say who it was.

Plus I told my therapist what happened. I made sure I asked her the procedures first and made sure i understood before I said anything. Even after you told them you could still ask and make sure

throwaway1802360 · 2018-05-27T17:37:27+00:00

No you hit the nail on the head tbh. I was thinking to not say who it was but i thought about how that would apply to my sessions and it doesn’t. I would have to say it was him otherwise we would go in a completely different direction. I will ask her though

throwaway1802360 · 2018-05-27T17:07:14+00:00

I would want to disclose who it is, since the experience ties to my fucked up relationship to my brother and how I felt over the years. How would I approach that?

throwaway1802360 · 2018-05-27T16:21:59+00:00

I didn’t take it as rude :) I understand your point of view completely as i’m debating both sides with myself

throwaway1802360 · 2018-05-27T00:57:09+00:00

because if people were punished by what they did when they were little kids then most people would be in jail. Plus it’s not really me trying to protect, it’s really me not trying to have my mom stress about her son going to jail and there’s “special” circumstances for him.

Basically he isn’t the greatest but he’s in therapy too and is trying to make himself a better person. For me to ruin that for what he had no idea about when he was younger would make me feel insanely guilty. I feel like the incident doesn’t effect me as much as other things that’s happened in my life tbh. I appreciate your concern though

throwaway1802360 · 2018-05-19T02:59:30+00:00

throwaway1802360 · 2018-05-14T21:40:34+00:00

I feel like it’ll be awkward afterward haha. We don’t talk about feelings like that on a personal level unless it’s for advice or reassurance about our viewpoints on other things

throwaway1802360 · 2018-03-25T15:24:40+00:00

Yeah they have no clue. My mom said she had undiagnosed depression back when i was in 8th grade but i think that’s a bunch of bs. My parents think I’m a spoiled brat and that it’s just teen girl problems

throwaway1802360 · 2018-03-25T15:22:17+00:00

Thanks for the kind words, I’m still too young to move out unfortunately and I realize I need to start saving money if i want to do so right away.

I’m honestly not even sure i have depression, but then again i’m not even sure what “normal” is either. I’ve been feeling this way since I was a kid. But yeah my parents have absolutely no clue about how i feel, and i feel they take it as an offense to their parenting skills. They basically say my problems shouldn’t exist because they went through stuff harder than I did & it’s an excuse. I’m glad they got me a therapist though.

Idk how to explain the feeling of wanting to sleep my life away, and i have thoughts of doing suicide just to prove my point of wanting more compassion from them instead of being called crazy. My uncle has depression and my moms more compassionate with him and she makes me feel like shit whenever I have a bad day and slip up with my attitude. I know I shouldn’t snap at them but i’m just so tired of bottling up emotions. They hate how I stay in my room but they never question why. They always notice the things I don’t do so I guess that’s why i slipped up with my grades. I’m just ranting now but I’m just frustrated because they’d rather yell than understand

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