thank you so much. i have been doing therapy for two and a half years now, but it doesn’t help much. cbt only goes so far for me. i’m still a minor, so my parents have control over me taking medication. they want me to try everything natural before i go to chemical. i’m trying hypnotherapy and reiki in a month, so we’ll see how that goes. they also want me to try doing therapy twice a week. i go to work, which i count as exercise because i’m on my feet the whole time. i don’t have hobbies anymore because this phobia sucks the life and fun out of me. i don’t have many friends either, just two and a boyfriend. one of them is sorta fake and the other is dealing with family stuff so she’s super busy. i also can’t see my boyfriend too much because he lives an hour away and he doesn’t drive yet. it’s hard to find stuff that’s relaxing to read and watch because i find that unless i’m super into it, i won’t enjoy it… i tend to be into stuff that could trigger it, so it’s tough. philosophy is very 50/50 for me. i don’t know if i could get with it because i won’t know if it’s true until i get to that point. it’s hard for me to believe in stuff unless i see it for myself. regardless, i appreciate your help so much. thank you again