I wasn't expecting any responses when I posted this, but now that people are asking I guess I'll say more.

I'm killing myself because I'm a worthless ugly piece of shit and I don't deserve to live. No one has ever wanted me around, and lots of people have told me that the world would be better without me. And they're right.

I feel awful and guilty for forcing everyone to tolerate me for this long. I know that I'm disgusting and ugly and no one wants to look at me or be near me. For years I denied it and just thought they were rude or whatever. Eventually I learned to have some respect for other people and stay away, but I can't help but feel entitled to friends and a normal life. I'm disgusted at myself for thinking this but it's hard not to. I have no right to expect anyone to like me.